its kinda like a bad dream...close to being a nightmare



T.T

we all have things to hide. we know what has been tried.
the hard part that we find is putting pen to paper.
I know I should expose everything thats inside.
but the question that plagues us is can we open our lives?

I lay it on the line for all to see
this is how we strive for greatness.
lets share our dark sides this has to be our time
this is our time
I'll open my door with this I let you in.
COME ONE COME ALL



robotic full of doubt.
lets get our fustration out.

Not feeling like myself....

*Shrivels Up*
  *Dies*
    .

I miss you so much, I want to be with you forever! I hate being away from you all the time. I dont know when the next time we will be able to see eachother...but Its killing me. without you, Im nothing.

Im so depressed right now. I just need someone to talk to, and Im wishing she was still around to talk to, I wish she would have never left...I wish my family would understand, I wish they would give me a chance, I wish Katelynn would forgive me, I wish she would forget the past. I really do miss her sometimes. shes my sister, and one of my best friends, I've tryed so hard, I've tryed everything. We havnt talked in 2 years...shes going off to college in august, I want things to be back to normal. Like they were 2 years ago...I messed up our relationship. its all my fault. I cant fix it. I guess its time to give up finally....I just want her to know that I do love her. and I didnt mean to mess up things between me and her..,

Michael,
I love you with all my heart. I really wish there was a way that you could understand how I feel about you. Your thee best thing that has ever happened to me...I love you!





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Make You Better

*To My One & Only*


I never felt a love
Like this before
It's a love like no other
Something I have always hoped for
A love with friendship
Humour and heart
A bond so strong
It would never part
A love that makes you smile
From ear to ear
A love that is joyful
Without any fear
A love that is beautiful
From the inside out
A love with no tears,
Pain, or doubt
A love with soul
So tender and true
A love that I have found
Only in you...

Im not having such a good day. This is probably thee most shity-est day I've had in a while...it sucks. 

I've had so much on my mind today, so many racing thoughts...

Its been 1 year and 2 months since I've last seen her
and I still have to wait another 3 years. Its killing me

 

I'll love you forever...
Even after Im gone
Forever And Always, My Love