Deviance

You can imprison me,
Keep me tied in a chain,
Never set me free,
Till only you remain.
And take away everything of mine.
I will make you pay.

Beat me till your hands are red with stain,
Until,
I no longer can feel the pain.
Leave me alone here,
Try to kill me with all the things I fear.

If you don't want to hear me,
You can gag me,
And make me shut my mouth,
That's the way you'd like it to be,
Me helpless,
So I can neither speak nor shout.

I know you'll never be tender.
And you'll never give back the freedom you stole.
But I will never surrender;
I'd rather die than give you control.

Stained

Gaze upon your works, ye mighty,
And behold what you wanted to avoid.
Innocence is pure and flightily,
And now it's been destroyed.
Like blood on virgin snow,
You stained me with your hate.
I thought I could let you go,
But it was too late.

Slipknot

Waiting alone to see my death.
For fait to reveal my new path.
Everything I love is dieing off.
Killed by the same,
Killing them,
Is killing me.

So I will take the rope,
And the blade.
Play my violin.
Then hang from the sky,
Loosing all my breath,
As you tighten around my neck.
And the blood slowly dripping from my wrists,
I bled for you all today.
Hoping it would take away my pain.
I want to be a memory too...just Fade...

Speak


You see I'm falling in the vast abyss...
Clouded by memories of the past...
At last... I say...
Speak

My fear is fading, I can't speak it,
Or else you will dig my grave,
You see I cannot be forsaken,
Because I'm not the only one,
speak

Why can't we feed together embrace it,
Sleeping so long, taking off the mask,
My fear is fading, I can't speak it,
Or else you will dig my grave,
Speak

You fear them finding, always whining...
Take my hand now be alive!
Must we hide from everyone
You fear them finding, always whining...
speak

You see I cannot be forsaken,
Because I'm not the only one,
We walk amonst you feeding, raping...
Must we hide from everyone?
Speak...

well i fucked up again like always is there ever a time were i dont fuck up i wish i wasnt such a fuckin fuck up i mean how could i hurt the one person i truely love its like theres something inside of me that says u better hurt that person and like a fuckin idiot i listen y i dont wanna hurt her i never wanted to hurt him i fuckin hate myself i dont deserve to live i feel like im dead inside and im alone in this fucked up world so if u dont hear from me for a couple of days u will know y so hopefully talk to u guys later have a gr8 life and it will be gr8 cuz im not in it and i just want u to know i love u matt mikel moon u will always be in my heart and i hope u i will be in urs well bye everyone i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself

T h i s . W o r l d . I s . A . C r u e l . P l a c e

A n d . W e ' r e . H e r e . O n l y . T o . L o s e

S o . B e f o r e . L i f e . T e a r s . U s . A p a r t

L e t . D e a t h . B l e s s . M e . W i t h . Y o u

well im still alive...4 another day of torment and pain...i only wish that these mortal fools would leave me the fuck alone.

i hate my father


i hope he rots in hell eternally


i also wish at this very moment that one of us was dead


because then father, wouldnt your life be that much more easier.


good fucking night to all of you, if im not back then im either banned or ive topped myself either way.

to be forgotten is worse than death

you can close your eyes to reality, but not memories

Love isn't a lightswitch you can't just turn it on and off

Insanity is a perfectly sane adjustment to an insane world

You only live once, but if you live right, once is enough

Sometimes you don't have to dig up your past... Sometimes your past digs you up...

i think i'm going to hang myself tonight...sorry everyone...goodbye.

My heart aches with the chains that confine it. Choking on the emotions that I wont let escape. All because you do not wish to hear them.

Bluebird



Sing a song for me bluebird,
to the pulse of broken time;
whisper to me shifting winds,
bringing solace to this troubled mind.
Silence fills the breaking dawn;
Invade the trees with gentle breezes
Hushed the birds, in sympathy,

Sing a song for me bluebird,
whistling low and quiet in their compassion.
fragmented words still echo in the silent morn.
are they yours those tears?
From long gone years,
But the rose sees only gladness
in the joy her short life brings, 

Sing a song for me bluebird,
The sun behind a sheltering cloud,
weeps his own sad tears, 
he knows the futile sorrow
Sees the human river cry;
Bend towards me weeping willow;
for you share more tears than I, or just memories fading into summer skies.

Sing a song for me bluebird,
hears it's painful reverberating, in his home up there on high.
Sighing sunflowers turning, a thousand heads upon the sun,
gazing longingly Towards him and begging for a smile:
and the moon a sulky lady takes all homage as her Due,
from the billion smiling stars, 
dotted round her inky realm.

Sing a song for me bluebird, 
Sing for me bluebird, sing a lonely tune,
sing for me bluebird to the pulse of broken time.
Soft rain from the east,
wash away the hidden tears
Buried deep inside the journeys
made through time.

Well abother day of pain...my memories still haunt me to a point I can't sleep. I tried last night and woke up screaming my friend's name, he is dead and has been for nearly a 2 mounths, I think of following him yet I don't want to hurt anyone, thanks for reading and have a good day... (i miss u adam...)

Well this dream has seemingly ruined my life. I was happy all the time and could actually enjoy school. Now I can't do anything. I'm constantly in a deep state of depression. I can't sleep as much as I used to. All because of this dream, my life has gone to hell. Someone has given me this challenge because whoever it was knows that I cannot confront someone and tell them that I like them. Nor do I think I will ever be able to complete this "challenge". It gets me upset that I can't even walk up to this girl and just start talking to her and becoming friends. Being friends with her would be great. My life would most likely return to normal. I would feel the greatest I have ever felt once again. But ever since that day of nov 1, 2000... I have felt nothing but pain, anger, and depression... it wuznt a dream...wuz it?

:: tear runs down cheek:: i want to die... :(