I keep crying.. It's been going on all night. Maybe it's because of the flu, or I don't know why. I'm overemotional? I try to stop it but it's no good. I'm not sad. Still, without any choice of my own, I start to cry... Tears just fall from my eyes.
*clears throat*
Ah, 1: Harry Potter fanfiction ^____^ So fantastic.
And ah, 2: Joy Division: Love will tear us apart
^__^ I am a woman of simple pleasures.
I still have the flu, though I've been sneezing a bit less today than I did yesterday. So I guess I'm slowly healing. I have to wear 2 pants on (since it's autumn, it can get a bit chilly here during the night time..) and two warm long sleeved shirts.
One of them is a flanel shirt which I'm wearing still as I'm writing this.
As my consolation, I started downloading music last night again... after such a long time. I love Azureus.
the Cure's Pictures of you has been playing in my room quite loudly on repeat.. though it's 4:18 am.
I stayed awake till 11 am last "night".. And then went to bed, and woke up at 19:30. Then I walked around the house like a zombie for few hours trying to get sleep again, but it was useless. So I opened up my computer instead around 9 pm. And have been here ever since... listwening to music, talking on et, downloading music from http://thepira
I must go read a fanfiction story now, I have been taking a break from www.fanfiction
How odd that I haven't suffered from any side effects...
this idiot geoglin had make a fake Johnny Cash's torrent file. Argghh!! *shakes fist* That's just wrong!!
Stupid flu. Nose and eyes itch and burn. Atchhuuu!
*sneezes*
The last season of Alias started today... in the first episode VAUGHN DIED!!! and sydney's pregant. omg Whoa, that was a huge surprise...
AAaaaarghhh!!!
I really hate this elftown diary notice thing..
I can't help my own curiosity to go read certain unnamed people's diary so I find out things I don't want to know.
Everyone should put their diaries Private so people like me can stay in utter denial and bliss.... *sighs*
It's better not to know some things at times. Some things just are too much for the mind to take.
so i got like 6 movie tickets as my 18th birthday present from my aunt leena.
the movies that i have seen are:
-Thank you for smoking
-United 93
-Days of being wild
and i'm thinking about going to see Volver http://www.imd
and next week the Love and anarchy festival is going on here is Helsinki. so yyeyeeey
And another matter: MONEY!
I have exactly 70 cents. That's all I have.
Since i turned 18 my father stopped putting 100 euros on my bank account on the every 14th of the month...
so i need a job. But what kind of an idiot wants to hire me with no previous work experiences?
jhklhjlijil agghhrr!!
sign this petition... http://www.one
and...
http://www.bab
so...
Today.. is thursday August 10th, it's 22:47 (pm)
Today was my brother's 22nd birthday.
I slept pretty late today, I woke up at 4 pm after being up till about 6 am. I watched Fucking Åmal (http://www.imd
But now when I see it I just merely watch it because they Swedish and Swedish sounds so cool... >_>
And of course it has few funny scenes...
And of course.. *coughs, cough* ... Elin... *coughs again* ^__^
Mom and I went to Ikea today. That was fun. >_>
It surprises me everytime whenever we go to a some shop/mall/mark
Like today I didn't expect to find so much stuff to buy there! XD
But still we ended buying these:
-green shelf for me
-green pillow
-green glass candlething
-green planket
-green lamp
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(I'm going through some green phase...)
I just finished talking with Merce on yahoo. he wished me happy birthday... :D
(I took off Merce's real name since I respect his privacy and I don't think he'd want me pass around his real name...)
Merce: and once again
Well I just came home seeing my father.. he bought me the Pretenders' Viva el Amor cd... which I have wanted for over a year now ^^
and then after meeting him. I went to another cd store by myself and bought 2 cds...
David Bowie: Station to Station
and the Magnetic Fields: 69 love songs
And I know that mom is going to give me 2 cds that we bought together a month ago, Johnny Cash's and Morrissey's cds.
And my brother isn't going to give me anything.. He never does. But I don't care anymore, I've gotten used to it..
His birthday on the 10th. he turns 22 I think. Got to get a present then.
And my aunt is going to give me free movie tickets.
and my uncle will propably just give me money!!! WOHOO! Just what I want. Pure cash is better than presents.
About 40 euros, I'd presume.
Now I can go see that Tarja Turunen concert in November..
and Mari has -as always- forgotten that today is my birthday. (How hard is 8.8.1988 to remember??)
But..I'm used to it. This happens every year.
I always remember her birthdays but she forgets mine. *sigh*
and Ina gave me these leather wrists..... things, I don't exactly know the exact word for them.
And they're not really my kind of a thing to wear, but I can try them on. O.o
yeah. That's about it.
So today is August 7th.. The time is 9:37 pm.
So few more hours left being a 17 year old..
I'm listening to Manic Street Preachers' This is my truth tell me yours.
Well mom dropped me off in front of Nikkilä's supermarket where I met Ina today.
I spent my last day as a 17 year old walking walking around Nikkilä with her, and laying on the grass talking aout so multible things, such as what kind of tattoo I should get, who will be Nightwish's next singer, Nick Cave's albums, the meaning of life, life in general.. the point of it all.. You know, the usual stuff that Ina and I always talk about.
We walked through this corn field and went to 2 churches which were really beautiful since they were pretty old and wooden. (I like wooden stuff.)
Well we talked about a lot of stuff. From everything to nothing...
It's under planning that we're going to see Tarja Turunen's solo concert next November 25th... Tickets costs 36 Euros a piece... so yeah, it will be great if it happens.
(Tarja is the ex-singer of Nightwish. Google if you want more information.)
and... it's possible that i might get a job. cleaning, most likely.
and...
*takes breath after talking to much*
so this is it..
in few hours i'll be eighteen.
and it'll be legal for me to have sex, go to the army, buy alcohol (or cigarettes, if I smoked), go to bars, drive a car (if i had a driving licence).... and loads of other things that i can't remember to type here.
So. Me.
Legally a grownup.
ha ha. >_>
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sorry for all the typos. I wrote this is hurry. Can't be bothered to fix them right now.
About a week still...
then I'll get away from this place... somewhere abroad.
sometimes I feel so claustrophobic in this room, in this town...
I just need a change.
I'll go insane if I stay here and look at these walls any longer.
*sigh* I can't wait to get away.
I love my country, but I guess everyone need a break from their homelands at times...
http://www.you
http://www.ncc
http://www.you
http://www.you
http://www.you
http://www.you
http://www.you
http://bunny.f
http://bunny.f
http://bunny.f
http://ucomics
http://ucomics
http://ucomics
http://www.met
http://www.met
I lost my silvery 6th grade's reunion ring at Kinopalatsi's (movie theater) bathroom... .
I've worn that ring on my right hand's thumb or in my middle finger for I don't know how long, 3 years? It had a lot of emotional attachment...
I'm so stupid for leaving it there in the toilet so absentmindedly
I just lost it like that. Someone took it from the toilet... It was all my fault, I can't do anything to find it.
I just got to get along without it...
I mean, it was just a ring, I'm making too much of a fuss over it, it was just a ring... just a ring...
Now my hand feels so weird without it.. *sighs* like i've lost a limb or something, i can't think straight..
It wasn't just a ring.
So no depression for me then anymore.. Not now anyway..
You know me, I won't let myself stay too gloomy for too long, I always rise to face the next stupid day on this bloody stupid planet.
Ah, the little things.. >_> Oh joy.