...and that's why...i give up with life...seriously

i've screwed up again...

so i went shopping today...met up with two people from camp...was planning o na nice day getting away from all the couples...i forgot the two people i met up with are going out...so i spent over an hour watching clouds while they attached themselves...apparently i'm destined to be the single one...who everyone assumes doesn't care that everyone else is all over their other halves...well i do care...i hate it...i'm flipping lonely...it's rubbish standing alone while everyone else is together...it makes you feel worthless...like there's something wrong...like you're a reject...have some consideration once in a while yeah?

i've ruined everything...just by saying how i felt...it's better for you to ignore me completely

ok i know i've made myself a reject...i've done the things that mean i act the way stated below...i have no answer for why i did those things...but i'm just so worried...what will people think?

ps...if you don't know the things i've done then you don't need to/wait until you hear the gossip...it's already being spread around(it's nothing too awful to everyone else but to me it is...)

i'm sure i'm some reject or something...i get intimidated by emails...i refuse to swim...i'm scared of going to a friends house...i'm a freak...seriously

so my dad has just come back from Belgium...and bought me a mahusive bag of chocolate buttons...as if i'm not obese enough already...

i'm not worth talking to anymore...

rawr...sundays are boring...they shouldn't be...but they are

so i saw POTC3 tonight...awesomeness...but i was all by myself because my mother was too scared to watch it with me...but now it's made me all morose again...i want someone to take to the cinema once in a while...

urgh english exams are hard to judge whether they went well or not...

today's question: do i go or not?

english exam in 2 hours...kill me? or do it for me?

i really need to get over this don't i? *screams*

so yeah...my nana came home last night...they couldn't find anything wrong with her...which is good...i'm so rry for being such a depressed and moany cow on here for the last few days...exams are stupid and are driving me crazy...sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy xxx

there is actually nowhere online where i can find happiness anymore...

*more screaming* quotes Goo Goo Dolls "why won't you listen?"

*screams* i hate this life...kill me

why do the emails hurt me so much?

so i went to see my nana today...she's alright...she didn't shut up which means she's fine...don't know what was wrong with her either...she's taking 9 pills each morning and evening though...it's worrying...but at least i know she's better...i'd like to thank the people that were worried about me being so worried...so thank you: no-one...yup that's right no-one cared...actually i'm not surprised no-one ever bothers with the temporarily depressed person who can snap out of bad moods easily

so she's not coming home tonight as we were told...there was no-one to do one test she needs before she can be discharged...so now she'll be there til monday at least...i hate this...my grandad must feel terrible all by himself...i'm so scared

so yeah...i just found out my nana went into hospital on wednesday...as if this week couldn't get worse...and you think you have problems...