Can you feel your heart beat racing?
Can you taste the fear in her sweat?
You've done this wrong
Its to far gone
These sheets tell of regret
I admit that I'm...
I'm just a fool for you...

I thought I would never see him again, and I did. It ruined my whole day. Why did he have to show up and ruin everything? even though he didnt really do anything, its just the fact that he was there, and the fact that he was trying to talk to me like everything was okay, and like nothing ever happened between us, and like no hearts where broken...I fucking hate him. 

On another note, Michael told me how he felt about me not being able to tell him things. And I think now that I told him the reason and he understands (I hope) why I didnt tell him things, then things are going to be alot better betwen me and him. I feel like I can really open up to him now, and tell him things that I would only tell Janel, or Sam. I feel like...not only is he my boyfriend, but my best friend...^.^

Babe, I cannot! wait untill we get to move out together,to spend the rest of our life together, never apart. No more of these days where we never see eachother, for 3-5 days, We'll live in peace, no parents with us, telling us whats right and wrong, and giving us chores up to a point where thats all we are doing is chores and nots spending time with eachother. 

It made me really happy when you said you wanted to come to my concert...because I didnt even have to ask. ^.^ And not even my parents want to go to that. 

I love you so much, and Im really sorry about our disagreements we've had in the passed couple of days. Just know that I am sorry, and that I will ALWAYS forgive YOU! 

I Love You Michael.

...I was crying, because it was the first time in my life that I felt so happy, so happy that I am with you, I felt like nothing could hurt me anymore, I felt like you would protect me from everything. I feel safe in your arms, and there was no where else I wanted to ever be but close to you. and forever I sha'll be with you, no matter what happens. 
For all the times we were mad at eachother, and for all the mean things you say/said, and for all the mistakes that happened/will happen, I will forgive, and forget...it may take a while to forget, but I couldnt stand not forgiving you. 

Your my everything.
And forever you sha'll be...My Love

I vow never to never do that again...T.T

Everytime I here this song I close my eyes and replay the best times we had together...The day when we were dancing on the boardwalk. The day we got caught in the rain together and were soaking wet. And Those days we got mad at eachother over the dumbest things, and forgave eachother 30 seconds later, because its so hard to stay mad at eachother. Those days when we make milk shakes, and I always seem to get sick after drinking them. Those days when we are always late getting home. Those silent car rides home, were all we do is hold eachothers hand and stare out the car windows. The days when there is nothing to do but watch movies and cuddle (my favorite). The days when we go out to the movies together and share a pop and sneak in our own candy. The days when you come to pick me up and I surprise you with a blue can of Jolt! (I know those are your favorite days) The days when we go walk around town and goof off. And then theres those days when we arnt with eachother, and the whole day all we think about is eachother. I love those days...because I can sit home and listen to this song..and think about all our past memories, and think about YOU. But I have to admit I do like the days we are together making new memories a bit more....

Its beautiful outside...I wish I could go outside in the snow....I can just imagine it now...

Michael and I are walking down a dirt road, now covered in a thin layer of snow, tree's without leaves everywhere, covered in snow. Us talking about all our plans for the future, holding hands, and wishing this moment could last forever..The snow falling in his hair, and how handsome he looks...His perfect smile, and glistening eyes, pale white skin, soothing voice, and warming touch....

I seriously hate you so much!
He's so fucking mean, he makes me feel like shit EVERYDAY! Today he told me it would be impossible for me to graduate high school. I tryed to fight it but he made me agree with him. He told me theres nothing I can say to make him change his thoughts about how he feels. I agreed with him, and told him he was right...Im really getting sick of him always fucking putting me down, and people wonder why I have such low self esteem! Now you know!!! Because I have to think low of myself to make him happy, so he knows he's right. And I fucking hate it! and I cant stand up for myself ever because he wont let me...Im basically stuck and no way out...He's blocking all the exits

I thought I knew you better then that...Maybe I was wrong.

Im glad you abandoned me! 
I DONT NEED YOU! 
Your a back stabber.
A LIER! 

If you cared about me, you wouldnt have said what you did.
If you knew me at all, you wouldnt have told me to do those things.
If you listened to how Happy I was about doiong this, you wouldnt have tryed to talk me out of it!

Im glad you are 6 states away!
Dont ever talk to me again!!!

Im stuck..Im confused..I dont know what to do!! It's all happening to fast. I want it to happen, but then I dont.

I love you enough to let you do this.
But I love you to much to spend that much time away from you.


It's just happening so fast, and Im still 10 steps behind.

We all have things to hide
we know what has been tried
the hard part is putting pen to paper
I know I should expose everyhing thats inside
but the question that plagues us
is can we open our lives?

T.T *shrivels up and dies*

I believe that lovers should be tied together
and thrown into the ocean in the worst of weather
and left there to drown
in their inocence.


I believe that lovers should be chained together
and thrown into a fire with theris songs and letters
and left their to burn in their arrogance.


I bleive that lovers should be drapped in flowers
and laid entwined togheter on a bed of clovers
left there to sleep
left there to dream
Of their happines...




My Love,
I want to be forever asleep with you, we can dream together of all our past memories. 
"forever entwined as your soul mate, together...forever"
I promised you, if you were to leave this earth, then I sha'll follow shortly after...


we will be together soon My Love....very soon....T.T

[*shrivels up & dies*]

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Forgive us if you can
abandon your best friends
its demanding and filled with detriment
Leaving your lover home waiting
Putting much faith in her patience
Dont fool yourself its not endless
Phone calls are poor consolations

We've Abandoned Our Best Friends

I think Im falling back into my old habbits, of being depressed...Lately I find myself so depressed I dont want to do anything, dont want to eat or talk...I just sit there most of the time, listening to music, talking online, or writting poems. I dont want to go back to the way I was T.T It took me so long to become happy, I dont think I can do it again. Nor would I want to do it again...I just dont know...

Theres no place else I feel safer, than in your arms ^.^

moon boots
and a hand-me-down snowsuit
snot is dripping from my nose
my lips are chapped and my cocoa froze
and i get low
man, i can see you through your window
sneak attack in a field
use your toboggan as a shield!

A Lie will always defeat the truth.
Weight leaves in anger from my shoulders.
Words of wisdom crush hope.
What is real?
I thought I knew.
The tremble of your soul injects fear into my heart.
I will stand alone.
This gentle mind, the one inside me will never hurt you.
Actions speak louder than words will ever.
So I will show you my sincerety in the shape of my still beating heart.