[Keep Out Of Reach Of Children.]'s diary

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Written about Monday 2005-08-08
Written: (7050 days ago)

I wish
I were
as hardcore
as I try
to make
it seem.

IthinkImightbefake.

641208  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2005-08-08
Written: (7050 days ago)

So that's fine yeah come by we'll take the afternoon off
We can kiss and undress if you want just talk
Cause I got nothing real, just empty space to fill
And you're my girl I like your style just imagine all the time we could kill.

IloveBrightEyes.
641004  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-08-07
Written: (7050 days ago)

It doesn't surprise me when they fight anymore.
I just can't wait to move out.

640966  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-08-07
Written: (7050 days ago)
Next in thread: 641010

P.S.
I met a girl who likes Jawbreaker
and it was an instant crush.

[I think I'm kidding about the crush thing, but regardless, she's radical.]

640938  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-08-07
Written: (7050 days ago)

Fucking emo kids.

640933  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-08-07
Written: (7050 days ago)
Next in thread: 641027

I hate everyone.
Except Wes.
And Nate.
But other than that..
I really really hate people.

640621  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-08-07
Written: (7051 days ago)

Did I forget to mention
that heroin
is an evil drug?
But
I love it.
So.
Fuckyou.

640282  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-08-06
Written: (7051 days ago)

Now I know why
whatshisface
gave me that hideous look
when I was leaving.
You said
that you wouldn't fuck me.
And you did anyway.
Sorry for talking so much about it.
But I can't get over how fucked up the situation is.

640271  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-08-06
Written: (7051 days ago)

P.S.
There's about 5 entries for today.
Scroll down, read some more.

640269  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-08-06
Written: (7051 days ago)

I'm a sucker for black guys.
FuckyouGoodbye.

640267  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-08-06
Written: (7051 days ago)

By the way,
since I have so much
to talk about..
I really can't stand the way I hate
every Puerto Rican person I meet.
Because
I love being Puerto Rican.
But
I hate Puerto Ricans.

640266  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-08-06
Written: (7051 days ago)

You bit my fucking lip and it hurt.
Also, I have bite marks on my shoulder or close around there.
And..
I have random bruises on my leg.
So.

I don't like him.
But..
I like the way he is.
Which doesn't make sense.
Because at first
he was an asshole.
"Take off your god damn pants"
Thanks.
When he's drunk it's funny.
And I think..
When he's drunk is the only time I like him.
But..
I've only seen him drunk.
The other times
didn't count.
Because..
I don't want them to.

Sorry for taking advantage of you.
But you asked, and I complied.
Plus, you fucked me.
I didn't fuck you.
And when it was over, you passed out and I left.
Sorry for the make-up stains on your sheets.
I know those aren't the only ones, darling.
640257  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-08-06
Written: (7051 days ago)

I want everything to be the same.
But this morning, I woke up.
I spent last night in an hotel room with a zillion other people, most of them guys.
I spent last night listening to Marilyn Manson's best album,
Mechanical Animals.

I spent this morning hating myself.
I spent this morning puking.
I spent this morning wishing I would have overdosed last night so I could be dead.
I spent this morning staring at Nate's naked body and wondering if I fucked him or if someone else did.
I spent this morning staring at the guys passed out around the room.

Don't touch me, please.
I'm contagious.
638674  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2005-08-04
Written: (7054 days ago)

I'm dirty.
And people love me.
And people who don't love me
absolutely love to hate me.
Because they can't be me.
Fuck you.
I really hate people.
Except maybe..
A couple of people.
Besides that..
I'm a motherfucking elitist.

638370  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-08-03
Written: (7054 days ago)

I'd like to say it was cool and sensual.
But it wasn't.
It was filthy and raw.

And I fucking loved it.
Oh honestly, I was begging for more. And it was adorable. And then I hated myself afterwards.
637071  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2005-08-01
Written: (7056 days ago)

I don't need friends.

Goodbye.
635946  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-07-30
Written: (7058 days ago)

Saw Jizzy last night.
For like an hour.

632864  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2005-07-26
Written: (7062 days ago)

Rico said I sounded fucked up on that message.
I just remembered him saying that.
Hah.
I was fucked up.
I'm going to Houston friday.
I get to see Jawad.
=)
[Hey Wes, look, I'm obsessing again *rolls eyes*]
Anyways...
I have a gig the 28th.
Which is thursday.
At the Broken Spoke.
I'm excited.
Anyways... I'm going.
Well, I'm not going anywhere but I'm done typing.
So yeah.

630957  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-07-24
Written: (7065 days ago)

Me + Rico + Jordan = hung out tonight.

It was.....

different



It was cool.

Highlights/Things Learned.

I walked almost a mile to get picked up.
I met Alec and then he went to sleep on the couch.
We watched little parts of a movie.
Rico and Jordan kept going, "Pancakes, I want some pancakes"
and Rico goes, "I'll fix the pancakes" and instead he fixed
breakfast tacos and such.
Jordan simply cannot make up his mind.
=)
Rico is the master debator.
Things will not be awkward, I promise.

This is most definately not an every day thing.
More like once every couple of weeks.
Or months.
Or something.
But anyways,
I really need to go to sleep.
KThxBai.
630829  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-07-24
Written: (7065 days ago)

Guess who I might hang out with tonight?
I really could care less what you think, baby doll.

You'll never understand, darlin.
Quit trying to.

630657  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-07-23
Written: (7065 days ago)

There was a party last night.
Next door.
So I went.
Yes, Chelsea, fuck you.
I also hung out with Wes for like, 15 minutes.
Another thing Chelsea doesn't aprove of.
Baby, one day you'll see.
I'm a big girl.
I take care of myself.
Wes can't hurt me.
It's not possible.
I don't fall that easily, and you know that.
Plus, Wes is too awesome to do that.
At this party...
Josh, 18. Ricky, 19. Brandon, 19. James, 19.
Some other random guys who were like, 18/19/20.
James and Brandon.
Good times.
I think I called Wes/Rico or something.
But all I remember saying is my phone number over and over.
And telling him to call.
That he should call.
I probably sounded like a retard.
Sorry, Wes.

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