i thought id found love in my life but i was wrong

i thought id found the right person but i was totally wrong

i thought id found myself but i didnt

i thought i cared for everyone but i dont

i thought i would stop the cutting but i didnt

i thought id stop the tears but they kept flowing

i thought id stop the blood but it kept running

i thoght i had stopped everyones love and care from coming to me but i didnt

i thought id kill myself but i didnt

i thought id learn to love but i dont know how

i thought id learn to care but i just cant

i thought id learn to trust but i cant

i thought idlearn to see things through ur heart but you closed me off

i thought id see things the way they should be but i didnt

when im by myself im the happiest ill ever be but when im around people who care and love me im the most depressed,sad and the lonliesy i can be or that ill ever be

dying, screaming, cutting, bleeding,and suffocating thats all the things i love to do and ill never stop