[merihevonen]'s diary
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A spider on the page of [Cookieholic]
*hides*
Smurfsången
>.< Amazing. beyond words...
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This world is filled with many idiots.
I'm worried about my friend Martin.
I was stupid and absentminded last week and forgot to log onto cathug to talk to him...
And yesterday, today, and 5 minutes ago I've been loggin on and off there seeing if he's there...
Nothing.
He hasn't been online in 4 days.
And I know him, he's close to me. I consider him as my brother, he's amazing in everyway... I know him, his good.. and his bad. Espcially the bad. :/ he better not have done anything to himself... he once told me of his dreams of putting needles to his eye and whole lot worse..
He has his depression, he has his bastard parents, and his low selfesteem which only worsens the situation. Boria lives in Bulgaria and they've been together online for some year now.. But he's can't fight his parents. We've talked about this. We even made a plan to get him out of England... But then he went to Ireland to work, he has enough money for a plane ticket.. His bastard parents have canceled his flights... and said lots of bullshit to him like "if you go , how will i get any money from you". But it's all so complicated and personal..
He's changed so much ever since he disappeared from elfpack around last Christmas... he seems so cold and and almost on the verge of giving up.. it's been.. so long since he's even smiled.....
But he has his girlfriend. Without Boria, he'd be dead.
*sighs sadly*
Martin, where are you? I miss you.
I'm just passing the joy. ^^
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I laughed hystericly because of this for 5 minutes.
perferct examble of my childish sense of humor. O.o
if you're scared of snakes, like i am... don't click this..
---> Nyaahs first breed
These bonds are shackle free, wrapped in lust and lunacy.
Tiny touch of jealousy, these bonds are shackle free.
Placebo: ask for answers
Whistle song
There is something in her eyes
That's making me scared
It's clinging to my shirt now
Like static in her hair
And something here is wrong
I heard it when she spoke
Her dust flows through my veins
And I'm yesterday's joke
And it seems impossible to meet her simple needs
She breaths invincible and it's giving me the creeps
She is still the wild one here, the incendiary soul
She is in flame and I am cold
God, I'm getting old
She is talking through a yawn and the radio is on
I listen through the thin walls
And someone is whisteling along
There is something in the air
Squeezing out sparks
The striplight flickers and then dies
And leaves us in the dark
And it seems impossible to make the ending speak
She breaths invincible and it's giving me the creeps
She is still the wild one here, the incendiary soul
She is in flame and I am cold
God, I'm getting old
God, it's getting cold
And I tried to make you a believer
But you're not a receiver
I tried so hard to make you smile.
For once I tried to be myself.
I made you scared, I made you cry.
So I never tried again.
Now I found a way to make you smile,
Pretending I am someone else.
Cause I really missed your smile,
more than I missed myself.
You found a way to keep it inside,
to a point where you can't feel a thing.
And silence suits us fine.
Cause we are not listening.
No, we're not listening.
And like today awaits tomorrow
And like tomorrow needs today
I need your simple words to follow
I'll do whatever you say
And my quiet heart goes to pieces.
It's been a lonely year in this room.
And I will not ignore you like before.
My january promises are more
than words softly spoken.
And everything I told you was stolen from a book.
I read something about kisses in a sience magazine,
something they can't capture in the sweetest movie scenes.
Artist: Kent
Song: Stop me june (little ego)
Album: Hagnesta Hill (Eng.)
[" Hagnesta Hill (Eng.) " CD]
I've been waiting for my brilliance to shine through
Like waiting would do
I've been called a little coward more than once
It hurts when it's true
I've been following your footprints in the snow
Trying to return the excuses that I stole
I'm the first on and the last off the bus
Little ego be still
And I fight the cold wind back up the street
To Hagnesta Hill
And the darkness and the snow fall as one
And I lost my scarf
At a busstop of the outskirts of town
I gather all the courage and the hate
Little ego goes wild
And my voice broke down I finally reached that age
I was cruel as a child
If this feeling that remains is not mine
Then it's something new
Maybe my brilliance shining through
It's noisy, can't think, I can't speak
I'm tired of handshakes so please
Get rid of this crowd
I can't breathe here anymore
You just have to let me go
It's noisy, can't think, I can't speak
I'm tired of handshakes so please
Get rid of this crowd
I can't breathe here anymore
You just have to let me go
You just have to let me go
You just have to let me go
You just have to let me go
And I don't need your hurry
You just have to let me go
Artist: Kent
Song: Before it all ends
Album: Isola (Eng.)
[" Isola (Eng.) " CD]
Modern thoughts about each other
Can't make you shine out any brighter
Antique promises uncovered
When we stop breathing for each other
We're drained of our will
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
Is there still time before it all ends
Finally I found the words to tell you
I caught your hands under our table
There's still time for us to grow up
Closer to the sun before the summer slides to October
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
Is there still time before it all ends
Empty gunshells in a park station
The hollow ring of our growing impatience
I knew you'd equal the occasion
My hand in your hand while the others
Are dragged in the flow
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
Is there still time before it all ends
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
Is there still time before it all ends
^___^
1. Resistance is futile
2. Well behaved women rarely make history.
3. David Bowie/ Aladdin Sane ^^
4. Depeche Mode's Violator cover, the tulip!!!! ^_^
5. Gackt
these arrived in the mail today.. i Got them from this internet auction page..
^___^
Nightwish, this cost like 4 euros at Krazy shop, my favourite shop in Itis ^^
I'm going to put these all in my bag! Woohoo!!
So i just came back from Itäkeskus with mom. it's big shopping center, mall, it took HOURS... my feet are so sore..
we ate kebab and walked around everywhere...
BUT, here's the good parts:
I got:
1. Labyrinth DVD!!!! Collector's edition omg!!
2. Monty Python's Life of Brian dvd
3. Monty Python's And now for something different ^_^
Oh yeah and I found Voima(Power) magazine from the Academic Bookstore, yey...
And I've forgotten to write this here..
om last Sunday mom, me and Kari - after I had stayed up all night, so I felt like a zombie :O - went to this fleamarket in Hakaniemi
AND guess what i found? A LEATHER JACKET!!
it cost 2 euros!! What an insane woman she was, selling it with that price... But I took advantge of her moment of insanity and gave her the money and took my long-looked for leather jacket..
I've always wnated a leather jacket (although, yes, i am against killing pointlessly animals and taking their fur and skin and making it into clothes, this is my conscience speaking....)
But.. but.. but.. it's a leather jacket. *makes point*
Hmphh, i guess my princibles lack a bit of backbone then?
*sigh* I'll never be accepted as a member of PETA...
so i'm going to babysit my cousins Friday night.. that will be fun ^^
so i won't be here then. and when i get home, i'll be tired and will just go straight back to bed...
so yeah. bye.
i got my DM, Gackt, Aladdin Sane, and "Well-behaved women rarely make history" pins...
and also Kent's Isola cd!! the English version.
that one was so hard to find, it's some Limited edition.
I must be on my best behavior in front of my stepfather and my mom ....since they got it for me.., and stop being a brat from now on
i've been wanting that cd for YEARS, drooling over it at every cds hop i've been...
well, now i still have to get Hagnesta Hill and Verkligen...
ialready have their first cd kent, and the 2 others Du och jag döden and vapen och ammunition...
Oh how I love Swedish.......
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KEANE: Somewhere Only We Know
I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go somewhere only we know?
[Break]
Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
So if you have a minute why don't we go talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go somewhere only we know?
"If you want me, all you have to do is ask a thousand questions." ~Simple Things, Belle & Sebastian
"Much unhappiness has come into this world because of things left unsaid." -F.M. Dostoevsky
"The only abnormality is the incapacity to love." -Anais Nin
"There is no one Youer then you." -Dr Seuss
"In the beginning, the universe was created. This has made many people angry and is generally regarded as a bad idea." -The Hitchhiker's guide to the Galaxy
"What is a cynic? A man who knows the price of everything and the value of nothing." -Oscar Wilde, Lady Windermere's Fan, 1892, Act III
"When you are a Bear of Very Little Brain, and you Think of Things, you sometimes find that a Thing which seemed very Thingish inside you is quite different when it gets out into the open and has other people looking at it." ~A.A. Milne's Winnie-the-Poo