ok the other night i got a phone call from my ex (johnnie) i was so happy to just to hear his voice. we haddn't had a conversation without ending it with ( fuck you, go fuck your self, bitch, asshole ect.) some harsh words instead of a normal bye and a hang up on each other in a while, matter of fact we hadn't talked in over a month. Then he called me and was all like i miss you. When are you coming back. And truth be told i love him too and its driving me crazy not seeing him but i can't see him i live 1200 miles away and can't visit. he's treating to come kidnap me. That would rock. I know i know " fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me" but i still like him alot and want to see him alot. should i let this stop me from seeing someone that i one time i would have married and actually we were planning to marry and already had names pick for kids in the future? i don't know what i'm going to do but i have to figure it out fast. i love him but i know if i should let him know that i really never got over him. i remember so much about when he and i were together and it drives me crazy knowing that it could be forever before i see him agian. i wish that i could move back to texas to be with him hell his grandma even wishes i was there ( i kept him in line and even came over and helped her clean). i wanna go back but life won't permit. what should i do? what will i do?