Sometimes at night when I look to the sky.
I start thinking of you and ask myself why?
Why do I love you? I think and smile.
Because I know the list could run for miles.
The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch.
So many little things that make me love you so much.
The way you support me, and help with my emotions.
The way that you care and show such devotion.
The way that your kiss fills me with desire.
And how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.
The way your eyes shine when you look at me.
Lost with you forever, is where I want to be.
The way that I feel when your by my side.
A senese of completion and overflowing pride.
I could go on for days telling of what I feel.
But all you really must know is my love for you is REAL.

I Love You

All these years Katelynn was right...

I read something of hers I wish I would have never read... But at the same time Im glad I did, because It made me realize something, she was right! And the things she wished for...I kinda wish they would come true now. She wished for me to be non-existent...She said I was worthless. She hates me, Im a failure, I will never proove my family wrong...I cant make it. 

"...I wish that you would have done what you said you were going to do a long time ago..I want you gone forever..out of my life..."

Katelynn, I think your wish is about to come true. Just know Im not just doing this for you...

...Im sorry

I dont understand you anymore....

Please tell me, whats wrong!

T.T

...I love you!

I love you so much!
I will never leave you.
There is no one else in the world like you. 
You are the only one I have ever truely loved.
You mean so much to me T.T

[I do hope you feel thee same for me]

I'm sorry about last night.


XOXOXOXOXOXOXOX

I love you Michael. Forever and Ever.
No matter what happens, you will forever be my one and only.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
*rips out hair*

FJKDSALJFKDSALJFKDSJFKDSJFUCK!!!!



If you feel like dying you might want to scream!

*SCREAMS*

I tryed to be perfect...

I just have that feeling....

I dont know what I would do without you. I cant imagine living my life with you not in it. You make everything better...I love you so much, forever and ever. No matter what happens. I will always love you, and I will always be with you for as long as you let me...


Your the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I dont ever want to loose you...

I just hope you feel the same...




I love you Forever and Always

I find myself frowning upon thee idea

your cold pale skin
tainted purple lips
let me embrace you with this kiss.

she keeps on asking, do you think it hurts much to die
its hurting so much more to stay alive.

just the thought of you leaving is unbarable.
I dont know what I would do without you.
I hope one day you realize how much I care for you, and I'de do anything in the world for you. 
I'de give my life up for you! 

We've had our ups and downs...I'm sorry about the fighting, Im sorry about not opening up to you. 
I wish I could tell you everything...but I cant. 
I wish you knew everything about me. 
I wish I had no secrets. 
I wish I could be perfect. 

If only you could read my mind.
you'de understand me alot better.

whenever we talk about it, I get upset. Just the thought of it makes me quiver. I think about it everyday, I just cant seem to get it out of my head.
hopefully one day you will realize how much this hurts.
















...you said you'de do anything for me...

Why do I do things?
Just to keep a person happy?
I need to stand up for myself.
Im letting everyone walk all over me, again.
I didnt use to be like this...I've changed.
I've done so many bad things in the past.
So many things that I regret.
I've done bad things to people....some things that they dont even know about, and when I look at them I fill up if regret. Regretting what I did to them, I knew it was wrong, but yet...I still did it. I look back on it now, and think "WHY?" How could I do that to them.
was it out of jealousy? was it out of revenge? I know theres a reason why I did it...I just have to find that out.

with all of this I feel now
everything inside of my heart
it all just seems to be how
nothing I feel pulls at me at all
again I wait for this to pull apart
to break my time in two...

your all I want
your all I need
your all Im always wanting

Im turning into the something I never wanted to become...

GoodBye To You

I can be the one who cares
I can be your everything
I can be the one to sing you to sleep
I'll try to make you laugh untill you cry
it feels so right gazing into your eyes
if we just pull ourselves together
we'll make it through this stormy weather
if you cant get your self together
just hold my hand I'll make you better
theres nothing to fear
I will be right here

its kinda like a bad dream...close to being a nightmare



T.T

we all have things to hide. we know what has been tried.
the hard part that we find is putting pen to paper.
I know I should expose everything thats inside.
but the question that plagues us is can we open our lives?

I lay it on the line for all to see
this is how we strive for greatness.
lets share our dark sides this has to be our time
this is our time
I'll open my door with this I let you in.
COME ONE COME ALL



robotic full of doubt.
lets get our fustration out.

Not feeling like myself....

*Shrivels Up*
  *Dies*
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