[Pnelma Tirian]'s diary

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Written about Tuesday 2010-01-12
Written: (5430 days ago)

Meme stolen from [Fireblade K'Chona]!

Ten things I wish I could say to people:
1. If you thought I drew furry porn for five years, what the hell else do you think you know about me?
2. I was lying when I said I projectile vomit when someone tickles me but it got my point across and I don't regret it.
3. I clam up about things when we talk because I know I'm uninformed and you are about a thousand times smarter than I am and I think it's a better use of time just to listen.
4. Honestly you might actually have a chance if you didn't live in bloody North Carolina of all places.
5. You have the most magnificent of mustaches and it brightens my day immeasurably every time I see you.
6. Are you helping me because it's a good challenge for you, or is there some seed of altruism I haven't seen before? Either way I am not complaining.
7. Knowing that I'm a lesbian, do you still not like Queen on the basis that they stood for homosexuality in the 80's?
8. I don't really hate you, but it's good for my art if I angst about you. I genuinely hope you are doing well and please God have moved out of your mother's apartment.
9. You act and look exactly like my ex-boyfriend plus two feet and a tan.
10. You're awfully cute.

Nine things about myself:
1. I secretly want clavicle piercings and long, elaborate sleeve tattoos that tell the fairy tales that our parents censored for us until we misbehaved.
2. I don't like Alan Moore's writing style. He spins one hell of a tale, to be sure, his characters are amazing, yes, and he revolutionized the superhero graphic novel, but his pages are fucking dense. It's like a ten-panel, 500 word minimum per page for him. I don't care if it takes twice as many volumes! Let the pages breathe, please!
3. All I know about my life is I want to draw and get paid for it. Beyond that, I have no idea what I want to do for a living.
4. I love Los Angeles but if I didn't have outgoing friends I would never leave my house.
5. I am a lesbian but my geekiness supercedes that. I still have a huge embarrassing crush on Darth Vader. (although really, any sufficiently evil and delicious villain will do in a pinch. Yum.)
6. I am not a charitable person.
7. I adore opera.
8. I have hitchhiker's thumb, I think. In any case I can bend both my thumbs back to a right angle naturally.
9. I love love love love vintage 50's music. The Ink Spots were my first <3

Eight ways to win my heart:
1. Love God.
2. Have a creative outlet.
3. Pursue your dreams.
4. Make me food.
5. Be a geek/nerd.
6. Be a 501st Stormtrooper.
7. Get me Darth Vader paraphernalia.
8. Draw me fanart!

Seven things that cross my mind a lot:
1. How things could've gone, but didn't
2. Dream theory
3. various songs
4. 'it would be lovely to eat some spaghetti.'
5. I don't know?
6. I don't really pay much attention to what goes on in my head.
7. The next Asylum Labs script, maybe?

Six things I do before I go to sleep:
1. Check the interwebs for things
2. Yawn
3. munch on something
4. use the bathroom
5. vault into bed
6. think

Five places that I want to visit:
1. Moscow
2. Scotland
3. San Fransisco (VISIT, not just drive through!)
4. England
5. New York

Four things I'm wearing right now:
1. big fuzzy blanket
2. TMBG Presidents shirt
3. jeans
4. an alchemy necklace

Three bands/artists I listen to often:
1. Muse
2. Kaizers Orchestra
3. Prokofiev

Two things I want to do before I die:
1. Break a bone
2. Have a solo exhibition

One confession:
1. I have two cars, a 95 Ford Escort and a 69 Chevy Nova.

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Written about Sunday 2009-12-20
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Written about Saturday 2009-12-19
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I just realized. I use 'fucking' in conversation like most people use 'um.'

Maybe I should fuckin' stop swearing so goddam much.

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Written about Monday 2009-12-14
Written: (5460 days ago)
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if my art never infiltrates the popular conscious, if it makes no social changes, if it isn't taught in schools long after my death, is it relevant as art? And am I, in turn, relevant as an artist? Would I be content as a footnote in someone else's story? Is my destiny only to inspire and aid another artist into revolution, into fame and glory? And could I be content with that? If I work all my life as a commercial artist doing children's books and DnD illustrations will that be an acceptable legacy?

How much should I compete with my heroes, with my contemporaries, and with my peers? How much of that battle should be with myself, a struggle to top my every achievement?

Am I even old enough to consider this kind of career nonsense? XD

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Written about Friday 2009-12-11
Written: (5463 days ago)
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songs I have an emotional attachment to:

Solsbury Hill - Peter Gabriel
Don't Give Up - Peter Gabriel
Black Leaf Falls - Sea Wolf
No Surprises - Radiohead
Just (You Do It To Yourself) - Radiohead
Can't You See - Marshall Tucker Band
Midnight Rider - Allman Brothers Band
Boston - Dresden Dolls

This isn't counting a variety of classical music, which will take me to a different place entirely. These are songs that give voice to the way I feel. I'm sure I'm forgetting a few.

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Written about Friday 2009-12-11
Written: (5463 days ago)

I woke up this morning with Solsbury Hill by Peter Gabriel running through my head, and an unsubstantiated rush of self-love. I looked in the mirror and just felt damn gorgeous as I dressed.

I know from life drawing that I love that little tummy pudge on girls. I think it forms this beautiful curving slope that accentuates all the other curves. When I lose weight I'm going to keep that for sure.

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Written about Wednesday 2009-12-02
Written: (5472 days ago)

Sasha Reneau
Critical Analysis and Semiotics
Section K
December 1, 2009


I’ll be honest. I’m an Internet junkie.

At home, the Internet has fizzled out for one reason or another. I’m staying at school so I don’t miss anything if my collaborative stories move at all. In fact the only reason I am writing this essay this early in the evening is to pass the time between forum posts. Ironically, even as a full-time college student, homework takes part-time precedence when it comes to entertainment on the World Wide Web.

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Written about Wednesday 2009-10-14
Written: (5521 days ago)

It occured to me that I don't have a lot of real-life male friends. So I considered the male friends I do have and it made me miss them terribly. I say I want to go to the opera more often; I really mean I miss hanging out with Daniel. I say I want to start getting flying lessons again; I really mean I want to talk to Ben. Funny how attached you can get to people you see every day for four years. I even miss dysfunctional Matt.

I don't like people, but I love these people in particular more than I thought I could.

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Written about Tuesday 2009-09-15
Written: (5549 days ago)
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Hey, rp buddies!

The reason I haven't been on is because I'm on a cruise for my grandparent's 50th wedding anniversary. I don't have internet access here but I'll be back Friday!

Sorry for not mentioning this earlier.

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