just leave me alone. everyone!
Im taking walks to where we used to go. where I was going to take you on sweetest day. The graveyard.  I want to just look up at the sky and ask myself why? I want to lean against that tomb stone. and think of all the great things. 

I just want to be left alone for a while...just so I can breathe because everyone has been down my back about everything. So go away! I want to be alone with him. in my thoughts and my heart, and my breath. my mind will be filled tonight. and when he looks to the sky at that moment he'll feel a sigh of relief knowing im looking at that same sky. thinking about him. like he is me. 


just give me this time...
I want it alone with my love.

Getting another tattoo. Im nervous this ones going to hurt. its over my heart. so sensative, but it'll be worth it!

"you cant have him, he doesnt even love you!"
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very annoyed.

work was boring as always.
sweetest day is next saturday.
Im very excited about it.
Taking Michael someplace VERY special when I get out of work.
He did the last 3 sweetest days, my turn now ^.^
picking up Michael in a few. its already 11pm and I hope I make it to the gas station.
Im in so much pain.
Physical pain.
Im annoyed.
did I mention annoyed?
very annoyed.
yup.
I dont really know the exact reason of my annoyance, just every little thing annoys me at the moment.
I'll get over it.
I hate working.
I need a money tree.
like now.
my job doesnt even give me enough fucking hours. 
I'v come to the conclusion....I hate my life.
maybe?

ugh.

time for some lovin
[dead~spirit] here i come!
ow ow!!!

feeling like T.T

I like Pina Coladas
And getting caught in the rain
I'm not into yoga
I have half a brain
I like making love at midnight
In the dunes on the Cape
Then I'm the love that you've looked for!
BUT YOUR ALREADY MINE!

If I end up pregnant this time...these 6 months Im doing it alone. I'll make you a scrap book of all the pictures of him/her in my stomach! ^.^ you wont miss a thing while your in bootcamp. 

I really really hope this time we are! ^.^ I'v thought about it for the past week. and I am so excited! Faith House Wetzel. or Jay Michael Wetzel III

^.^!!!!!

I think this times the one.

I CAN NOW SAY I'V BEEN FUCKED SO MUCH I BLED.

THANK YOU BABE!

BUT IT WAS ALL SO GREAT HAHA!^.^

3 rules from you to me. 

Never bring up the past.
Never tell his parents the bad news.
Never hurt you again.



Together Forever.
We can do this...

ANGER.SWARMS.ME.

SECONDS.FROM.THE.END.WHATS.IT.GONNA.BE?!?!


Dry your eyes
Hide your face with your hands
One last breath
Hold it in

Fuck your past
The future
Is in your hand

Just sit back and relax
Put your fucking shades on
Put that gun to your head
You're a fucking disgrace

Can your god save you now?

You coward

Drowning yourself
In your tears
No one has
Pity for you

Seconds from the end
What's it gonna be
Pull the trigger bitch

havnt been in the greatest of moods....
cant seem to get out of this coma like feeling.


everything is just.....there, its not really anything at all

it doesn't mean much

it doesn't mean anything at all

the life I've left behind me

is a cold room

I've crossed the last line

from where I can't return

where every step I took in faith

betrayed me

and led me from my home

and sweet

sweet surrender

is all that I have to give

you take me in

no questions asked

you strip away the ugliness

that surrounds me

are you an angel

am I already that gone

I only hope

that I won't disappoint you

when I'm down here

on my knees

and sweet

sweet

sweet surrender

is all that I have to give

sweet

sweet

sweet surrender

is all that I have to give

and I don't understand

by the touch of your hand

I would be the one to fall

I miss the little things

oh I miss everything

it doesn't mean much

it doesn't mean anything at all

the life I left behind me

is a cold room

finding out your not pregnant after trying for 2 months is heartbreaking. Im sorry Hun. /sigh guuuuuuuuuessss this means we'll haaaaaaave to keep trying.... ^.^!!
heehee

apparently you dont get it...

FUCK