[Gem In Eye]'s diary
Written about Tuesday 2006-06-20
Written: (6730 days ago)
HOLY SHIT!!! IM GOING TO FLORIDA FOR A WEEK!!!!!!!! sry if that's not entirely interesting to sum of you....but i am so excited!!!!!!!
Written about Monday 2006-06-19
Written: (6732 days ago)
plz go here....we need support and i took 4 pix and turned them into bnners so plz take one and post it in ur house for me? *hugs all*
ppl against rape
Written about Saturday 2006-06-17
Written: (6733 days ago)
oOo sexy!!!!!
i love this chica:
god....i miss you.......so much...you have no idea
Prelude 12/21 by AFI
This is what I brought you. This you can keep. This is what I brought. You may forget me. I promise to depart just promise on thing. Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep. This is what I brought you. This you can keep. This is what I brought. You may forget me. I promise you my heart just promise to sing. Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep. Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep. This is what I thought, I thought you'd need me. This is what I thought, so think me naive. I'd promise you a heart you'd promise to keep. Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep. Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep. Kiss my eyes and lay me to....sleep.
here just do it
most people aren't sure of what they really want in life. I
received this
letter from a friend on the computer, did what it told me to, and
within a
week, everything I had wished came true!! Here's an exact copy,
this
really
works!!!!
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1. To yourself, say the name of the only
guy or girl you wanna be with 3
times!
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2. Think of something you wanna accomplish
within the next week and say it to your self
6
times!!
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3. If you had 1 wish what would it be? say it to
yourself 9 times!!!
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4. Think of something that you want to happen
between you and that 1special person and say
it to your self 12
times!!!
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5. Now, heres the hard part! Pick only 1 of these wishes and as
you scroll down focus and
concentrate on it and think on nothing
else but that wish.
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Now make one last &final wish about that one wish
that you picked.
After reading this, you have 1 hour to send it out to 15 people,
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^ MY IDOL!!!!!! ^
Written about Thursday 2006-06-08
Written: (6742 days ago)
[please go to this wiki if you know me what so ever...its importamt to me ok?]
and if you see someone's name and ur not sure if i can actually get a hold of that person...call/
nikki's b-day 06
girl #1: my world has become distorted, can you help me?
girl #2: my world has turned upside down, can you help me?
girl #3: my world is has disappeared, can you help me?
girl #1: my friends are my world
girl #2: my life is my world
girl #3: my lover is my world
girl #1: my world has become clear, because we talked
girl #2: my world is right side up, because I looked at it from a different veiw
girl #3: my world is lost forever more
(do not steal this; it isnt some posting i saw somewhere and took! i made it ok?)
well he did it.....he really did, and there's nothing i can do about it now. it's kind weird, cas i had all these poems and pix and stories ready for elftown....and now he's gonna think i obsessed about it and wrote them all for him. lol, talk about irony and coincidence...
i'm not going to lie though, [A Reply To Good-bye] was written right after we broke up (...literally 5 minutes after i got the message) and the poem directly under that was written about one month into our relationship..
...and just b/c my some of my poems are about suicide doesnt mean IM suicidal, and just b/c a poem is about cutting, doesnt mean i sat there cutting before/after/d
A Reply To Goodbye
You made me laugh when I only could cry
You helped me to live when I wanted to die
You made me a better person overall
You helped me to make the darkness fall
But that better person is now a kid
She left the same night that you did
You did not want to, but you made me cry
The both of us still love you, though you said goodbye
Questioning...
Will you make it go away?
Can you promise to not lie?
Will you protect me from my pain?
I ask these questions, but do you know why?
I do because I need your word.
You see, I’ve been hurt more than once.
I ask even though it seems absurd.
Each time hurt, I felt like a dunce.
I can’t explain these feelings for you.
I want to make sure this will work.
See, these things are completely new.
I have to make sure that deceit doesn’t lurk.
Written about Sunday 2006-06-04
Written: (6746 days ago)
A single tear, tinged and blood-filled
slid down her cheeks she sat in the puddle
of her pain, anger, and misery released,
and she smiled though death inside had increased.
The blood flow had corrected the millions of lies.
The coming sleep erased the red in her eyes.
The warmth had stifled her sobs and her cries,
and scenes flashed before her, to no surprise.
Now with the pain gone and her body gone numb,
a man walked in and then screamed in terror.
He realized that her sad soul was now gone,
so with a knife at hand, in death he did join her.
Never Leave Me
Despite the way I act,
or what I’ve come to say,
forget my horrible past
and what happened every day.
I never want to lose you
or have to say good-bye.
I hope I’ve never hurt you.
I pray I’ve never lied.
I know I can be rude
and sometimes play a game.
I’m not always in good moods.
You probably think I’m lame,
but I want you for forever.
I want to hold you Tightly,
our bond to never sever.
and you to hold me Nightly.
cold as ice
but inside burning
this won’t suffice
when I’m yearning
now insides frozen
flesh soft, hot
heart is broken
left to rot
pale flesh, blood rush, wrist is offered willingly
last hope, can’t cope, wanting sorrow-erasing
young blood, sweet blood, slowly spilling warmly
mind fade, dreams made, steadily draining misery
(and NO its not about cutting, its about a life being willingly offered to a vampire)
Eyes wide open, still can not see.
Pupils dilated, but blind as can be.
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I cry and I scream
in this nightmarish dream
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