faith is in me

good luck getting your job.

putting it all behind me. lets go on now.

Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person,
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
You let this one person come down on the most perfect moment.
And it breaks my heart to know the only reason you are here now is a reminder of what I'll never have..
I'll never have.. I'll never...
Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in..
standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in.
But this table for one has become bearable.
I now take comfort in this, and for this, I cherish you.
Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
And you let this one person come down.. come down. I cherish you.. I cherish you.
Just say that you would do the same for me..
just say you would do the same for me
just say you would do the same
just say you would do the same for me
For as much as I love Autumn,
I'm giving myself to Ashes

Im so glad I found you, I love being around you. you make it easy.

1234
theres only

1 thing
2 say
3 words
4 you
I LOVE YOU

Baby, Im coming over today, Im taking you out. things are going to be the best they've ever been. I love you! see you soon, My Love. ^.^ /love

you talk all this shit Babe, but its just not worth it, Im coming over tonight, you know that. dont pretend as if your out with a girl. I just called your friend, and your with HIM. we ARE dating whether you think Im such a terrible person or not. You need to stop posting our whole life story online...Its getting old. if your going to go "out with some chick" than dont expect me to come over, because if what you say is true, Ipromise you she wont be making it home tonight, and you think I wont go back out with you after what you and her do...your probably right, because if your willing to go fuck everything up. than so be it, your choice. 

Just remember the first person you EVER had sex with...me
remember the person you got caught in the rain with for the first time...me
remember the first promise ring you gave away...me
remember those trips we took together, how fun!
remember those dumb fights, how worthless.
remember that huge catfish I caught! mine was way bigger than yours ^.^
remember you cant forget the past
remember who you miss every second of the day
remember who you say "i love you" to every single day!  me
remember who you wanted that child with....me
remember who was there to pick you up
remember who drove to you at 4am because you missed me
remember who sang to you because you wanted to hear my voice
remember who pleased you in SO MANY different ways
remember who you want to marry
remember who you want to spend the rest of your life with
remember who you got pregnant, me

you leave me, your leaving us
you cheat on me, your cheating on us
you hate me, your hating us
you abuse me, your abusing us
you step on me, your stepping on us

I love you with all my heart, Ill see you tonight, no matter if your out, Ill wait there in your driveway. Ill wait for your call. ill wait for you forever, just like I said 3 years ago. just like Im saying now. No matter what Babe, forever and ever...

04:07:06 - forever

you talk all this shit Babe, but its just not worth it, Im coming over tonight, you know that. dont pretend as if your out with a girl. I just called your friend, and your with HIM. we ARE dating whether you think Im such a terrible person or not. You need to stop posting our whole life story online...Its getting old. if your going to go "out with some chick" than dont expect me to come over, because if what you say is true, Ipromise you she wont be making it home tonight, and you think I wont go back out with you after what you and her do...your probably right, because if your willing to go fuck everything up. than so be it, your choice. 

Just remember the first person you EVER had sex with...me
remember the person you got caught in the rain with for the first time...me
remember the first promise ring you gave away...me
remember those trips we took together, how fun!
remember those dumb fights, how worthless.
remember that huge catfish I caught! mine was way bigger than yours ^.^
remember you cant forget the past
remember who you miss every second of the day
remember who you say "i love you" to every single day!  me
remember who you wanted that child with....me
remember who was there to pick you up
remember who drove to you at 4am because you missed me
remember who sang to you because you wanted to hear my voice
remember who pleased you in SO MANY different ways
remember who you want to marry
remember who you want to spend the rest of your life with
remember who you got pregnant, me

you leave me, your leaving us
you cheat on me, your cheating on us
you hate me, your hating us
you abuse me, your abusing us
you step on me, your stepping on us

I love you with all my heart, Ill see you tonight, no matter if your out, Ill wait there in your driveway. Ill wait for your call. ill wait for you forever, just like I said 3 years ago. just like Im saying now. No matter what Babe, forever and ever...

04:07:06 - forever

SPACE?? LISTEN WHEN I TALK TO YOU, it would help you better understand what I ment by the word "Space" I ment space from your 26 phonecalls...half of which I am at work, I love seeing you I DO miss you. I just wanted space from the phonecalls..that doesnt mean NEVER CALL ME it means space out your phone calls, and Ill do the same. I dont want to clutter eachother, because I know it HAS to bother you some times...I love you, more than you realize, obviously...and this is going to work out Babe, we're still together, we've been to hell and back, Im yours forever. but you know this. xoxoxox 

FOREVER ENTWINED

I AM YOUR WOMEN, TREAT ME HOW YOU WANT, DO AS YOU PLEASE, BE FREE, ILL GIVE YOU MY KEY, AND FOREVER BE YOURS.

HERE I AM
THIS IS ME

you'll be on my mind, no matter how far. ^.^

STILL WE FIGHT THE SAME WARS.

Im right there behind you, wherever you go ^.^

SO...I really HATE GIRLS, I do. they're all whiny bitch's who never stop complaining. if I could exterminate them all. i would.

SO...I really HATE GIRLS, I do. they're all whiny bitch's who never stop complaining. if I could exterminate them all. i would.

Ill have it

Every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. It means nothing. It still doesn't mean anything. What you feel only matters to you. It's what you do to the people you say you love, that's what matters. It's the only thing that counts.




I am nothing special; just a common girl with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough.

A coma feels better than this...

Seriously, get the fuck over yourself, he doesnt like you HE NEVER WILL, we are getting married, we love eachother dearly, he'll never like you, NEVER consider you as a friend, stop trying to impress him and trying to be like him, because I garentee it wont get his attention at all.
you'v pissed me off every fucking day, whether we talked or not. I dont think you understand...you two never had anything together, even if you thought you did YOUR TERRIBLY MISTAKEN. sorry to say but YOU'LL NEVER HAVE HIM. so get over it, move on. If I ever see you again in person you can Garentee a fight. 
I love you act like your so into everything he is. your fake, your trying to get his attention by being everything he is...its not really workin out for ya! everything you say is a fucking lie..I dont understand why you keep trying to be something that your not, your just this fake little shadow that trys to follow us everywhere, you try to be into the same things he is, your CREEPY get the FUCK AWAY FROM US.

AND ANOTHER THING DONT YOU EVER CALL HIM MICHAEL!!!! his name is Jay. I ONLY CALL HIM MICHAEL YOU FUCKING BITCH!


Ugh, im still not over it...I FUCKING HATE YOU, I HATE YOU SO GOD DAMN MUCH. I JUST WISH YOU WOULD HAVE STAYED OUT OF OUR RELATIONSHIP, GO WORK ON YOUR OWN. GO GET YOUR OWN LIFE INSTEAD OF FUCKING UP OURS. YOU FUCKED UP OUR RELATIONSHIP IN THE BEGINNING YOU ARE NOT GOING TO DO THAT AGAIN. I'V HATED YOU FROM THE BEGINNING, THATS GREAT THAT YOU TWO WERE FRIENDS BEFORE WE STARTED DATING 3 FUCKING YEARS AGO...BUT THATS ALL OVER NOW, IM SORRY BUT YOUR JUST A STUPID BITCH WHO IS THIS LIEING CONEIVING LITTLE WITCH, GO ON WITH YOUR LITTLE FUCKED UP LIFE, AND LEAVE US OUT OF IT....

God damn, I really hope you read this, and realize who you are, you may not belive it at first..but yes! IT IS YOU!! sure I try to be your friend and such...nah I FUCKING HATE YOU and SO DOES HE!! I guess hes just nice enough not to say it to your face...BUT!!! I suppose Ill be the bitch and take a big dive. your so dumb...getting pics of my man up on your profile and everything, how fucked up is that?DID YOU ASK TO DO THAT..no of course not...ARE YOU TRYING TO MAKE ME JEALOUS : yes IS IT WORKING: no!! YOUR JUST ANNOYING THE FUCK OUT OF ME, AND I THINK ITS TIME YOU JUST TOOK A BIG WALK AND NEVER COME BACK. FUCKING BITCH!! OOOoOoo I really hope we run into eachother, reeeeaal soon. I swear to the gods Ill have you dead!





stop trying to make us feel bad with your little sappy ass stories, stop being a stalker bitch, and just move on...hes mine, and im his...go ahead and talk to him about this little diary entry..im sure he'd loooove to tell you the same thing.

why are fat people always so mean...Iv been to alot of larger peoples pages and they all say "IF YOU DONT LIKE ME BURN IN HELL" or "THIS IS ME, YOU DONT LIKE IT THEN FUCK OF" or "THIS IS A PIC OF ME, (blah blah a little discription) IF YOU DONT LIKE IT THEN YOU CAN LEAVE AND GO FUCK YOURSELF"

Seriously..and its only the fat people. If you know why, or if any of you have an opinion on this PLEASE feel free to message me, but if your fat and you have those mean comments on your page. please DONT message me, I really dont want you to say "YOU SHOULD FUCK OFF BLAH BLAH IM NOT FAT" or something...just dont.