Hmm

How different life is now that I have been away from elftown for a while.

I didn't realize how time passed so much. It really wasn'ät my intention to be away for so long.

Well, anyway... if anyone's reading this, hello, long time no see.


I have to go walk Pete and then get to school. Maybe I'll log on tomorrow again...


Bye

So Aunt Leena, Hanna-Maria and Tuomas came here today. We ate cookies and drank Pepsi and cocoa. It was nice seeing them after a while.
I always dislike crowds as well as any kind of party, so I hid in my room most of the time they were here.

And the cats really loved the climby thing Leena brought to us as a present. Mette stayed there for like an hour and then only came out when food time came. :p

After they left mom and I started watching the President's Castle party from the television. It was fun watching different kinds of guests arriving to the Castle wearing tuxes and fancy gowns.. It's my way of celebrating Finland's independence, watching that... it's just a tradition with my mom and me to watch it and laugh at the weird and funny dresses and then in return compliment the good dresses and hairdos. Usually I don't give a rat's crap about about any make up, hairdos, dress color etc but December 6th is my one night of the year when I like to look at things like that.

Lordi didn't come since he wasn't allowed to come there in his monster costume.

While wathing the show, Elvis slept in my lap through most of the show... I was so happy. Elvis loves me. :D

Today is 6th of December, the Independence Day of Finland.

My aunt and cousins are coming over here in about 40 minutes. They're bringing this cat climby thingy to us...

Not much of a plan for today.
I'm going to perhaps watch the Independence Day party at the President's Castle from the tv. All the guest arriving there in their fancy gowns and tuxes... It's an annual thing. It's quite boring but fun at the same time.

Happy Finland's Independence Day!

My horoscope for the day.

Leo - 2.12.2006

Be careful in the middle of temptations, not everyone is as honest as you are.
Sleepless nights are taking power from you...


:O 

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I want snow. :(

I switched torrent-thingies from Azureus to uTorrent.
It's so much better!! ^^

Plus... because of this:
http://search.utorrent.com/search.php?q=depeche%20mode&amp;e=http%3a%2f%2fwww%2emininova%2eorg%2fsearch%2f%3futorrent%26search%3d&u=1

so many... :O

and there's even the "some valium for Fletch" parody xD


but I promised [Sana] to search some mp3s for her first.... ---> <diary:880436>
so i'll have to wait for a few days till i can get my own music


I have the 2 Coldplay songs already.

Got to search still
*Reflections - Lea Salonga
*Batalla de los Tombores (Drum Duel) - Godsmack
*Prodigy - Breath

and this will be ready pretty soon
*Counting Bodies like Sheep to the Rhythm of the War Drums - A Perfect Circle

http://community.livejournal.com/mock_the_stupid/2591515.html


I laughed, giggled, chuckled... a lot reading this...
Or maybe it's just my sense of humor





http://www.elfonlyinn.net/d/20020729.html

made by [conscience]
http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/37490291/

The geek in me says: Wuhuu!!

I got my cds from huuto.net today

which are:
Branded Women: Something to hold on
Depeche Mode: Personal jesus
Depeche Mode: World in my eyes
Kent: Isola (Swedish version, I have the English version already)

Those bit older Dm singles are darn impossible to find....

Now all I'm waiting for are my green Egotrippi shirt with the yellow "superego" text in it
and my Month Python's Quest and the Holy Grail dvd

yey yey yey ^^ 

"I'm so glad that I'll never fit in/that will never be me/ Outcasts and girls with ambition/that's what I wanna see"

   - Pink

When I woke up today, my plan was go on a walk today around the town, buy rice and kebab takeout... sit on a pench somewhere, listening to my cd player, take my notebook and pen from my bag, write my thoughts onto paper....


*sighs*


Mom and Kari are going to a concert today at Hartwall Arena. It's Jethro Tull Acoustic, or something. Kari's a big Led Zeppelin and Jethro Tull fan, so... I hope that have a good time. Mom's not really really fan of Jethro Tull's kind of music so it may be a bit boring for her... It starts at 8 pm so I'll have some alone time then, YEY.


So as I was saying... I was going to go walking but then I came across [lady nytmare]'s page and the game link that is on her page... so I'm now in the process of thinking a good username. I don't want to pick merihevonen since it's a bit long. So I'm trying to think something short and simple. 'Egotrip'? O_o



aaand the cats are being a bit loony. Just now Mette tried to go inside the dish washer machine. and after that, she just lied on the floor watching as the kitchen cabinet opened and closed, what a weirdo.
But Elvis seems pretty normal. He's just sleeping my bed calmfully.. after all morning running around the house...




When the house is all by myself tonight, I will start playing Kings of Chaos.
Isn't that just a cool game name? I just love saying it. Kings of - what? Chaos!! :O

I haven't been drinking any coffee if you're wondering to get the this mood. Just cocoa. Honestly. Just 4 cups of cocoa. xD

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Best poll I've seen in a while.



and I saw [thoughtfox]'s page and his travel picture wikis, and I started thinking about my own desire to travel around the world.

it will happen... Just need to sort everything out.

Like I Would If I Ever Saw This Guy :O Why why would anyone want to do that their bodies??

Very interesting debate/conversation going on at the straight way

I'm talking with Merce on yahoo. ^^

YEYEY YEYEYE YEEYY YEYEYE

Can you tell that I'm on a good mood?

I dreamt about you last night and fell out of bed twice....

<3

Oh Morrissey's voice is so beautiful.

kaljukeiju, you still remain a mystery.

I shall continue to stalk you to to discover your identity.


And what on earth does "kupo" mean? O_o

I finally managed to talk with one of her real life friends. I asked her about her.


her message:
"yeah shes fine she just hasnt really had time to get on since she has a new boyfriend and shes with him all the time now

why were you concerned?"


She's fine.

She's moved on with her life, forgotten me. Can't remember my name even anymore, I'd imagine.
Busy with school and her boyfriend, so she doesn't have time to come online anymore.



It'd be useless to think any otherwise. For once, my pessimism was correct. How I wished to be right. It's only human to want to be remembered in some way? Not to be forgotten, to just be... in the back of their head every now and then.
As awful and terrible as this may sound, I don't want her to forget me. 

*sighs* I just miss talking with her. I wish she'd be here. Or more like it, I wish I was there.

Oh how slowly time passes. Why do I have to wait to do the things I want? And why don't I just grap the opportunities I'm offered and make the best of them? Instead I just stay like this, unmoved, scared to act on my desires. 
I really really hate this place, day after day. I know I don't show it, but it can be rather depressing and lonely here.

Money is the key.
If I had money, I could afford as many plain tickets as I wanted.
Just imagine, if Mom and Kari had agreed for us to go to Tampa instead of Cyprus like I suggested them... I would've got to see her (though the minus part would have been that my mother and stepfather would have ben with me, but it wouldn't have mattered. Just so that I could've seen her.)



I keep hearing that line from that song in my head...

Fifteen minutes with you
Oh I wouldn't say no

I'd be happy with only fifteen minutes with you face to face
rather than never see you.



I keep playing back our lj and ep conversations... from ever since the first message I sent to her. I can't remember my exact words but it was something along the lines of "Cheer up". Ohh how I miss the elfpack days when I would wake up and the first thought on my brain was logging onto elfpack to answer messages from her. Back then, when Janne still lived home and I had a limited access to this computer and could only use it when Janne was away.
I still remember on Tuesdays at 9 pm on my time, Janne and his friends would go to sauna and I was left home alone free to use to pc however I wished. 45-60 minutes of happines talking with her, the highlight of my day.
Even if the message was only "Hello, have a good school day" I still was the happiest girl alive.


Now remembering this all is making me want to cry...

I'm not even sure how long it's been, how many months. 9-10 months perhaps?



She will always be the most influencal person in my life I have ever met. No one can take that place from her.

At least finally I know she's happy. That's all I care about.

And then there is no god in the world
That can give you an answer
Except that we will all one time die

- Kent (translated from Swedish to English)

Select your preferred gender:

  Female
  Male
  Hey, don't oppress me with your gender politics.



*laughs*

http://www.fjordstone.com/fjo/generator.html

When I came home today I meant to log onto et and write about my day, but then I fell asleep right after I'd come home. So there went that plan down the drain. So without any long rambling, I'm trying to keep it short


Most of the day has been raining. Yesterday too. Snow has left the ground almost completely... It's going to be a miserable Christmas if there's no snow. :/ First Christmas EVER for me when there isn't any snow...
I met my grandmother today. She still has to use the rollator, but she can walk on her own now as well which is good. I'm happy about it.

I bought two new cds. James Dean Bradfield's solo album the Great Western & Morrissey's single In the future when all's well


and my neighbour who lives above me has been complaining that I listen music too loud. Argh, the nerve of some people.
Apparently she was trying to sleep at 4 am and then she heard "bump bump" music coming below her. It's impossible for her to hear my music that well unless she's an alien and can hear everything through brick walls . I sometimes leave music on when I go to sleep. And I was listening to the Smiths' Reel Around the Fountain on repeat, there is no "bump bump" in it.

My father and I are going on a cruise before Christmas to Stockholm, Sweden. Don't know the date yet, but I will let you know when.


That should be all for now.