I had a weird dream last night. It was at my grandma's house. I was in a swimming contest. There was a really hot guy. At first he was wearing a black swimsuit for women, then he changed into shorts, then he had clothes on. I wore a swimsuit then I had weird clothes on. I made out with him too. I didn't get his name though. He looked like this guy I saw on MySpace. It was pretty weird, but we were hitting it off. I still can't believe that we made out. It's kinda creepy, but kinda cool. I woke up from that dream to find my mom checking to see if I had a fever. Then I went back to sleep. I don't know if I dreamed again. I woke up again cuz I heard my alarm go off. I fell back to sleep, and woke up to see Teresa standing in my doorway. And now here I am.

Cameron called me last night, and I had an asthma attack before we hung up. He asked if I was ok. I told him I was after a minute or so. I couldn't breathe for awhile so it took me awhile to answer him. He told me I gave him a heart attack. That's the last time I stuff tons of chocolate in my mouth while jumping up and down, listening to Slipknot, and talking to Cameron at the same time.

Cameron upset me. First of all, he wouldn't stop playing his guitar. Second, he nagged me for digging in his coat pockets when he knows that I love doing it. Plus he tries to hard on some things. And when he asked me if I was mad at him, I said maybe. He didn't really get that I was. He doesn't understand what I was saying to him.

Hey. I'll be offline till Monday.

Hey everyone! I'll be gone this weekend. So yeah. Just letting you know.

I have a b/f. He's a Sr. He plays the guitar, bass, and drums. He's in the army. Right now, he's at Louisiana. He's so awesome.

Wanna hear a story? I'll tell you.
I was a little girl. My dad was chopping a tree.
I was sitting on the porch with my mom and g-ma. Then some cars crashed, and they were watching that. I snuck off, and went to my dad. He didn't know I was behind him, he pulled back the ax, and wacked me in the head with the back of the ax. I guess I was knocked out cuz that's all I remember.
Now I have trouble remembering things, I'm not as smart as I should be, and I have voices in my head.

I'm so lonely. I need a b/f. I wish this one guy would like me.

I made a Quiz for You on QuizYourFriends.com

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Here's a song. It's the bonus track from "The Chronicles of Life and Death (Death Version)" CD.


Lost and broken
Hopeless and lonely
Smiling on the outside
But hurt beneath my skin
My eyes are fadin'
My soul is bleedin'
I'll try to make it seem ok
But my faith is wearin' thin


chorus
So help me heal these wounds
Leave it open for way too long
Help me fill this soul
Even though this is not your fault
That I'm open and I'm bleedin'
All over your brand new rug
And I need someone to help me sew them up


I only wanted a magazine
I only wanted a movie screen
I only wanted the life I'd read about and dreamed


And now my mind is an open book
And now my heart is an open wound
And now my life is an open soul for all to see


chorus
But help me heal these wounds
Leave it open for way too long
Help me fill this soul
Even though this is not your fault
That I'm open and I'm bleedin'
All over your brand new rug
And I need someone to help me close them up


So you come along
I'll push you away
Then kick and scream for you to stay
Cuz I need someone to help me
Oh I need someone to help me


To help me heal these wounds
Leave it open for way too long
Help me fill this soul
Even though this is not your fault
That I'm open and I'm bleedin'
All over your brand new rug


And I need someone to help me sew them
I need someone to help me fill them
I need someone to help me close them up

I wrote this song. I don't care what you think of it, so don't send me messages saying that it sux.

I can't get over you. I can't get over you. I love you. I love you.

My brother has a new g/f. I'm so happy for him. Good luck with the new g/f, Tyler.

I'm moving. It's good, but it sux at the same time. I'm gonna have to make new friends. I hate doing that. Well, unless I'm making friends on the Internet. So ya, I'll be moving close to Oklahoma City, and for the next month or so, I'll be packing stuff up. I might not be on that much.

I'm so alone. I think I'll type a song from Evanescence. It' a great song.


          Taking Over Me

You don't remember me
But I remember you
I lie awake and try so hard
Not to think of you
But who can decide what they dream?
And dream I do...

        (chorus)
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breath
You're taking over me

Have you forgotten all I know
And all we had?
You saw me mourning my love for you
And touched my hand
I knew you loved me then

        (chorus)

I look in the mirror and see your face
If I look deep enough
So many things inside that are just like you are taking over

        (chorus)

These are parts of poems.


You say I'm obssessive
You say I freak you out
That may be true
But I still love you
(that one sucks)

Guide me through this darkened place
Help me find my happy ending
Show me the true way
So I can stop pretending
(I like this one)

I wish I could show you
How much I care
I want you to know
I'll always be there
(I like that one 2)


Tell me what you think.

I feel so alone, and bored. I need to get more friends on this site. But still, no one wants to be my friend. No matter how hard I try. I want to be noticed for once in awhile. I want a certain guy to tell me these words that I've felt for him, but he can't, even if he does feel that way. He's caught up in something else.
Bye.

Hi everyone. I'm sitting here bored. Send me messages.