Hey, rp buddies!

The reason I haven't been on is because I'm on a cruise for my grandparent's 50th wedding anniversary. I don't have internet access here but I'll be back Friday!

Sorry for not mentioning this earlier.

Is there anything more delightful than Patrick Stewart narrating Peter and the Wolf?

No.

No there isn't. <3

http://deoxy.org/pkd_how2build.htm

Short link for a long essay. I'm maybe a third of the way through it, I just wanted to bookmark it for now.

There's a shadow waiting for me at the foot of the stairs.
It leans against the stairwell wall with one foot crossed over the other,
arms bundled neatly around its chest.
If I stop and watch carefully
I can see its chest gently rise and fall.
It waits with an infinite patience,
occasionally checking to see how its wristwatch is doing:
the big hand has a while to go before it gets to six thirty
but it'll get there before dinner.

In the shadow's jacket pocket there's a paper
and on that paper is a song
the song that's been in my throat for the past month
but has never made it beyond my lips, battered against walls of teeth
and crumpled like a term paper underneath my brain.
I feel so strongly compelled to burst into song
but the firing mechanism is jammed
the words are locked in their trailer
and the melody is on strike.

So I will wait for the shadow at the bottom of the stair
And the shadow will wait for me
with my song in his pocket
and his hands folded across his chest
dozing off on the stairwell wall
because I know and it knows
that shadows make and break no promises
and when I pass it,
I will claw at its form on the wall.
I will dig my fingers into the plaster
and tear and tear and tear away
until its jacket is stained with the blood from my fingertips.
I will scream and howl and rail at the shadow.
Give me my words! those are my words! that is my song!
And I will crumple and beat my fists and soak my sleeves in snot and tears
because a shadow is where light refuses to go
and nothing more.

I wish my relationships IRL were simpler to define. That would save me a lot of grief, I think.

YOU THERE!
Yes, you!
How are you today?
Anything exciting happen?
Some tragedy I can be swallowed by?
Some joy that can lift me out of me?
Is there something you need?
Some task to distract me from my flaws?
Anything at all--I'm at your service.
Perhaps you'd like your ego polished?
I'll put a spitshine on it, it'll shine so bright
I won't be able to see me in its reflection.
Maybe if I try to fix all of your problems
I'll learn how to magically fix mine.

That sounds like a good idea,
right?
I don't mean to seem desperate.
Maybe I'm coming on a little strong--
Let's start from the beginning.
What's your name?
What are you like when you're alone?
How many little changes would it take
to reconstruct myself as you?
How much would I have to change to make you into me?
Not much, I think.

Then, we can peek at each other from the bottom of our foxholes
And we'll find reasons to hate each other
Almost as much as we pity ourselves.
That sounds like a good idea,
right?

Or maybe I'll just stay here
And you can walk away
And maybe
just maybe
that will be the end of it.

I'm not sure what I keep logging into Elftown for these days. I mean, I've pretty much retracted myself from most of the rp's I used to be in, and I've never really used this site for socialising...the messaging system takes a little too long for me, and I end up going and doing something else.

Well, I AM doing the gladiator challenge, and my piece is in the dark arts competition, so it's nice to check up on those, but...

Might be leaving soon. I mean, I don't really do anything around here anymore anyway. Wouldn't be much difference.

I'll prolly be back, though. Something as addictive as this site, I always come back.

Because I have no self contol. :D

DOOM DOOM DOOM.

Elfwood got an overhaul at some point and is now slightly less godawful. Friends, Favorites, ease of editing Profile, all without having to sneak around behind the website on the extranet? Scrumptious--but still slow.

The upload system is still the ticket method, though...and at the moment is down for restructuring, I guess? On the one hand, it makes sense, but on the other, well...quality control is one thing. Waiting three months on a ticket is another. Here's hoping the new edition won't be quite that long a wait to hear you didn't include enough keywords for the search engine, but maybe we shouldn't aim our ambitions too high...

Not to be too critical of my first art community, but there's a reason I stopped submitting four years ago and joined DeviantArt instead.

I will be in Paris with my AP Art History class for the next week or so. Sorry, Audacious Septet! I know it's annoying to have the rp go so damn slow, but I'll be back soon enough with extra material! :D

I'll take lots of pictures. :)