she keeps on asking, do you think it hurts much to die
its hurting so much more to stay alive.
just the thought of you leaving is unbarable.
I dont know what I would do without you.
I hope one day you realize how much I care for you, and I'de do anything in the world for you.
I'de give my life up for you!
We've had our ups and downs...I'm sorry about the fighting, Im sorry about not opening up to you.
I wish I could tell you everything...b
I wish you knew everything about me.
I wish I had no secrets.
I wish I could be perfect.
If only you could read my mind.
you'de understand me alot better.
whenever we talk about it, I get upset. Just the thought of it makes me quiver. I think about it everyday, I just cant seem to get it out of my head.
hopefully one day you will realize how much this hurts.
...you said you'de do anything for me...
Why do I do things?
Just to keep a person happy?
I need to stand up for myself.
Im letting everyone walk all over me, again.
I didnt use to be like this...I've changed.
I've done so many bad things in the past.
So many things that I regret.
I've done bad things to people....some things that they dont even know about, and when I look at them I fill up if regret. Regretting what I did to them, I knew it was wrong, but yet...I still did it. I look back on it now, and think "WHY?" How could I do that to them.
was it out of jealousy? was it out of revenge? I know theres a reason why I did it...I just have to find that out.
with all of this I feel now
everything inside of my heart
it all just seems to be how
nothing I feel pulls at me at all
again I wait for this to pull apart
to break my time in two...
your all I want
your all I need
your all Im always wanting
Im turning into the something I never wanted to become...
GoodBye To You
I can be the one who cares
I can be your everything
I can be the one to sing you to sleep
I'll try to make you laugh untill you cry
it feels so right gazing into your eyes
if we just pull ourselves together
we'll make it through this stormy weather
if you cant get your self together
just hold my hand I'll make you better
theres nothing to fear
I will be right here
its kinda like a bad dream...close to being a nightmare
T.T
we all have things to hide. we know what has been tried.
the hard part that we find is putting pen to paper.
I know I should expose everything thats inside.
but the question that plagues us is can we open our lives?
I lay it on the line for all to see
this is how we strive for greatness.
lets share our dark sides this has to be our time
this is our time
I'll open my door with this I let you in.
COME ONE COME ALL
robotic full of doubt.
lets get our fustration out.
Not feeling like myself....
*Shrivels Up*
*Dies*
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I miss you so much, I want to be with you forever! I hate being away from you all the time. I dont know when the next time we will be able to see eachother...bu
Im so depressed right now. I just need someone to talk to, and Im wishing she was still around to talk to, I wish she would have never left...I wish my family would understand, I wish they would give me a chance, I wish Katelynn would forgive me, I wish she would forget the past. I really do miss her sometimes. shes my sister, and one of my best friends, I've tryed so hard, I've tryed everything. We havnt talked in 2 years...shes going off to college in august, I want things to be back to normal. Like they were 2 years ago...I messed up our relationship. its all my fault. I cant fix it. I guess its time to give up finally....I just want her to know that I do love her. and I didnt mean to mess up things between me and her..,
Michael,
I love you with all my heart. I really wish there was a way that you could understand how I feel about you. Your thee best thing that has ever happened to me...I love you!
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Make You Better
*To My One & Only*
I never felt a love
Like this before
It's a love like no other
Something I have always hoped for
A love with friendship
Humour and heart
A bond so strong
It would never part
A love that makes you smile
From ear to ear
A love that is joyful
Without any fear
A love that is beautiful
From the inside out
A love with no tears,
Pain, or doubt
A love with soul
So tender and true
A love that I have found
Only in you...
Im not having such a good day. This is probably thee most shity-est day I've had in a while...it sucks.
I've had so much on my mind today, so many racing thoughts...
Its been 1 year and 2 months since I've last seen her
and I still have to wait another 3 years. Its killing me
I'll love you forever...
Even after Im gone
Forever And Always, My Love