You know, diary, it's hard, really hard to be an appendix. First, everybody calls you "Appendix" so that you can't forget that you're an appendix. Appendix means : a very-very little part of everybody - little or small in the meaning of height. So, everybody calls you Appendix, and then everybody hardly notice you again because of your height. So, you are small, and everybody makes you think of it all the time, and so you get used to a situation when even somebody of 1,70sm high is even higher than you. To talk to somebody you gotta raise your head and try to make your speech louder so that one could hear it... Okay, no, it's not THAT hard. But it is hard anyway. You cannot become a top-model or something. You cannot find clothes and all you may do is finding children clothes, or make them by your own hands yourself... That's how ppl start to wear platforms on their feet, strange clothes on their body and braids on the their head - just to make themselves noticeable. That's what I have to do. Oh, and I have a loud voice - that makes me the coolest among all the Appendixes in the world.
Now I did it - though I dunno the results I did it anyway. It was really hard yesterday but now I am calm, happy and ready to work, sing, visit concerts, and doing whatever my soul desires....
My music - a compilation of my favs for today:
Nik Page - Dein Kuss
System of a down - Revenga
Punto omega - Punto omega
Tristania - track 9 from beyond the Veil
Eisregen - Wundwasser
Sirenia - First we take manhattan
Dreams of sanity - The creature that you came to see
Icon of coil - Simulated
After forever - Follow in the cry
Therion - dreams of swedenborg
Almost 2 days left till my exam... Fear is growing, and head is already full of knowledge and refuses to accept new one... Woke up first at9, then at 11, then at 12 and felt like im gonna faint... and feel like this at this moment - STUDYING IS EVIL! I wish it is all over and I live a human life...
Here is my Diary. Hello Diary!! It is midnight in Moscow and I am studying to get a good mark for my exam and finally re-enter university - now for filosofy.... It is a toture when you have to learn something in a small period of time and you have no interest in it - you have already finished religions and filosofy itself and now you are left tet-a-tete with logics...