[MissAJLawson]'s diary
[this is how you feel about me...this is what i am....are you pissed cause im still around..do you want me to just stay gone....]
[the chorus is all me all how i feel so much inside]
PAPA ROACH LYRICS
"Scars"
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is
[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand
[Chorus]
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
[Chorus x2]
Rebecca and Clifford
Me
Now for some sort of a discription. I am a Strawberry blonde dyed Brunette with blue/green eyes. I am in general a nice person unless pissed off. I seem to find the good guys last...but I still find them..I have to many friends and not enough of anything else. Im a very depressed person even when i should be happy i tend to be sad. But its okay i got meds now HAHAHAHA......
a little more about me
TO PLAY I NEVER.
PUT AN (x) IN FRONT OF THE THINGS THAT YOU HAVE NEVER DONE BEFORE
AND A (_) ON THE THINGS THAT YOU HAVE DONE AT LEAST ONCE. ADD AN "I NEVER" OF YOUR OWN.
(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DRUNK
(_) I NEVER HAVE SMOKED POT
(_) I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX
(_) I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(X) I NEVER CRASHED A FRIEND'S CAR
(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN IN LOVE
(_) I NEVER HAD SEX
(_) I NEVER HAVE HAD SEX IN PUBLIC
(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DUMPED
(X) I NEVER SHOPLIFTED
(x) I NEVER HAVE BEEN FIRED
(_) I NEVER BEEN IN A FIST FIGHT
(_) I NEVER HAD A THREESOME
(_) I NEVER BEEN SNUCK OUT OF MY PARENT'S HOUSE
(_) I NEVER BEEN TIED UP (SEXUALLY)
(X) I NEVER BEEN CAUGHT MASTURBATING
(X) I NEVER PISSED ON MYSELF
(_) I NEVER HAD SEX WITH A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(X) I NEVER BEEN ARRESTED
(_) I NEVER MADE OUT WITH A STRANGER
(X) I NEVER STOLE SOMETHING FROM MY JOB
(X) I NEVER WENT ON A BLIND DATE
(_) I NEVER LIED TO A FRIEND
(_) I NEVER HAD A CRUSH ON A TEACHER
(_) I NEVER SKIPPED SCHOOL
(X) I NEVER SLEPT WITH A CO-WORKER
(X) I NEVER BEEN SKYDIVING
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DUMPSTER DIVING
(X) I NEVER PUT MY PANTS ON MY HEAD RANDOMLY
(_) I NEVER WALKED IN ON FRIENDS HAVING SEX
(X) I NEVER WALKED IN ON MY PARENTS HAVING SEX
(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN CAUGHT HAVING SEX
(X) I NEVER EGGED A PT CRUISER OR HONDA ELEMENT (SHEIST BOX)
(_) I NEVER LIED JUST TO COVER MY OWN ASS
(_) I NEVER CUT SOMEONE AND MADE THEM BLEED
(_)I NEVER ( EVER EVER EVER ) FANTASIZED ABOUT A FAMOUS SINGER
(X)I NEVER TOLD SOMEONE I LOVED THEM JUST TO MAKE ME OR THEM FEEL BETTER
(X) I NEVER HAD SEX WITH TWINS
(_) I NEVER WATCHED PEOPLE HAVING SEX
Anyways no messages saying want to cyber or you will be blocked!
AND I AM IN NO WAY SHAPE OR FORM "HOT" "CUTE" "SEXY" OR ANYTHING ELSE SO DONT MESSENGE ME RANDOMLY TELLING ME SUCH
I keep getting calls froma private number...someo
Things That A Perfect Guy Would Do
1. Know how to make you smile when you are down.
2. Try to secretly smell your hair, but you always notice.
3. Stick up for you, but still respects your independence..
4. Give you the remote control during the game.
5. Come up behind you and put his arms around you.
6. Play with your hair.
7. His hands always find yours.
8. Be cute when he really wants something.
9. Offer you plenty of massages.
10. Dance with you, even if he feels like a dork.
11. Never run out of love.
12. Be funny, but know how to be serious.
13. Realize he's being funny when he needs to be serious.
14. Be patient when you take forever to get ready.
15. React so cutely when you hit him and it actually hurts.
16. Smile a lot.
17. Plans a romantic date full of cheesy things he wouldn't normally like to do, just because he knows it means a lot to you.
18. Appreciate you.
19. Help others out.
20. Drive 5 hours just to see you for 1.
21. Always gives you a peck on the cheek when you depart from each other’s company, even when his friends are watching.
22. Sing, even if he can't.
23. Have a creative sense of humor.
24. Stare at you.
25. Call for no reason.
26. Quit smoking, chewing, drinking, or drugs - just because he loves you that much to quit it.
Wednesday, September 5, 2068--my death date according to www.deathclock
WELCOME
J'ai ÃctÃc sais pour être une chienne mais moi suis une personne s'inquiÃctante vraiment gentille et si vous voulez m'envoyer une lettre vais en avant dÃcfectuositÃc rÃcponds presque à chacun
BEFORE YOU TALK TO ME BEWARE OF THE FOLLOWING>>>LOL
Congratulation
Your IQ score is 124
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Cattel 16 Factor Test Results
Warmth ||||||||||||||
Intellect ||||||||||||||
Emotional Stability |||||||||||| 38%
Aggressiveness |||||| 18%
Liveliness ||||||||||||||
Dutifulness ||||||||| 22%
Social Assertiveness ||||||||||||||
Sensitivity ||||||||||||||
Paranoia ||||||||||||||
Abstractness ||||||||||||||
Introversion ||||||||||||||
Anxiety ||||||||||||||
Openmindedness ||||||||||||||
Independence ||||||||||||||
Perfectionism ||||||||||||||
Tension ||||||||||||||
Disorder Rating Information
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Comp
I took it twice(SO I GUESS IM SOMEWHERE IN BTWEEN THESE AWNSERS) NO i didnt lie..i awnsered truthfully
Paranoid: Very High
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Comp
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Random questions
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{x} Fallen for your best friend? no
{x} Made out with JUST a friend? no
{x} Been rejected? Yes
{x} Been in love? yes
{x} Been in lust? yes
{x} Used someone? no
{x} Been used? yes
{x} Cheated on someone? No
{x} Been cheated on? Yes
{x} Done something you regret? Yes
{x} Considered a life of crime? No
{x} Considered being a hooker? No
{x} Considered being a pimp? No
{x} Are you psycho? Yes
{x} Split personalities? not really
{x} Schizophrenic? yes
{x} Obsessive? not much
{x} Obsessive compulsive? not bad
{x} Dream of dead bodies, blood, death, and gore? sometimes
{x} Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? Yes
{x} Understanding: yes
{x} Open-minded: Yes
{x} Arrogant: not really
{x} Insecure: yes
{x} Interesting: not really
{x} Hungry: never
{x} Friendly: To certain people
{x} Smart: Yes
{x} Moody: yes
{x} Childish: No
{x} Independent: no
{x} Hard working: Yes
{x} Organized: somewhat
{x} Healthy:so/so
{x} Emotionally stable: no
{x} Shy: yes
{x} Difficult: Yes
{x} Attractive: nope
{x} Bored easily: Yes
{x} Thirsty: no
{x} Responsible: yes
{x} Sad: Yes
{x} Happy: no
{x} Trusting: none
{x} Talkative: so/so
{x} Original: so/so
{x} Different: Yes
{x} Unique: Yes
{x} Lonely: Yes
{x} Color your hair? Blonde/Brown
{x} Floss daily? No
{x} Own a web cam? No
{x} Ever get off the damn computer? Yes
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Currents
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{x} Current Annoyance: PARENTS
{x} Current Favorite Group: googoo dolls
{x} Current DVD In Player: not a game instead
{x} Current Worry:is he bored
{x} Current Crush: the one im with...
{x} Current Favorite Celebrity: Alterbridges lead singer
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On Dating:
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{x} Long or short hair? Either
{x} Dark or blond hair? Either
{x} Tall or short? Tall
{x} Mr Sensitive or Mr Funny? Sensitive
{x} Good or bad? hmmmm BAD
{x} Dark or light eyes?: Either
[I was bored and i filled one out so read it!]
001: Name:Rebecca
002: Nickname:Baby
003: Country of living:USA
004: Birthdate: june 24
005: Length: 5'6.5
006: Eye color: blue/green
007: Shoesize:7
008: School/work:bo
009: You smoke: nope
010: Hobbies: to many
011: Brothers/Siste
012: Relationship: involved with [Rev] CJ
013: Piercing(s):ears and upper ear
014: Tattoo: not untill next year
015: Fave Country to go to: none
016: Are there people you wont reply to?: preps
017: Nicest person you met this year: [Lizzies Diamond]
018: Person you rather not have met this year: logan
019: Who would you like to meet: god
020: Who do you admire most: [Deleted-Darmar]
021: Most sexy person(s): [Rev] CJ
022: Favorite Pyama: a shirt
023: Favorite Car: Dodge Viper
024: Favorite Movie(s): city of angels
025: Favorite music: rock/punk
026: Favorite City(s): none
027: Favorite Plush: my old teddy bear
029: Favorite Magazine:none
030: Favorite sound: vocals
031: Favorite TV-series: charmed
032: Favorite Writer: sandra brown
033: Favorite Nickname: Baby or Kitten
034: What is on your mousepad: my mouse
035: What is under your bed: to much stuff
036: Favorite color:im not sure i have one
037: Favorite Song ever: iris by goo goo dolls
038: Favorite song at this moment: falling in love agian by eagle-eye cherry
039: Favorite food:none
040: Favorite class in school:photogr
041: Favorite drink: alcohol
042: Lucky number: 12
043: What do you think is greatest about yourself: ummmmmmmm
044: What deodorant do you use:anything that smells pretty
045: Favorite shoes:back spikeys with strappys
046: What time do you go to bed on weekdays: whenever the fuck i feel like it
047: What word do you use most: dickhead
048: Most romantic moment in your life: i dont know ive never been romanced
049: Most embarassing moment in your life: too many you dont need to know about
050: You spend your time rather inside or outside: outside at night
051: What do you do on the weekends:spend them with CJ [Rev]
052: What class in school do/did you dislike most:ummmmm mathmatics
053: Your Breakfast: none
054: What do you really really dislike to eat: tofu
055: Pets:none
056: Laugh or dream:dream
057: Serious or funny: serious
058: Fast or slow: im fast i like slower people
059: You prefer being alone or have relation:have a relationship
060: Simple or complicated?:m
061: Cremate or Buried when dead:hmmm i dont care ill be dead
062: Sex or alcohol: sex
063: Stay up late or go to bed early: all night
064: Light or dark?: dark
065: Speak or Silence: both
066: Tall or small man/woman:tall
067: News paper: no
068: Hug or kiss:both
069: Happy or Sad: i like happy but im usually sad
070: Life or Death:death
071: Gig or Disco: gig
072: Left or Right: right
073: Sausages on top, or on the side:hmm in the middle
074: Dark/ red/ Blonde:dark...
075: What would you ask God if you could ask him 1 single question: why?
076: You believe in reincarnation:
077: You believe in Aliens: maybe
078: When you die, what will be your last words?:....i deserved this
079: Does true love exist: yes i believe it dose
080: How many kids would you like to have:as many as my partner wants
081: What is the one thing you can't stand:someone not caring
082: Best feeling: being loved
083: Worst feeling in the world: lonliness
084: What are you afraid of: spiders
085: Are you an emotional person: yes
086: Do you ever cry during a movie: yes armageddon
087: Your goal in life: prosper
088: What was the promise you made to yourself at new years eve:...not to kill myself
089: Favorite art-artist:van gogh
090: As what animal would you like to reincarnate: a panther
091: What is the most beautiful part on the male body: the shoulder and stomach
092: Most original place to ask your love to marry you: dont know some place just the two of you know about
093: What do you think of Elftown: its cool
094: Is there something you miss about elftown: naw
095: Where did you get this question list: stole it from [MajinBu] Marco
096: Besides elftown, what do you do most on your PC:game and chat
097: Is there a question you missed in this at all: hell if i know
098: Is there a God?:i think
099: How many times have you fallen in love?: twice
100: Die young or grow old?:grow old
101: Afraid of death?: hell no
102: What are you afraid of?: spiders
103: Have you ever had sex?: yea
104: What is your shilouette race?
105: How much are you worth? You are worth exactly: $1,868,122.00.
link: www.humanforsa
106: Which level of hell will you go too?
[THE SEVENTH LEVEL]
My friends
THIS IS MY BEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WORLD> NO ONE CAN REPLACE YOU EVER AND EVEN THOUGH YOUR GONE YOUR IN MY HEART
[MajinBu] You have been there for me we havent talked to much latly but you know if you ever need to talk I am here. You means so much to me. I'm always here if you ever need anything
[miuks] Me and you are two in the same we think so much alike its scary love you girl.
[Dre] You are one of the wisest people i have ever met. Now i know why they say age is measured in wisdom not # of years
[Goodnight Nurse] Man your awsome. A smartass but awsome. MONKEY!!!
[Lizzies Diamond] Girl i love you like you were my own flesh and blood.Let not let anything come between us.
[Sirus Daemonus]Miss you man hope i get to see you soon
[Deleted-Darmar] Youve always cared about me and i couldnt ask for more from you. Thanks for always beign there no matter what the situation. Thanks for everything. I hope we can always be friends. Loves Ya
[Kuma] I love your Art its so beautiful
[viqas] Youve always been there for me. Luvs ya!!!
[billyjoe] Girls you my as well be my real sis. Keep them boys on there toes!
Wiki's I Belong too(if i left any out let me know)
broken promises
lovers
Broken Hearts
anti-love
no im not agianst it just being hurt by it
prep haters
yes i cannot stand them there so damn annoying
Depressed people
Candles for loved ones
ALL FOR KAYLA.....MISS YOU!!!
This is my Kayla...I Miss her so much!!!
Rain Lovers
Freaks
no i dont look like one...but just ask around...mwaha
Kinky People united
ohhh yea so very much me
Insomniacs United
Pyromaniacs United
Black Sheep
Badass
Perverts United
Razor Blade Army
Biters United
Hopeless Romantics
Ugly People United
Perverted People United