I'm Home again.

It's my birthday but I don't feel any different...

The time of my birth was 1:32 a so my mom sang me this lovely finnish birthday song, the same song she has sung to me as long as I can remember. She could only remember three first lines of it, sadly. I remember mom singing it to me when I was younger, about 12, and the song was much longer. The song is about a bird flying in the wind, or something like that. I'm not quite sure. It's stupid that I've heard the song every birthday but I've never really listened to the lyrics... it's not a very common birthday song to sing. I think it must've passed from my mom's mom to her. Everyone else sings the Happy birthday/paljon onnea-song.

I slept next to my mom, as I have slept for about a week now. She snores :P I fell asleep around 3 am.
My cellphone's alarm clock rang at 7:15 am this morning so it wasn't a very pleasent way to wakeup on your birthday.

I ate risotto at my grandmother's place. After leaving her place, I went to these two small fleamarkets, both in Sörnäinen. I bought this tiger where I can put money and this green candle thing. Yay! I love fleamarkets.


That's about it. I wasn't expecting a magnificent birthday, but... I got to admit that it was better than last year's.

Still, no birthday cake, again. I haven't had a birthday party since I turned 15? I think. Pfft. Hmpth.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3NQKLG3lvsc



Tomorrow is my 19th birthday.

Around 10 am tomorrow morning mom and I are going to the bank to seal the deal of our new apartment, and after that we'll be getting the keys. Then we are going to our new home

My grandmother sent me a 20 euro bill through mail. I'm going to go see Kent at Helsinki's House of Culture on November 4th. I'm going to see the concert of the greatest band in the world with my mother...

When I went to see <3Egotrippi<3 I was singing along every song and clapping like a crazy person. xD So we'll see what my mother thinks of me after seeing me behave behave like that in front of her...

I spent two nights at Pekka's. It was actually a nicer place thanc I had imagined. Leevi's friend Tuukka was there as well.

So there was me, mom, Pekka, two 10 year old boys and my three little darlings.

I read the Deathly Hallows. I was speechless when I finished it. It's an amazing book. So many different feelings went through me while reading it. Sadness, confusion, happiness, amusement, sadness again.
I recommend this book book to everyone. Though it would be a plus if you had read the previous books.

Morning to everyone. It's 7:10 am.

We are moving. We sold our home to this couple from Bangladesh. We have to move by the end of September the latest. So busy schedule at the moment, my apologies if I'm here less. But I hope you understand.
Two days after that we went to see an apartment not far from our ours (still in the same Kontula area).
The real estate woman was the same who sold our apartment and had found the apartment just for us. It's smaller than ours but the rooms are really nice so it doesn't really show. Just the glazing has to be made so the cats can be in the balcony again.
I'm going to paint my room!! Maybe blue... I can't wait. Mom's painting hers greeeen.

I went to see the Order of the Phoenix with mom. I had read the book so I knew what was going to happen.
I had my expectations... having seen the trailer on youtube about fifteen times.

Mom has been dating this Pekka person for the past weeks now. I have met him once, he seems okay. He is bald, has a 10 year old son Leevi and lives in Perniö. He also has two cats... which is a very good thing. If he hated cats, he would be out of the picture, obviously.
Oh! Which reminds me... tomorrow is my little darlings birthday. They're one year old already!

And today I'm going to go buy the Deathly Hallows book.

By the looks of things it's possible that I might be going to spend a night at Pekka's tuesday night.
He's on nightshift and Leevi needs a babysitter.


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Kent is coming to Finland on tour. They're starting their tour from Helsinki. I'm so excited and happy. I am going to see Kent live :D

Album & Winter Tour Dates Released

July 18th, 2007 the following pressrelease was sent out by Kent:
"The recordings of the seventh album began in November 2006 at Allaire studios Shokan, New York.
In the beginning of 2007 the work continued at Psykbunkern/Park Studio. In June we returned to Allaire and mixed the album.
Jon "Joshua" Schumann did the producing together with us. The new album is called "Tillbaka till samtiden" ("Back to our time").
It is of course the best material we have ever produced. See you on the tour. Thanks & sorry. / kent, July 2007"
"Tillbaka till samtiden" is released October 17. During theautumn/winter kent is heading out on a tour starting in Helsinki fourth of November.

But damn you Harri Mänty. Why couldn't you leave the band a little later?! Now I'll never get to see Kent as a whole group.

And the new album's called "Back to our time"? O_o
Previous album was "You and I dead", and now this?
And then a weird picture like this? http://www.kent.nu/index.2.asp O___O

What does does that MEAN?!

www.postsecret.com
http://community.livejournal.com/ljsecret/

I'm going to see Egotrippi on the 14th of next month at Tavastia.

I feel like a kid in a candy store.
So much good is happening: seeing Egotrippi live for the first time in my life, the OOTP movie, the last Potter book...
and I still haven't seen the new Pirates movie. I refure to download it, I have too much respect for the movie trilogy to download some handheld crap. I'm going to go see them on theater, or then just wait til they're on dvd. Or just wait until someone downloads a better version of the movie.

and school starts 28th of August.

Tomomorrow I'm going to Turku with my father to see my brother (by train it takes 4 hours to get there).
I've never been there before, so yey. Turku is the "culture city" of Finland supposedly, so it should be interesting going around the city. Knowing my brother we will go through booksstores, cd stores and cafes... :)

I will there for 2 nights I think. Good night and take care of yourselves.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_major_UFO_sightings


1952


UFO in Hopeh, China, 1942

http://www.thisislondon.co.uk/news/article-23401615-details/'Mile-wide+UFO'+spotted+by+British+airline+pilot/article.do
This is the latest.

No one is ever online at the same time I come here. I guess they just don't want to talk with me.

Not much to say. We're moving. Mom has another date with a guy he met at the dating commutity they talk to each other. This is I think the third date she's been during these past few weeks.


Yeah. That's all for now.
Good night. Take care of yourselves.

Also, go here. Beautiful music -> <3 http://www.myspace.com/aitoegotrippi <3 Rin Tin Tin!

jos etsit kadonnutta aikaa jotain josta jouduit luopumaan
liian usein huomaat ei se totta ollutkaan
ja joku tuskin tietää mitä etsii vailla määrän päätä harhailee
monen vuoden jälkeen ystävälleen kirjoittaa
ne sanat jotka sanomatta jäivät sanat joita ei kai ollutkaan
sanat jotka pettävät kun niitä tarvitaan
ja minä olen miettinyt jo kauan jotain josta sulle kertoisin
vaikka tuskin muistan enää osoitettakaan

sun villakoirasi nimi oli Rin-Tin-Tin
typerä piski joka murisi mulle
hölmöksi tunsin minä itsenikin
vaikka kaikesta halusin puhua sulle
mä vain häntääni heilutin

olen hävittänyt kaiken joka sinusta mua muistuttaa
olen myynyt levyt joita silloin kuuntelin
ne levyt usein radiossa soivat tai ne voivat olla muitakin
lähes kaiken sinusta jo melkein unohdin

sun villakoirasi nimi oli Rin-Tin-Tin...

sinä hymyiletkö vielä sinä suuteletko vielä niin
että suudellessa olin mennä tainnoksiin
ja minä olen olemassa vielä minä vieläkin sua muistelen
vaikka monta vuotta sitten jouduin naimisiin

sun villakoirasi nimi oli Rin-Tin-Tin...

Everyone needs to see Michael Moore's new movie Sicko. See it. I mean it.

Mom has apparently "quite fallen" for this guy at the online dating community where she spends hours every night.
With someone called Sormu. And he's apprently 6 years older than mom is.

I still don't know how to react to it.



By the way, no one should ever see 'Pride and Prejudice'. I really can't believe Keira Knightley got a Oscar nomination for it.

Also, for the past weeks mom and I have been short on cash.
We've had to really think what to buy, not to buy any useless extra stuff.

I can't buy pizza :(



ps. hmm. "community where she spends hours every night", does that remind you of anyone? :P

I've had internet problems. My brother's friend Mikko came here to fix it (as you can see me writing this now).


So now to more important things that have happened. For 2 days my darling, kultapieni, Elvis... was gone. And I had no idea where he had gone. On Monday afternoon Elvis jumped out of the window. It took us about a half an hour to realize he wasn't at home. First, we just thought he was sleeping somewhere we couldn't see him (like he sometimes does, when he gets sick of us stupid humans). So wesearched everywhere, under every bed, closet, table. He was nowhere to be seen. Mette was just calmly sunbathing on the balcony during our search, so I thought shouldn't he be panicking where his brother was. Apparently not. 

Well after about half on hour or hour of searching the house through and checking the upstairs as well, since he once got out accidentally to one floor up, since he just can't help his curiosity...

Then, we saw that my window was bit open. That's where we thought he jumped. I felt so guilty because it was my window.

We were all feeling hopeless and worrying about him. The worst feeling was the fact that we didn't know where he was or what had happened to him, was he dead or alive, run over by a car or eaten by another animal... We went through the forest on our backyard as many times as possible and I spread Lost-flyers everywhere...

Those two days were the most saddest, desperate... just plain simple stupidest feeling... I've ever felt.



Then came Wednesday evening. It was maybe 10 minutes after 6 pm, mom and I were going to go to the library since our internet didn't work and mom wanted to talk to her online dating-friends.
We were about to leave to the library and going out of the door, but then I realized I didn't have my cellphone with me, and I had to have it with me all time in case someone would call me about whether someone had seen Elvis.
I found my cellphone and saw that someone had called me, and it was a number that I didn't recognize.
I called the number. Then a woman with a Russian accent said that he had just been walking outside with her two sons and had seen a scared animal is a small hole in the ground, very close to where I live. We agreed to meet outside, so I hurried outside to meet her.

She led me to the hole and there was an animal on the bottom of the hole. When I got closer, I saw that it was Elvis. I can't explain the feeling of happiness I felt, my heart "leaped" so to speak.
He moved a bit closer after seeing me, but he was still too far for me to touch him, so I had to go down in the hole and get him. He was shivering a bit, I just hugged him and was just glad to hold him again.
My mom hugged the woman we were both ready to dance from happiness (so to speak). I gave Elvis to mom, so that I could get up from the hole better without dropping Elvis from my lap.
When I got up, I hugged the woman excitedly and practically screamed "THANK YOU!!!" in her ears.

He was alive, that's all that mattered. No injuries, he was just hungry.
Elvis has been eating a lot, which is only natural...
Mette is picky when it comes to food. But Pete and Elvis eat almost anything.


When we took him back home, Mette was like he had never been gone. Weird cat.
Pete had been clearly worried about Elvis and had noticed his little brother's absense.
We had taken him and Mette with us to the backyard, searching Elvis, going through the forest.

All window's are closed now and they have their collars on.

So that's it. Happy ending. It's been an exhausting week.
I saw few very disturbing nightmares when Elvis was lost. Hopefully I'll be able to sleep better from now on.


One of the nightmares I saw was that Elvis hadn't jumped out of the window at all, but instead, we found him in a closet... and he had... choked to death since he didn't have any air there. 



Last night's dream I can't remember, but it was pretty... let's say, heavy to wake up from.


So what else is happening in my life?

My mother started online dating. She has a date today with a guy named Jore she met at that community.
I really don't know how to react.





 

All I can say is... HOLY CRAP! ^____^
I can't wait to hear the new album.
I really hope this isn't the last album. Even though Harri Mänty left the band... :(


http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&amp;friendID=38505447&blogID=271302887&amp;MyToken=ca6a6b21-e19a-4b95-9a37-d21ec0d2ce65

http://www.hs.fi/kaupunki/artikkeli/1135227435346

*giggles*

A 2,5 metre high vagina?!

That's an artwork of a Finnish artist... XD

I have completely fallen in love with the Swedish language.

Great Swedish bands I recommend:
-Moneybrother
-Håkan Hellström
-Magnus Carlson
-Kent
-<3Weeping Willows<3


also, I really want to go to Stockholm this summer.



http://youtube.com/watch?v=WZkFYfCor2o&;mode=related&amp;search= <3


What do you know about the moon's light
before it has struck you broken under it
And what do you know about the dawn
before you meet every morning with sleepless eyes

What do you know about the sun
before someone has shut all the lights
And what do you know about that you don't want to wake up anymore
You'll see your youth rot before you

And what do you know about love
before you hated it in vain
And what do you know about that the heart can burn
for love which can never die
but not to live for either

She will never come back
She will never come back

It's my own fault
what happened to my heart
I've always known that you wouldn't stay
I'd rather be alone than happy with someone else

Spread gasoline over the sunset,
tear down the whole city
Throw away the only sea to the horizon
Silence the music
She will never come back here again

I didn't do my homework, but I ate candy and drank one cider.

Wuhuu, big rebel me.

and there was a lot of nakedness... xp

Mom left to Turku to see my brother and she'll be home tomorrow.

So that means I am home alone (well, with Pete and the cats, of course).
Wuhuu! I can do whatever I want.
Time to party, listen music loud, drink cider, eat lots of unhealthy food....
and walk around naked...

Blah... I'm not like that. I'm just boring me. *sighs*
What to do? What to do?

Oh yeah, I got a Swedish essay to write on Wednesday's class.
I have to do my homework >_> 

Now that's very rebel-y... >_<

I found this picture from http://community.livejournal.com/ljsecret/



Yesterday I came online and I wrote quite a long entry here... and then, I pressed the wrong button and whooosh - all gone. I was frustrated and left. I wrote about hockey and the eurovisions, the Weeping Willows gig... All that, whoosh, gone.

Yesterday was the Canada-Finland game. Well, no point sulking about it, we played a good tournament.
We beat USA and Russia. We had confidence - The Finnish Lions were amazing. Then came the last game... and our confidence went down the drain when Canada started making goals early in the game, and then we became frustrated as we always become when we can't get the puck to the net... Finland's 'last game curse' keeps going...

Canada just played better. I'm not going to be a sore loser. I'm at least going to try to act somewhat maturely.
Sure, yesterday I was pretty shaken up afterwards... I really believed we were going to win!
So many years of losing, coming second, third and fourth...
'Silver medal is not a shame' they say.
Like Peltonen said after the game, something along the lines of "We came here for the gold and we lost. No one remembers the losers."
I'd just really like to know what it feels... you know, to win gold. 
I'm too young to remember 1995.
Finland has one gold medal. ONE. Canada has like, what? 20?


Canada is just that good. They played a great game.
I've always admired the Candian team, but this year... I didn't expect players like them. Way to go, Yzerman. You chose a great team.

So, congratulations, Canada. Enjoy your victory. You deserve it.
Someday we'll win you. And Sweden too.

I'm going to see Swedish poprock band Weeping Willows tonight at Tavastia.
This is my first gig during my life so I'm rather excited.


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To me, this is the most beautiful song ever made.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=1hrAUKA2Ss8&;mode=related&amp;search=
Kent: Utan Dina Andetag


Without Your Breath

I know you're asleep
feel the heat from your skin
just the smell makes me weak
but I don't dare to wake you now

I would give you
everything you want
but only when you don't hear
I dare to say so

I cannot even walk
without your air in my lungs
I cannot even stand
when you're not watching
and transparent like grey
is what I'll be like
without your breath

My watch has stopped
under your eyelids
the dreams pass by
you're light as a feather inside

And without a sound
my heart in your hand
I've lost my speech
it remains in your hair

I cannot even walk
without your air in my lungs
I cannot even stand
when you're not watching
colourless like a tear
is what I'll be like
without your breath

I cannot even walk
without your air in my lungs
I cannot even stand
if you're not watching
and transparent like grey
what would I be like
without your breath

What would I be like
without your breath?

Things are a bit crazy at the moment. I had to come here and put these thoughts into words.

I'm sorry for the curse words. It's just my way of dealing with this thing.



I feel so... argh. I'm just so sick of this whole thing happening. And most of all, I hate how this is affecting my mother. She's just so tired and exhausted to argue about it. She's now taking a nap. Mari's coming here tonight. We're wathcing the Finland-Sweden match and then this movie Beowulf & Grendel and then she's spending the night here. Tomorrow I have school in the evening and my mom's going to see a lawyer.

So, I will now start explaining all that has happened. All this, during just few days...
Last Saturday, my mother got a text message from my stepfather Kari. He was in Puerto de la Cruz, in the Tenererife.
Since it was written with weird shortcuts my mother didn't undestand the message. He said he was coming back. That's all she understood.

Now... and then came Sunday morning... around 5 am. My mother had woken at 4 am and I had been awake most of the night because I had slept most of the previous day and then woke up at 10 pm.
So, then... my mother's cellphone got a beeb, meaning a new text message.
It said "I'm I'm the airport now, can you came pick me up?"
Well this was a surprise because my mother and Kari had DIVORCED. It was his idea to leave in the first place, totally unplanned, to a completely another country he knew nothing about. He just left, just like that! All the money he got from selling his 300 cd collection, all the money he had... all went to the airplane ticket. And then he just goes to another courntry to live without any money. He only had his bag with his coin collection and a laptop given to him by some friend of his... that idiot wasn't able to even OPEN the laptop, goddammit...

So... like I was saying, my mother got a text message from Kari. Mom then decided to call him, confused about the text message, wanting to find out what his intentions were.

Well... to put it shortly, he had the assumption that now that he was back in Finland he was of course coming back to live here... like he was just on holiday.

Today I found out why he came back so soon. It's because he had so little money, his email friend who lived there didn't accept him he didn't get his apartment. Also, he lost his passport. He had to call his mother and brother to mail him money for the hotel bill. His brother was the one who got him the flight back.

He claims it's his right to live here till the middle of August when the divorce is final.

Today Mom and I were at Citymarket... Hannu called her, passing on a message from Kari. He said that Kari would like to go to our cabin on Pornainen. The answer is a strict no to that one. It's not only my mother's cabin, it's also the rest of my family's inheritance, built by my grandfather himself. LIKE HELL is he going there. Over my dead body, goddammit.

He said that he has some paper that says he has the right to live here till the end of August...

Fuck you, Kari. The hell you have any fucking "right" to live here anymore.
He said that he's going to call the police tonight and then they're going to come knocking our door tonight. *laughs*
Well then my mother is going to call the cops as well. It's our apartment, not his anymore. We decide who lives and doesn't live here.

I hate how this is affecting my mother. I hate it. I wish I could just help her somehow. I hug her everyday nowadays. But it doesn't seem to be enough... She calls her sister and my godmother when she needs someone to talk to. I'm so glad for that. I try to talk to her about it as well, but I know a part of her wants me to step back on certain things... like if I know too much, if I get too close, I'll be traumatized, or something. This is the second divorce during my life.

I just want my mom to be happy.

Good morning.

some updates worth mentioning:
Mom forgot to pay the internet bill. Just in case you were wondering why you haven't seen me on Elftown in about week and a half.
Besides that, mom and I have been just cleaning the house.
Janne (my brother) was here last weekend. He helped with the messy look of our home.
Pete's fur has been trimmed. He looks like a dalmatian now. O_o

not so important updates:
I have now read the two newest Harry Potter books. I can't wait for the Potter movie. As well as the Pirates 3 and Spiderman 3.
The Eurovisions are coming... and if you don't know by now, this year it's here in Hki.
I'm going to see Weeping Willows (Swedish pop/rock band, Sweden's second best band) this month.
Wuhuu, just nine days left.


I hope you are all fine. Now that I got my internet back, I'll catch up on everything I've missed.


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http://youtube.com/watch?v=doc1eqstMQQ

I did a really stupid thing today...