ok i know i've made myself a reject...i've done the things that mean i act the way stated below...i have no answer for why i did those things...but i'm just so worried...what will people think?

ps...if you don't know the things i've done then you don't need to/wait until you hear the gossip...it's already being spread around(it's nothing too awful to everyone else but to me it is...)

i'm sure i'm some reject or something...i get intimidated by emails...i refuse to swim...i'm scared of going to a friends house...i'm a freak...seriously

so my dad has just come back from Belgium...and bought me a mahusive bag of chocolate buttons...as if i'm not obese enough already...

i'm not worth talking to anymore...

rawr...sundays are boring...they shouldn't be...but they are

so i saw POTC3 tonight...awesomeness...but i was all by myself because my mother was too scared to watch it with me...but now it's made me all morose again...i want someone to take to the cinema once in a while...

urgh english exams are hard to judge whether they went well or not...

today's question: do i go or not?

english exam in 2 hours...kill me? or do it for me?

i really need to get over this don't i? *screams*

so yeah...my nana came home last night...they couldn't find anything wrong with her...which is good...i'm so rry for being such a depressed and moany cow on here for the last few days...exams are stupid and are driving me crazy...sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy xxx

there is actually nowhere online where i can find happiness anymore...

*more screaming* quotes Goo Goo Dolls "why won't you listen?"

*screams* i hate this life...kill me

why do the emails hurt me so much?

so i went to see my nana today...she's alright...she didn't shut up which means she's fine...don't know what was wrong with her either...she's taking 9 pills each morning and evening though...it's worrying...but at least i know she's better...i'd like to thank the people that were worried about me being so worried...so thank you: no-one...yup that's right no-one cared...actually i'm not surprised no-one ever bothers with the temporarily depressed person who can snap out of bad moods easily

so she's not coming home tonight as we were told...there was no-one to do one test she needs before she can be discharged...so now she'll be there til monday at least...i hate this...my grandad must feel terrible all by himself...i'm so scared

so yeah...i just found out my nana went into hospital on wednesday...as if this week couldn't get worse...and you think you have problems...

some small person tried to strangle me with my necklace last night...i wish she had

so there i was reading through some old diary notes of people and realised how useless i am...i'm never in the right place at the right time, always the wrong place at the wrong time...i can't ever seem to get anything right...i messed up the easiest part of my classics exa,...i have to go into school so i actually revise...i can't keep my friends long enough without arguing with them over something pathetic...i miss too many people...i miss the way it was this time last year...i live in the past way too much...i should live for today...i can't even see myself living tomorrow let alone going to uni...i can't stand the fact i'm completely emotionless at the moment...i can't cry...i can't scream...i can't smile...i can't laugh...i'm dead...and if i'm not dead it's how i'd like to be right now...and not one person will read this

*sings* I'm dreaming of some Greek temples, Just like the ones in the exam

yes that song is going around in my head...yes i have been dreaming about temples for the last three hours...argh whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy????????????????????

there's days you wish you knew what was going on and why things were happening...