cold as ice
but inside burning
this won’t suffice
when I’m yearning
now insides frozen
flesh soft, hot
heart is broken
left to rot
pale flesh, blood rush, wrist is offered willingly
last hope, can’t cope, wanting sorrow-erasing
young blood, sweet blood, slowly spilling warmly
mind fade, dreams made, steadily draining misery
(and NO its not about cutting, its about a life being willingly offered to a vampire)
Eyes wide open, still can not see.
Pupils dilated, but blind as can be.
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I cry and I scream
in this nightmarish dream
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At Fault
When you’re in the vast black,
and you’re sadly crying alone,
no one there has got your back;
you’re in a broken home.
When you’re all they’ve got,
but you’re just as screwed,
their chances for life are shot;
you then get treated rude.
You honestly wish to save them,
as well as save yourself,
but their heart you can not mend;
so then falls their physical health.
If you could choose who would live,
you would choose that same person.
When your love is all to give,
their mind then turns to curse them.
lie awake
die in a dream
loudest voice
silent scream
lost again
found the floor
turn off the lights
lock the door…soon…
written by my bestest friend [BMX]
also by [BMX]:
Questions, answers,
the cure is the cancer.
The itch is the pain.
The love is the hurt.
The tears fall like rain,
but kill all the dirt.
Corrupted in the mind.
Killed by a memory,
burned by no heat...
ahhhh, my best short story ever..... i think i wrote this over christmas break this year:
Some more old work:
Will you make it go away?
Can you promise to not lie?
Will you protect me from my pain?
I ask these questions, but do you know why?
I do because I need your word.
You see, I’ve been hurt more than once.
I ask even though it seems absurd.
Each time hurt, I felt like a dunce.
I can’t explain these feelings for you.
I want to make sure this will work.
See, these things are completely new.
I have to make sure that deceit doesn’t lurk.
here's some old work:
Sick and suicidal.
Sick of all the grief.
Do not have much time left.
So I’ll make this brief.
Inside my heart is broken.
I always bleed and cry.
I can’t seem to stop shaking.
Inside I want to die.
IF YOU KNOW ME YOU KNOW WHO THIS IS FOR:
so i find out that 6 or 7 ppl just randomly walked up to my brother saying that i got drunk and high the weekend of the 21st! somewhere b/w getting picked up early from school on friday, to going to my lil brother's party (my mom was there), going to saturday school, going to prom w/ tons of teachers and stuff, and then going to church, oh and i slept twice somewhere in there. Ya, and these ppl i have never heard of SAW me do it! lol
"stupid people make me angry" - elizabeth
^ i agree
lol....gosh, stupid fucking jealous bitches! sry if my continuesly moving weekend pissed you off, or if you're jealous of me and my awesome relationship w/ my boyfriend and my friends. *shakes head disapprovingly
ya ya whatever......
these days, everything sounds like bullshit, and I never feel like the person I really am...
i have no more than 3 months till he's gone.......i know it's sad. hey, i'll at least have weekends and vacation, sometimes...
god damn it's been a while! well....
my ex-sis went to jail, she owes my parents loads of $, me and raymond broke up way back in september.....
Cold sweats, burning fever, tremors, pounding migranes.
I get another fix of my drug to erase my aches and pains.
When being alone is withdrawl, you're addicted to being with them.
(metaphorically of course)
( <3 (ashly, this is yours and mine inside "joke" type thingy right!? lol, idk i just typed it as it popped into my head at 11:30 pm.... i love you ashly, but can you guess who this poem is about?) i'll give you a hint......he's awesomeness! <3 )
David Bowie........n
(wow just thinking about the "Let's Dance "video, also, the Ziggy Stardust persona gives me chills! *smiles devilishly*)
Written by me............
This is my kiss; you stole it.
These are the lies; you told them.
This is my love; you snatched it.
These are the wrists; you slashed them.
This is my heart; you killed it.
These are the tears; you spilled them.
This is my soul; you flawed it,
but this is my death; you caused it.
The Love Of A Vampire
Time is creeping swiftly,
taking me away,
but you call out to me,
telling me to stay.
I see you climbing slowly
up the bed to me,
saying to me softly,
that you’re to set me free.
A look of deep dark bloodlust,
a sensual exhilarating high,
a bond, a want, a need, a must,
all a light shining in your eye.
Before now the sun lost its shine,
and the night, moon, & stars prevail.
Your face intertwining, caressing mine.
Your skin so cold and pale.
Yes skin, so soft, enduring pleasure,
breaking at the entrance of teeth.
Its heat grows with each new measure,
and blood flows between us, so warm and sweet
In the power of life without the light,
in the beauty of passion to admire,
a soft cry is uttered into the night,
with the love & seduction of life as a vampire. BY: Me
written for my vampire lover....who has yet to reveal him/her self....
wow! two extremely hot guys, one hot chic, and natta clue who likes who or how much! whats up with that!? one guy i want, and im pretty damn sure he wants me, the other guy i am deeply attracted to and really really like and i think he might like me, the chica is just frickin hot and uber cool, but thats about it, i dont think she likes me though.
(HELP ME!!!!! PLEASE!)