ok i only write if i got something big. well i have something uber big. so big i cant even figure it outfor almost three weeks i havent had a full nights sleep.most of you would think "so" but this is just the tip of the ice burg. ive been hearing stuff in my head.stuff i have thought about but shroged it off but i have this little voice in my head that has been talking about stuff. my future my family my friends even my girl friend, i dont know if it is me or what but my skin has been crawling and i keep feeling like someones wacthing me. I just feel all confused and angry and sad all at the same time. I asked one of my friends what he thought he said it was in my head because of my grandma died. but he can go fuck him self because he dosent belive me about other stuff and he said i wasnt a juggalo so he can go fuck off.i also thought somebody might be messing with me on a higher level than just physicaly. if anybody has any thoughts that might help me i would
ok i only write if i got something big. well i have something uber big. so big i cant even figure it outfor almost three weeks i havent had a full nights sleep.most of you would think "so" but this is just the tip of the ice burg. ive been hearing stuff in my head.stuff i have thought about but shroged it off but i have this little voice in my head that has been talking about stuff. my future my family my friends even my girl friend, i dont know if it is me or what but my skin has been crawling and i keep feeling like someones wacthing me. I just feel all confused and angry and sad all at the same time. I asked one of my friends what he thought he said it was in my head because of my grandma died. but he can go fuck him self because he dosent belive me about other stuff and he said i wasnt a juggalo so he can go fuck off. if anybody has any thoughts that might help me i would appreciate them.
ok i only write if i got something big. well i have something uber big. so big i cant even figure it outfor almost three weeks i havent had a full nights sleep.most of you would think "so" but this is just the tip of the ice burg. ive been hearing stuff in my head.stuff i have thought about but shroged it off but i have this little voice in my head that has been talking about stuff. my future my family my friends even my girl friend, i dont know if it is me or what but my skin has been crawling and i keep feeling like someones wacthing me. I just feel all confused and angry and sad all at the same time. I asked one of my friends what he thought he said it was in my head because of my grandma died. but he can go fuck him self because he dosent belive me about other stuff and he said i wasnt a juggalo so he can go fuck off. if anybody has any thoughts that might help me i would appreciate them.
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I Had the wierdess dream last night. I dreamt that me and one of my friends that i kinda like(dont ask its weird) were getting married.Just out of no where "we are getting married". i never even thought about marrying her. I went through the stages of planning. i woke up after freaking out about the wedding andwent back to sleep and still was freaking out over it.then my dad says lets go fishing and i woke up. now im not sure but in a dream when you talk about fishing or there is a fish it usally means something to do with pregnacy and im flipping out because i havent done anything im still A virgin but im like totally flipping out. If any one has anything to say please feel free to.
Ok. so im going to prom with [J_87]. and im not sure if im excited or what.
My family is so stupid. My dad and step mom celebrated their 14th aniversery my dad bought my step- mom a desk she wanted for some reason even though she has no room. then she gives it to my 9 year old sister. my step mom gave my dad a flag for his flag pole. they didnt even go out for it. i thought that aniverserys were something to celebrate but apparently they arent. that makes me so mad. but other than that nothing big has happened.
another day
another dollar (or euro or what ever currency you use in your land)
but goodc news i did find a date or two to my prom whose names will be kept secret till they say i can use them because they are on here. but other than that im cool.
well prom is less than two weeks away and i still dont have a date . i hate dances the only reason i go is if i have a date cause i do stupid stuff when i see all the couples there .dancing and holding each other the fury blinds me to the point were i take the final plonge but thankfully i havent done it ive been saved by icp. only this time its occuring to me that this is my last dance and im 17 and have never had a "girl friend".
i heard a song one year when a girl said she would go to a dance and the next day i heard her talking to her friends and how she was not going to show.the next day in guitar class i played this song it was called prom queen by icp. in the song the guy asks a girl if she would go to his prom. she said she would rather die. so he killed her and had prom in his basement with her dead body. when she heard that song her face was ghost white. i laughed and she knew she messed up. i never did any thing to her never even spoke to her for a year cause i moved. i saw her one day and i said hello prom queen and her face went ghost white again . the fire inside burned hotter than ever.