Peter makes me soooooo giddy. Just saying hi to him makes my day and makes me feel all jello-ey in the legs. He's so cute! He's so funny! He reminds me of Kelso from That 70's Show. Accept he's a lot louder

2005 Christmas wish list:
Blue mascara
Green mascara
Pink mascara
Green eyeliner
Hot pink eyeliner
Video camera
IPod
MP3 Player
A colourful scarf
Colourful mittens
Platform boots
Hooker boots
Billy Talent CD
Hemp neckalce
Leather jacket
Green hoodie(vibrant or dark)

I shouldn't want

You make me smile
Even when we're just talking
When i know that I've made you laugh
Makes me feel like I'm the only one
Your only one
Though I am not
I am not even the one
I'm not even one
I'm just your friend
I will always be just your friend
And it sleighs me
It kills me inside
I want you to think about me
At least once a day
I want you to not care
How bad i look in the morning
It will never happen
I can't move on
Even after all this time
I want you
But i shouldn't want
Anything i can't get

OMG! I LOVE MYSELF RIGHT NOW! NO ONE RUIN IT FOR ME!

i feel bad. i hate feeling bad. i hate how you made me feel bad! damn you Christina! i want to make it up to you. but i don't. i still feel bad though.

hey everyone. i believe i have some good news for anyone who cares about anything. cheese is good. i like the cheese. OMG! curly fries are sooooooo good! i think everyone in the world should be aloud to taste what i ate for the past two days. they're ORGASMICAL! well...i haven't...um...nevermind. science is such a class for the immature. rubbing wool on plastic strips is EXACTLY like giving a hand job. i bet half the girls have only seen thier parents or siblings dicks and half the girls haven't even KISSED a guy. how the hell would they know? porn does not exlpain enough for them to be able to use that as a reason for knowing what it looks like. Jebus!
bloob
i'm rather bored. and i'm sore all over...damn those stupid people!

http://www.wimp.com/lights/

I was sitting on a bus today listening to the buses annoying yet comforting noise, when I felt a pang of unhappiness. Then I got to thinking. every minuet of unhappiness is a minuet of happiness you will never get back, then, another, and another. Soon, you will have half a life of happiness. That is sad. Don't be sad. If you are, get a happy stick and get someone to hit you with it.

oooooh. yesterday i saw a special screening of, 'just friends.' it was really good. ryan reynolds is HOT!

party was pretty good i guess. i feel all annoyed that i'm treated like i'm the little sister of someone and i can't be touched at all. i am the little sister. but does that mean people can't hug me? jeese luise! :D lol. oh well. andrew was amusing me soooo much. he was soooooo out of it! and he was eating all the cake. it was hilarous. ok, ok. i guess you can say i had fun. but honestly. i did not enjoy getting water poured all over me by my sisters boyfriend. and i did not enjoy the fact that i got all pissed off and i couldn't be all cheery either. oh well. i'm going to see harry potter today :D!!!! but...i might also not go. it is a tricky situation. well...no. but whatever.

but i have no reason (that has to do with a guy) to be giddy today

going to party today :D

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My death should not haunt you
You should not cry for me
I can't hear it
I can't appreciate it
Try to think about,
The fact that I,
Don't have to bury you
Or see you die and suffer
See others die and suffer
As we slowly destroy
The earth that was gifted to us
I won't see it in ruins
I won't watch as people die
From lack of oxygen
Or from nuclear spillage
Or from war
Do not cry for me
Cry for all those
Who are suffering
Knowing they are Going
To die an unnatural death
Do something about it
I was thirteen when I died
That is more than other people
Do not cry for me
Prevent future tears

i am awfully giddy....tood tood!!! i'm bored though. and pissed off at several people, for legidament reasons. i can't believe my sister is turning 16 in two days. i'm still used to her going into high school for the first time and everyone was all exited about going to a different school. well no, not really. i just feel like she should be turning fifteen not sixteen. mostly because i want to go back to grade 8. that was awsome fun. now i'm back to being bored. and angry a little. stupid posers. stupid people who don't stop complaining about how poserish they are and how they're horribly rude to other people and how much they care about how the hit guy they just met at school isn't always saying to them. i don't care. you shouldn't care. obviously he doesn't care. and vice versa for the guys. but honetly. you people are driving me insane. i just want to yell at you. sadly, half of you are probably my friends. but you know what. i'm giddy. so i will continue to act giddy and every so often get this wierd feeling that just makes me smile my face off. and to all those people who think that they're cool because they're dateing, you're just the same as us single people. sure, you can advertise that you have a boyfriend or girlfriend and say that they make you happy, but don't write, 'if you mess with her/him you'll have to deal with me.' what the hell? what are you going to do to that person? report them and say that they're harassing your opposite? hahaha. firstly, you have a right to ask them to stop if they say something that may be implied as coming between the relationship, but if they jsut say hi, and stuff like, i like your hair/eyes/face etc. than they're probably just trying to have a conversation. i do it all the time. i don't mean it in a flirty way whatsoever. too bad you take it that way though.
anyways. i don't want to rant all day, for your death is nearing with BIG TEETH!!!! i fart in your general direction, and your mother was a hamster and your father smelled of elder barries. oh my god. i want to watch that movie again.

i was giddy all week. starting on wednesday. i spoke to this guy that goes to my school on the bus...mind you this guy was sooo cute and rather well known in the school. anyways. i don't havea crush on him or anything. i don't know him enough to. back to my story :D. and he works in this store that is on the same street as my building. and we got off at the same spot and we ended up walking together until i came to my building. and then the next day he said all perkily, "Hi Barbara!" but for some reason, the more i think about it, the more it seems like it didn't happen, it's wierd. but that's ok.

i laugh at your...smelliness?

i don't think so

halloween does not sock my socks

the party was rather fun. :D...it wasn't very fair that i was the youngest there and no one thought i should be doing some of the things that they were doing, but i don't exactly think my first actual kiss (with...um...tongue) should be in a game of spin the bottle. i mean, my first normal kiss was in a game of spin the bottle and i regret that...anyways, it was really fun though :D accept that awkward depressing conversation