strange things that now make me cry:
Founders Day cathedral service
standing on train stations
17th July
being given wellies for my birthday
having one piece of random confetti in my hair
seeing a random scarecrow in a field
going to Hamleys
the idea of going and seeing people
the final of Shipwrecked

oh my gosh what is wrong with me?

why is there no-one there when you need someone...

"i want him back" does not mean the same as "where do i go to uni"

http://www.cnn.com/2008/WORLD/europe/07/15/belgium.government.ap/index.html

oops...

it's coming back...it's taking over...and i can't stop it...i'm scared...

race is on...gotta lose 5 pounds faster than my friend...how shall i do this? other than that things are good-ish =)

sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo i put on 2 1/2 pounds on on Wednesday alone...and my weight is still going up...what the heck I'm walking everywhere and not eating so much...what's going on =(

other than that it'll be a year on Thursday and as it gets closer it hurts so much more...

my father: "now you're 18 you can bugger off and get married without our permissions"
me: "i'm alright thanks"
my father: "damnit"

that's the most serious conversation i've had with my dad in weeks...what the hell does he think of me?!

24 hours, 21 minutes until I'm 18 =) really rather excited now...especially as I know my parents have started hiding my post =P they're highly subtle about it *rolls eyes* yaye!

I have a floor in my bedroom...oh my gosh where has it been for the past year or so?!

grrrrrrrrr lost a month's worth of diary waffle =( I've spent 4 out of 7 days with children this week and it's been fantastic...I wish I had a bigger family or at least one with a few younger children =) The family I stayed with at the start of the week were lovely. It's been ages since I've seen them and it was so nice just to chat like we'd never been apart. Still don't think I want my own children though...if you need a babysitter I'll be more than happy to help =) Picnic on Wednesday was such fun also =) In the rain under an uber cool shelter =)

cried a lot at Doctor Who last night...dad thought this was hilarious...I'm just getting annoyed at all the little things making me cry =(

on the other hand I'm now cleaning my room due to two friends staying on Tuesday night...I could be mean and make one sleep on the floor but I'm too nice therefore my room is being cleaned thoroughly =) So much dust though! Lots of sneezing =( Aren't I nice? =P

Cannot wait for this week...cinema Monday, out Tuesday evening, Belgium on Wednesday, driving on Thursday, Founders Day(or maybe London) on Friday =) Going to bed at 1am-2am, getting up at 8am...summer's properly started =)

A review of the Odyssey on the bookdepository...
"The Odyssey in 24 words:
Mediterranean cruise with divine beauties and blind shepherds, swine and swingers, Scylla and Charybdis and Hades minitour. With wife at home taking double turns."

ahahahahahahaha

so i was a bit bored earlier and so was floating around the internet and happened to find out that i actually share my birthday with the baby on the Nirvana album Nevermind, Spencer Elden, ahahahahahaha and even cooler i'm a year older than him heehee =P yeah enough of the random nonsense for the day =)

why does it always happen to be when i'm the only one in that random relatives drop by? goodness sake...i was enjoying my sleep on the sofa! =P

ok...crowded cinema...what are the odds of knowing people there? minimal...the odds of sitting next to these people that you know(bear in mind you haven't gone with them)...even smaller...so why the heck was I sitting next to Erin and Ollie this evening at the cinema...oh dearie me...

whatttttttttttttttttttttt? sex toy adverts on tv?! seriously help...i did not want to see that advert...

strangest conversation of the day:

small child: look mummy! these are my knickers!
small child's mother: why are your knickers not on you?! you know you should be wearing them!

then i walked too far to hear the rest and to be honest why they were having this loud discussion in their back garden with is next to the pavement that goes up my road i do not know...

oh my gosh i've never been so nervous about an exam...it was worse than even the first GCSE exam we did...i've never felt so ill...ok really i'm still ill so maybe it wasn't enitrely nerves but still...eurgh i'm fed up of having a rubbish immune system in SUMMER! grrrrr

i don't understand why when i'm desperately trying to catch up on sleep on the sofa my dad needs to come in and turn the tv on...then turn it up quite a bit to watch a shiity Simpsons repeat...then complain that it's a repeat...why can't he let me sleep? it's now or in the class civ exam and really i'd prefer it to be now...GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRr

grrrr ill again...stupid cough, headache and dizziness...my mum's suggestion was "sleep"...how the heck do you sleep when you have an exam tomorrow and you don't feel at all ready and know you won't be able to do for feeling so rubbish? bleh...if i'm still ill next week i'm gonna be really annoyed...hmmmmmmmm

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm to stop revising chemistry and fail it for a third time, knowing i'm 3 marks off a decent grade or to not learn classics to start with and never have a chance to resit it and show the unis how useless i am at the subject i want to study..hmmmmmmmmmmmmm

NOTE TO SELF: remember to take a calculator on Wednesday or you'll fail for sure...

i'm not going to get annoyed...i'm not going to get angry...i'm going to remain patient and calm and not react...hmmm

eurgh...as much as i love my friend Leanne she came to visit the other day with a dreadful chest infection/cough thing...ok it's probably worse because she smokes but she was going to cancel then thought "ah becca won't mind if i'm ill" so guess what...now i have a stupid cough and sore throat...grrrrrrrrr back to being ill again...