feeling like T.T

I like Pina Coladas
And getting caught in the rain
I'm not into yoga
I have half a brain
I like making love at midnight
In the dunes on the Cape
Then I'm the love that you've looked for!
BUT YOUR ALREADY MINE!

If I end up pregnant this time...these 6 months Im doing it alone. I'll make you a scrap book of all the pictures of him/her in my stomach! ^.^ you wont miss a thing while your in bootcamp. 

I really really hope this time we are! ^.^ I'v thought about it for the past week. and I am so excited! Faith House Wetzel. or Jay Michael Wetzel III

^.^!!!!!

I think this times the one.

I CAN NOW SAY I'V BEEN FUCKED SO MUCH I BLED.

THANK YOU BABE!

BUT IT WAS ALL SO GREAT HAHA!^.^

3 rules from you to me. 

Never bring up the past.
Never tell his parents the bad news.
Never hurt you again.



Together Forever.
We can do this...

ANGER.SWARMS.ME.

SECONDS.FROM.THE.END.WHATS.IT.GONNA.BE?!?!


Dry your eyes
Hide your face with your hands
One last breath
Hold it in

Fuck your past
The future
Is in your hand

Just sit back and relax
Put your fucking shades on
Put that gun to your head
You're a fucking disgrace

Can your god save you now?

You coward

Drowning yourself
In your tears
No one has
Pity for you

Seconds from the end
What's it gonna be
Pull the trigger bitch

havnt been in the greatest of moods....
cant seem to get out of this coma like feeling.


everything is just.....there, its not really anything at all

it doesn't mean much

it doesn't mean anything at all

the life I've left behind me

is a cold room

I've crossed the last line

from where I can't return

where every step I took in faith

betrayed me

and led me from my home

and sweet

sweet surrender

is all that I have to give

you take me in

no questions asked

you strip away the ugliness

that surrounds me

are you an angel

am I already that gone

I only hope

that I won't disappoint you

when I'm down here

on my knees

and sweet

sweet

sweet surrender

is all that I have to give

sweet

sweet

sweet surrender

is all that I have to give

and I don't understand

by the touch of your hand

I would be the one to fall

I miss the little things

oh I miss everything

it doesn't mean much

it doesn't mean anything at all

the life I left behind me

is a cold room

finding out your not pregnant after trying for 2 months is heartbreaking. Im sorry Hun. /sigh guuuuuuuuuessss this means we'll haaaaaaave to keep trying.... ^.^!!
heehee

apparently you dont get it...

FUCK

1 month and your leaving for boot camp. 6 months without you. I cherish everyday with you until the day you leave. We are going to Frankenmuth for 2 days, im excited!!! Then I will see you off, watch you get onto that bus, and smile back at you. Because your coming back to me ^.^ These 6 months will be worth it in the future, because when you get back, we'll live together!!! ^.^!!!

we looked at engagement rings yesturday, I tried the ring on that I'v wanted ever since I saw it! ^.^ It's so pretty!!!!!! And you tryed on one you liked. "indestructable rings you can wear in the army!" haha

You wanted me to write you EVERYDAY so you sha'll reciever a letter everyday from me hun ^.^ your going to kick ass at boot camp ^.^

AND I AM SO PROUD OF YOU.
AND PROUD TO HAVE A FIANCE' THATS GOING INTO THE ARMY!!!

I got naked and looked in the mirror. at my whole body, what else is there to it? its just a body, people drool over this, and thats all they see. But YOU, you see beyond my body, sure you enjoy it, but you see whats inside, you may hate it somedays, but you ALWAYS love whats inside. My body changed this past month, along with that so did the inside. you saw what changed on the outside, but you were blind this time, and havnt seen the inside yet. 

I love you

ANGER.SWARMS.ME.


I hate how its a secret to you.

The whole time I was driving home I was thinking about how I could make us even better. I'v decided to stop smoking for you, because I know that would make you so happy. And I thought about how I dont want to seem controlling and I am letting you do EVERYTHING and ANYTHING you want to do. no matter if I agree to it or not. and I'v stuck to my word

what did you think about?

Things were very hot that day...

I pulled into "our spot" I turned off the car, the light turned on when I pulled the keys halfway out, I looked at you and you smiled and said "I love you" I said it back to you, of course. you scooted to one side of the passengers seat and pulled me into the other half. I cuddled into you and we lie there for a few. I felt like I belonged, and nothing could hurt me, the whole world could fall and as long as I was in your grip I'd be okay. I lay on my back, and you kiss me, I kissed back, and let our tongues dance, you played with my collar bone, and gripped my ribs, I scratched down your chest, and back up to your shoulders. you asked if I would lay naked, I didnt argue, I dont think I wanted to argue with you at the point we're at right now. I took my clothes off leaving my black thong on, and my knee high socks. You rubbed my thighs up and down, leaning over me stealing kisses from my lips. you took your clothes off next, but left your shirt on. we lie in the passenger seat, like every other day, together. I lay with my back to you, you up against my body holding me, and kissing me. I move myself so Im half way ontop of you, back still facing you. I twist around so I can still kiss you. you ran your hands across my breasts, and I shivered, I felt myself become very cold. I layed my head down on the seat with my arm around the back of your neck. I felt exposed. you touched me all over, you grazed your hands on every inch of me. you payed attention to my breasts the most, you massaged them and lightly ran your finger tips across them. I lay there enjoying the feeling, not just of pleasure but to be in your arms. not caring if you feel the same. I lay my head into your chest and part of your shoulder. I close my eyes and imagine that day I told you was my favorite, in the past. You ran your hand down my stomach, even lower than that...the felt your hands slowly moving down, more and more. I flinched, and moved, squirmed a bit...I didnt know if I wanted it at first, but you did it anyways and I fell into it. I perked my ass out, how you like. that drove you crazy, and in moments you were inside me. I gasped, even though I knew it was coming. 

we were both sideways, my back arched, pushing my breasts out..that drove you mad, you gripped me so roughly, and I went submissive. I was yours, you made me that way. Like you said you wanted to do. it lasted a while. you kept groaning and breathing heavily you gripped my hands with yours, then your hands moved back to my chest, you felt me up over and over again, telling me how much you loved my body, and how beautiful I was, all I could do was smile, I felt so pretty to you. you gave me a hickey on my neck that I have to try and hide for work now >.< but it was well worth that night with you, You couldnt get enouhg of me.. you turned me over on my stomach, and pushed yourself in me again. and gripped my hips... that time didnt last as long. before I knew it I climbed into the drivers seat and got dressed...
I drove you to the end of your drive and we hugged, you kissed me. You told me you loved me countless times before you finally walked down your drive. I signed "I love you" and blew you a kiss. you signed "I love you too" and you caught the kiss I blew to you, and blew one back at me..like we do everynight. I pulled out and drove away, you walked down your drive to your house. 

A brain that never stops ticking,
sometimes an on-off switch would sure come in handy
A mind that's constantly cutting up and dissecting,
looking for answers, committing murders along the way

Is it the red wire, or the blue wire
just pick one and cut, it just doesn't matter anymore
or did it ever, cause I could never control
when the bomb would explode
Oh god I love you, I mean forever
I left my body behind to break the news
looks like it's over, please remember
all of the things I never got a chance to say
like you look smashing in your fourth grade picture,
the one that we hung by the door,
in our house that was so beautiful
Yeah, here in our little home

If this medication upsets your stomach,
take it with crackers, bread, or a small meal
We understand it won't do shit towards a cure
But if you buy this, I promise you're gonna like
the way it makes you feel