[MissAJLawson]'s diary

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Written about Friday 2009-07-03
Written: (5621 days ago)

Thoughts to escape the feelings that climb slowly from the past with the mere sight of your face.
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Todays Run
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tangled misconstrued complex emotions
drip irregularly from sealed outlets
mindless sense filled pondering
erratic heart-beating drums
thoughts meander undrivenly nowhere
wet laces flip unevenly in radical rhythm
sun charged pavement welcomes repetitively
tattered weeping over worn shoes
stove--off ^ car--stopped ^ dog--bark
filter
f-i-l-t-e-r
pressed limits exceed breathing ability
delicious gripping afflictions
once forgotten spaces cloud and uncloud
over wrought and over wrung life
saturated muscles work vigorously

potential matter exerted

traumatized mutilated will concedes its assault

rubber soles cease movement

reality blurs involuntarily back in focus
bitter cold water bites roughly down

todays factuality comes into play



~RunDownAngel~
~~RLS~~

843260  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-08-23
Written: (6666 days ago)
618984  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-07-09
Written: (7076 days ago)

5. Everything Ends - Slipknot


You are wrong,fucked,and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING
I haven't slept since I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie,motherfucker
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING


Shallow skin,I can paint with pain
I mark the trails on my arms with your disdain
Everyday it's the same - I LOVE YOU HATE
But I guess I don't care anymore...
Fix my problems with the blade
While my eyes turn from blue to gray
God,the worst thing happened to me today
But I guess I don't care anymore


You are wrong,fucked,and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING
I haven't slept since I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie,motherfucker
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING


My flaws are the only thing left that's pure
Can't really live, can't really endure
Everything I see reminds me of her
God I wish I didn't care anymore
The more I touch,the less I fell
I'm lying to myself that it's not real
Why is everybody making such a big fucking deal?
I'm never gonna care anymore


What the hell am I doing?
Is there anyone left in my life?
What the fuck was I thinking?
Anybody want to tell me I'm fine?
Where the hell am I going?
Do I even need s reason to hide?
I am only betrayed
I am only conditioned to die

565884  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-05-01
Written: (7145 days ago)
Next in thread: 569593

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565859  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-05-01
Written: (7145 days ago)

[this is how you feel about me...this is what i am....are you pissed cause im still around..do you want me to just stay gone....]

[the chorus is all me all how i feel so much inside]
PAPA ROACH LYRICS

"Scars"

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

[Chorus x2]


559509  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-04-23
Written: (7153 days ago)
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