hey people whats up well um ive stopped writing poetry so dont look in my diary for any new poetry.....

            "falling apart"
suicidal tendesies running through my head
because everything else just feels dead
ive faded away to fall for this
knowing nothing else is bliss
im falling apart im breaking away
letting everthing else go astray
my mind has slipped my mind has rotted
knowing my heart is blackly spotted
im dieing inside cuz u told me no
take heart and make it something you know
im crying im bleeding
im falling im needing
im falling apart
with my broken heart

               "show me"
fuck me love me show me you care
touch me hold me if you dare
show me im loved show me im willing
show me that your worth the killing
hurt me cut me show me im dead
show me im empty and filled with dread
kiss me hug me make me feel wanted
dont leave me alone to feel haunted
make me bleed make me cry
show me what its like to die

            "my love"
my love for you is o so strong
i now know nothing is wrong
ur tender care ur tasteful lips.
just holding u my mind slips
your eyes are pure
your words are my cure.
ive spent my life looking for you.
now i hold u my dreams are now true
i lived my life bottled inside
leaving it all just wanting to hide
but then i found u i knew it was love
seeing you walk as gracious as a dove
now i can say that u are mine
and now everything will be just fine

            "your deepest desire"
im your god im your pain
im the one that makes u feel slain
im your torment im your desire
i am the one that set ur emotions on fire
i am your sin i am your blasphemy
im the one that set ur hatred free
im your love im your blood
let me flow through your mind like a flood
im your innocent im your guilt
im the one that tore down what u built

             "perfection"
stunned to perfection with a painful sore.
just slit ur wrists and say no more
uve left here with your blasphemy to here
leaving me alone to dwell in my fear
im sry u heard this im sry i failed
but its as though to the cross ive been nailed
crusified to make u happy insulted to here you laugh.
letting u love it on my behalf
ive sinned for you ive sinned for you all
ive sinned for this so i could take my fall.

               "this cocaine"
this addiction i can no longer stand
no matter what stake is at hand
slide the blade down my wrists
make it feel good make me feel bliss
u cover my face with your painful stance
calling for this to be your last dance
let me put the broken pieces back together please.
im begging u please im down on my knees.
u make me love you u make me hate
u make u fall down spite of my fate.
im blinded by your love im blinded by ur hate
i loth it how u put me in this mind altering state.
so put me in my place and show me im fine
or no longer will peace be mine.

"my sorrow"

if i loved u on a night like this

would u consider everyone bliss

would u consider that i am just broken

left here to play without a token

battered and blistered

left here to be festered

as u fill your sorrow with all of my hate

knowing that soon we shall meet r fate

ive been told that i am nothing ive been told that i will fall.

but i know that u wouldnt care at all.

u took things away u made me livid

knowing my pain has only been drivid

im sry i hurt u im sry u fell

but i still love from what i can tell

im sry for things i never meant

knowing to myself my world is bent

i wanted to live i wanted to cry

i wanted to fall over and just plain die

i lost you for good i lost you forever

now it is something i have to indever

if i had the chance to let u be mine

i know to my self i would be just fine.

              "my unloved"
my sin will be remembered only in vein
remembering all of those i have slain
ive caused some to bleed of caused many to cry
knowing that many wish i would fall over and die
its hard to stop its hard to hear
knowing im loving it everytime your near
you tell me you love me you whisper to lie
you tell me to do it or else you will die
i love you i scream ill do as you please
i beg of you dont leave im thrown to my knees
ill kill for you ill kill again
ill let everyone feel this heavenly sin
ill show u all that my love for this is tragic
knowing her words are nothing but magic
as another body falls to the floor
i cry for you but you say no more

             "without you here"
cant you all tell this is turning black
knowing to myself i cant turn back
im falling apart im fading away
knowing that my life is about to be let stray
ive been beaten and tattered
ive been hollowed and shattered
with only a memory to hold of your face
missing every bit of your humble imbrace
come back to me im scared to be alone
dont leave me here to rot like a drone
you left me alone those many years ago and still im left with out you here.
knowing that insanity is deathly near.

              "my termoil"
LOCKED INSIDE A FOREVER NIGHTMARE

IF I DIED WOULD U CARE

U SAY YOU LOVE ME AND YOU SAY YOU MEAN IT

BUT DO YOU EVEN A LITTLE BIT

TELL ME YOU LOVE ME AND TELL ME ITS TRUE

OR DO YOU WANT ALL THIS TO BE THROUGH

SHOW ME YOUR LOVE DONT JOIN WITH THE CROWD

DONT LEAVE ME IN THIS DEATHLY SHROWD

IM COLD AND IM BROKEN CUZ I FEAR THAT YOU DONT LOVE ME

IF U DO THEN MAKE IT SHOW MAKE IT SO THAT I CAN SEE.
          "ONE MORE DAY"

SO YOU SAY THERES NOTHING LEFT FOR ME

MAYBE IM BLIND IS IT SOMETHING I CANT SEE

SHOULD I WAIT HERE AND DIE ALONE

OR LIVE MY LIFE LIKE A MINDLESS DRONE

BROKEN INTO PIECES BUT NOONE BOTHERED TO PICK ME UP

WHEN I SAID WORDS I DIDNT MEAN NO ONE SAID SHUT UP

SO WHY MUST I STAY AND BE A BOTHER

AND SIT AND HURT ANOTHER

SO AS THE BLOOD DRIPS TO THE FLOOR

YOU FINALLY CALL TO TELL ME YOU LOVE ME AND MORE

ITS TO LATE I WHISPER IN PAIN AS I SLOWLY SLIP AWAY

YOU CRY AND YOU CRY WISHING YOU HADNT WAITED ONE MORE DAY

              "THIS CALICE"
MY PURE RED PAIN
HAS LEFT ME SLAIN
IN A WORLD MORE TAINTED
THEN ANYONE COULD OF PAINTED
TO FALL BACK ON WHAT I FEEL
WISHING NONE OF THIS COULD BE REAL
IM DYING INSIDE WITH OUT YOUR LOVE
MORE GRACIOUS THEN THIS MOMENT AS THOUGH OF A DOVE.
BROKEN IN PIECES AS YOU LEFT ME SHATTERED
WHILE LEAVING MY HEART COLD AND TATTERED
SLOWLY MY EMOTIONS RAISES TO ALL.
KNOWING ITS TRUE THAT I WILL TAKE MY FALL.
TORTURING ME LIKE A PAINFUL CALICE
PAINFUL AND BEATIN CUZ EVERTHINGS MALICE.
IM FALLING THROUGH THIS IM SLOWLY FALLING DOWN.
BREAKING AND HURTING AS I HIT THE GROUND

             "my addiction"
your so damn hypocritical
and yet so typical
you showed me your love with a shot of this heroine
pulling the hatred deep from within
to me your like a drug ill never forget
as i sit here pondering loosing my wit
im bleeding inside and falling apart
show me your love show me your heart
these drugs dont do a thing the cuts dont heal my pain
because at this moment i still feel slain
beaten and tattered from this fight called life.
loosing it all while everythings strife.

  "INSIDE THIS DRUG"

CRAWL IN A HOLE CRAWL IN A DITCH

STOP YOUR WHINNIN DONT BE A BITCH

YOUR FACE IS DIABOLIC YOURE WORDS ARE MALICE

TO ME YOU FEEL LIKE A PAINFUL CALICE

SLIP THE POISON IN YOUR DRINK

STOP YOURSELF SO YOU WONT THINK

YOU'D CUTOFF YOUR NOSE TO SPITE YOURE FACE

AND TO MAKE YOURSELF EVEN MORE OF A DISGRACE.

SO QUIT BEING A KID AND START BEING A MAN

BECAUSE YOUR BITCHING IS WHAT I CANT STAND

  "FOR ME"

SCREAM FOR ME CRY FOR ME

GOD IT WOULD BE SOMETHING TO SEE

BLEED FOR THIS HATE FOR THIS

SHOW ME EVERYTHINGS NOT BLISS

BEG FOR ME PRAY TO HIM

YOUR PAIN IT TENDS TO MY EVERY WHIM

SHOW ME YOUR GOD SHOW ME YOUR LOVE

RIP THE WINGS OFF A DOVE

STAIN YOUR HEART WITH SIN

TAKE IT FROM WITH IN

SHOW ME HOW THE ANGELS CRY

IF YOU COULD WOULD YOU LET ONE DIE

SHOW ME YOUR LOVE SHOW ME YOUR PAIN

GOD THAT SIN LEFT A STAIN

SUFFOCATE YOUR REALITY

AND IGNORE YOURE MORALITY

SHUT IT OUT TAKE IT ALL

WATCHING AS YOU TAKE YOUR FALL.