home again. going to portsmouth tomorrow to see some friends and i'm really rather excited =) then thursday i'm off to see Les Mis with my mother, friday i'm having a driving lesson(pass plus), and the saturday after i'm going iceskating =) i need to see my friends before i they all go to uni as well...i'm quite sad and shall miss them incredibly muchly but i'm really hoping we'll stay in touch =)

off on camp for a week, looking forward to it as it'll give me a chance to sort myself out =) if anyone feels they need me and has my number text me =P

*waves goodbye to life* i have nothing...i passed my alevels...but have nowhere near decent grades, no uni places and no-one knows what to suggest...oh and a friend who got on a course i'd die for...

congrats to all those who did well though =)

i've never felt so sick with fear...eurgh...

make that 2 family members in hospital...my nana and her brother-in-law...only one problem now...he's incredibly ill and in Cornwall, too far away really for us to visit...oh and my nana doesn't know about this...it's crap...why the fuck is it happening to me? why summertime again? i hate it

she's still in hospital, probably won't be out until monday...they keep trying different drugs to see if it helps and if not they'll shock her...yes that does literally mean electric shock her...oh fantastic...i drove all the way up to se her by myself yesterday...it made her so happy =) she introduced me to every professional-ish person that appeared on the ward =) just got to pray it all works out and she gets as better as she can get =)

so my nana's in hospital again...totally out of the blue...my grandad phoned me and asked, to speak to mum saying it's not urgent...she rings back 3 hours later to find out my nana's in hospital...she's meant to be going on holiday with my mum on Friday...i know i'm probably blowing this out of proportion but i'm so scared again...

14 minors...but who cares =P *does happy dance*

Tuesday- tipsy (kir...wine+peach stuff)
Wednesday- sober
Thursday- a bit too tipsy...(blackcurrant kir and vodka and lemonade)
Friday- rather tipsy...(blackcurrant kir...drank a bit too quickly)

uh-oh...no more alcohol for me for a while...oh dearie...i'm such a flipping lightweight...

strange things that now make me cry:
Founders Day cathedral service
standing on train stations
17th July
being given wellies for my birthday
having one piece of random confetti in my hair
seeing a random scarecrow in a field
going to Hamleys
the idea of going and seeing people
the final of Shipwrecked

oh my gosh what is wrong with me?

why is there no-one there when you need someone...

"i want him back" does not mean the same as "where do i go to uni"

http://www.cnn.com/2008/WORLD/europe/07/15/belgium.government.ap/index.html

oops...

it's coming back...it's taking over...and i can't stop it...i'm scared...

race is on...gotta lose 5 pounds faster than my friend...how shall i do this? other than that things are good-ish =)

sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo i put on 2 1/2 pounds on on Wednesday alone...and my weight is still going up...what the heck I'm walking everywhere and not eating so much...what's going on =(

other than that it'll be a year on Thursday and as it gets closer it hurts so much more...

my father: "now you're 18 you can bugger off and get married without our permissions"
me: "i'm alright thanks"
my father: "damnit"

that's the most serious conversation i've had with my dad in weeks...what the hell does he think of me?!

24 hours, 21 minutes until I'm 18 =) really rather excited now...especially as I know my parents have started hiding my post =P they're highly subtle about it *rolls eyes* yaye!

I have a floor in my bedroom...oh my gosh where has it been for the past year or so?!

grrrrrrrrr lost a month's worth of diary waffle =( I've spent 4 out of 7 days with children this week and it's been fantastic...I wish I had a bigger family or at least one with a few younger children =) The family I stayed with at the start of the week were lovely. It's been ages since I've seen them and it was so nice just to chat like we'd never been apart. Still don't think I want my own children though...if you need a babysitter I'll be more than happy to help =) Picnic on Wednesday was such fun also =) In the rain under an uber cool shelter =)

cried a lot at Doctor Who last night...dad thought this was hilarious...I'm just getting annoyed at all the little things making me cry =(

on the other hand I'm now cleaning my room due to two friends staying on Tuesday night...I could be mean and make one sleep on the floor but I'm too nice therefore my room is being cleaned thoroughly =) So much dust though! Lots of sneezing =( Aren't I nice? =P

Cannot wait for this week...cinema Monday, out Tuesday evening, Belgium on Wednesday, driving on Thursday, Founders Day(or maybe London) on Friday =) Going to bed at 1am-2am, getting up at 8am...summer's properly started =)

A review of the Odyssey on the bookdepository...
"The Odyssey in 24 words:
Mediterranean cruise with divine beauties and blind shepherds, swine and swingers, Scylla and Charybdis and Hades minitour. With wife at home taking double turns."

ahahahahahahaha