i cant take this anymore...i hate october it the worst montho out of the whole year...last year on october 19th as some of you namely my really close friends know my best friend got hit by a truck i cant stop thinking about him and now because the 1 yr anniversary of his accident is only 12 days away i cant stop crying...i still feel really bad about falling asleep the night before and never calling him back on the 18th and that summer i was supposed to go to his dads wedding with him but i totally blew it off to hang out with my ex-boyfriend..