The third time in less than 24 hours that I've cried... Something is tearing me apart.
Why am I crying?
It's petty and stupid.
SO FUCKING STUPID.
All out of proportion.
So why are the tears falling?
Why am I shuddering?
Gasping for breath?
Why are my hands shaking?
Why do I want to hurt something?
Someone?
Me?
Maybe I've been wrong all along and my emotions have been lying to me... I become less and less convinced every day.
Hey Princess - Fear Of Music
Hey Princess
Hey Sweetness
Don't you know all the ways that I need you?
Hey good looker
Hey smooth talker
Every inch of me says you are not for real
And it feels so cold
And it feels so sweet
And it feels like everything
I know I shouldn't be
And
Everything you say to me seems meaningless
'Cause it's nothing much at all
And everything we've said and done now up to this
Is cold to the fucking bone.
I found this on a members page... I just thought it was so right and had so much meaning.
This is actually a pretty decent survey. It asks questions that haven't been asked a thousand times over. It asks questions that aren't obviously from a kid's point of view (in the last month, ever been caught sneakin out?)... Funky xD
Part 1: The Birth of You
Were you a planned baby?: No :(
Were you the first?: Yeah :P
Who was present at your birth?: My dad. And nurses/midwive
Were your parents married when you were born?: Yep
What is your birthdate? Sunday 6 May 1990
Part 2: The Family
Are you parents married or divorced? Married. It's been strained at times though
An only child?: Hah. I wish.
If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest? Oldest.
What are your sibling's names?: Sophia and Olivia Elizabeth
Which parent do you get along with best?: I get on well with both of them, but my mum :)
What do you fight about? School. My future. My sisters. My social life.
Do you have step parents?: Nope.
Part 3: The Friends
Do you have more than one best friend? No. Steph's my one and only. [trixie]
What do you like to do when you are together? A fair few things... It depends what mood we're in.
Do you share the same interests?: Yeah ;) But I don't share her fancy of gay lads.
Which friend can you tell anything to?: Steph.
Part 4: Your Personality
How high/low is your self esteem?: Urgh... Low.
Do you get depressed about things easily?: That depends...
Are you an extrovert (outgoing) or an introvert (reserved)?: Introvert.
Are you happy?: sometimes...
Do you live life to the fullest?: I wish I could
Part 5: Appearance
Are you comfortable with the way you look? Not really...
Describe your hair? Brown, idiotically long, really dry, split ends...
How do you dress? Comfortably. Jeans mostly.
Part 6: The Past
Were you a strange child?: Yeah.
What did you used to love that you no longer do? Horse-Bike Riding. 'Running Away'. Picnics.
Do you have the same friends?: Some of them. But some I'll never have again...
Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing? Hmmm... Probably.
Part 7: The Future
What is your ambition?: University. Well paid job.
Are you scared of growing old?: I hate growing older. The past 10 years have destroyed me.
Do you want to get married?: If it's a rich guy about to die...
Part 8: The Outdoors
Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?: That definately depends...
Favorite Season: Spring/Summer.
Do you like walking in the rain?: In the right kind of rain...
Part 9: Food
Are you a vegetarian?: Nada.
What is your favorite food?: Oooh... Uhhh... Chocolate <3
What food makes you want to gag? Oysters. Urgh.
What is your favorite dessert? Chocolate.
What is your favorite restaurant?: Hmmm... That Spainish one with the nice Paella.
Are you a fussy eater? Hah. No way xD
Part 10: Relationships and Love
Are you single or taken?: Taken.
If taken who is the lucky guy/girl?: Jamie
Do you think love is the best feeling in the world?: It feels like it...
Do you believe in love at first sight?: Hmm... Hard to say...
Part 11: Experiences
What was one of your greatest experiences?: Umm... Hard. Either Caving at High Borrans or White Water Rafting in Austria.
What was one of the worst? Only a few know...
Have you ever done drugs? Not really... Just caffeine. Nicotine. Alcohol.
Have you ever thought you were going to die?: I have been in so much pain only once.
Interesting... Understand better now?
STEPH'S JOINING!
She'll be [trixie] if/when she's accepted ^_^
Yay!!
Fantastic party.
OMG. You man whore Edward!!
So much fun. I loved it...
My mum: "Two bird with one stone..."
Geee, thanks >.<
1) Where was your last hug?
At School :)
2) What color bra are you wearing now?
A "Flesh" Coloured one supposedly...
3) What are you listening to right now?
A Town Called Malice - The Jame
4) What's your favorite number?
5, 10, 15...
5) What was the last thing you ate?
An apple
6) When was the last time you smiled?
A few minutes ago...
7) How is the weather right now?
Cold. Dark. Wet.
8) Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Steph. A few minutes ago xD
9) Do you smoke?
Given Up!!
10) When was the last time, if ever, you blacked out?
That would be the night before my first maths exam when I was drunk...
11) Any Children?
Urgh. No way. Kids smell.
12) Your hair color?
I'm a brunette
13) Eye color?
Blue. With an ickle bit of green
14) Favorite Holiday?
Austria. Fantastic fun! Spain's second though...
15) Favorite Month?
May + September + October + December = <3
16) Have you ever cried for no reason?
I think so...
17) Last movie you watched?
Bring It On. Urgh.
BILLY ELLIOT NEXT!!!
18) Favorite Day of the Year?
6th May <3
19) What kind of mood are you in?
A "prance-about-
20) Last advice you received?
"Don't give it all up." - Steph
21) What was the highlight of your weekend?
Time spent with certain people. <3
22) How late have you ever stayed out?
Hahahahaha. Too late.
23) Chocolate or Vanilla?
Chocolate
24) Who sent you your last IM?
[sequeena_rae]
25) Who did you send your last IM to?
[sequeena_rae]
26) Who was the last person to call you?
Steph
27) Who was the last person's bed you slept in (not yours)?
It belonged to Franki.
28) Do you love yourself?
Not much...
29) Favorite baseball team?
Huh? No thanks.
30) What were you doing before this?
Prancing around the room like an idiot...
31) Favorite Drink?
Coffee. Mocha. Chocolate.
32) Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
Salted!! <3
33) Dogs or cats?
Cats xD
34) Favorite flower?
Red roses. Dark red. Or white ones...
35) When was the last time you got into trouble?
Today.
36) What did you do?
Drinking coffee in the library. Big no no xD
37) Who would you like to see this weekend?
I can think of a few people...
38) Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
Yeah <3
39) Have you ever fired a gun?
Nope.
40) Do you like to travel by plane?
Hmmm... It's OK... I prefer ships though.
41) What websites do you go to frequently, besides elftown?
Besides ET? Uuuh... DA? MySpace? That's it xD
42) What are you going to do this weekend?
PARTAAAAAAAAY!
43) Do you have a crush//love someone?
Yeah ;) <3
44) Are you missing someone?
Yep :( <3
45) What do you think of the person who did this before you?
Uhhh...
46) Do you regret anything at this moment?
Few things...
47) What is it?
Not telling.
48) Who do you love?
Jamie <3 And Steph <3
49) who do you hate?
Chavs.
50) Why?
They smell funny.
51) Do you know everyone on your friends list?
Uuuh... I have addresses and things... Where the fook is the postcard? xD
52) Do you trust everyone on your friends list?
No way xD Sorry :P
How many times has someone chanted this today? Too many ¬.¬ It's not my fault though!!
There was a little girl,
Who had a little curl,
Right down the middle of her forehead.
When she was good,
She was very very good.
But when she was bad,
She was horrid.
Guess who's bored xD
I think I may have done this one before...
Name: Coar Linn
Age: 16
Birthplace: New Lanark, Scotland
Birthday: 06 May
Current Location: Newcastle, England
School: SBC
Eye Color: Blue. Most of the time...
Hair Color: I'm a brunette
Right or Left Handed: Right
Shoe Size: 5/6
Skin Type: Pale...
Single?: Nope :)
Pepsi or Coke: coke
MCDonalds or Burger King?: McDonanlds. Har har.
How many pairs of shoes do you own?: Uhh... about 3?
Do you smoke?: Hardly anymore...
Have you ever stolen from a friend?: No
Do you do drugs?: No. Never would.
Do you drink?: On special days.
Do you shower daily?: Basically. But it dries out my hair.
Chocolate or Vanilla?: Chocolate.
Do you want to get married?: Not sure.
Do you want to have kids?: Kids smell. Yuk.
Future Job: Something very well paid.
Favorite Sport: I can think of a few... ;)
Do you get sea sick?: Nope. I love the sea and to be on boats.
Do you believe in yourself?: Sometimes.
Do you think your attractive?: Not really...
Do you like thunderstorms?
Do you sing?: Hah. When I'm completely alone.
Do you play an instrument?: Nope. Used to play the violin.
Are you a health freak?: Urgh, no.
Are you scared of the dark?: Nope. I quite like the dark.
Do you get along with your parents?: Most of the time.
Sibblings?: No.
Pets?: 3. Merlin, Sophia and Olivia,
Number of Tattoos: 0
Number of piercings: 2
Number of Cds I own: Uhh... About 50?
Style: The same clothes I've had for years...
Fruit or Vegetable: That's hard... Depends.
Short or Long Hair: Long <3
Best Friend: Steph
Coolest Friend: Steph
Prettiest Friend: Steph
Weirdest Friend: Steph
What would you like to get pierced?: My ears are enough thank you...
Have you ever stolen from a store?: When I was a Chav...
Have you ever been kicked out of a store?: Does McDonald count?
Have you ever cheated on your boyfriend?: I never would.
Have you ever turned down a dare?: Yeah.
Have you ever kissed a boy on the lips?: Yeah :S
Own a stuffed animal?: Heh...
What grade are you in?: 12... Sixth Form...
Number of past things your regret: A fair few...
name: Cora Linn
birthdate: 6 May
sex: Female
relationship status: Taken ;)
shoe size: 5/6
parents still together: Yep
siblings: I prefer none... Two...
pets: Merlin the Corgi
--FAVORITES--
color: Red <3 and Blue
number: 5, 10, 15...
time of year: Spring...
type of weather: Most weather... Unless it's really cold or really hot...
food/drink: Coffee. Chocolate. Strawberries. Squid. Sushi. Mocha.
--DO YOU--
twirl your hair: Yeah
have any tattoos: Nada
cheat on tests: Can't with the tests I do...
like scary movies: Sometimes...
like cleaning: I'm lazy... But once a year, yeah xD
know how to drive a car: No.
own a cell phone: I have two :P But they're bricks...
collect anything: Nope >.<
--HAVE YOU EVER--
been in a fist fight: Yep
considered a life of crime: Considered...
considered being a hooker: Nope.
been in love: Maybe...
made out with just a friend: Yeah o.O
hurt someone you love: I think I may have...
kicked someone in the nuts: Heh heh heh heh >=] Yep xD
--CURRENT--
clothing: Spotty vest top, slouchy jeans, converse...
hair: Like straw? I need to wash it... Plait...
song you are in love with: Just about anything by Regina Spektor
cd in your stereo: None...
mood: La la la... That ought to sum it up ^_^
thing you ought to be doing: Washing my hair... Doing homework...
--LOVE--
first crush: No idea...
first kiss: I do believe that was Jenny...
first love: Ellie. The red elephant.
do you believe in love at first sight: I might do now...
do you believe in "the one": Hmm...
are you a tease: Dunno...
would you ever commit yourself to someone 100%: Depends what I'd leave behind...
--ARE YOU--
honest: I think so...
sarcastic: Hah. Never.
a daydreamer: Yeah, I day dream a bit too much...
up tight or laid back: Iono...
messy or organized: Usually Messy?
shy or outgoing: I'm shy...
--RANDOM--
nervous habits: I fidget a lot... And I've started biting my nails again >.<
are you double jointed: No O.O
can you roll your tongue: Yep
do you make your bed daily: No...
which shoe goes on first: Depends what one I fins first...
--IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU--
bought something: Yeah ^_^
been sick: Felt sick, but not actually been sick...
sang: Yep >.<
missed someone: Yeah...
gotten drunk: Not in the past month...
gotten a haircut: No. *glare*
watched cartoons: Yeah >.<
been kissed: Yeah :)
lied: Uhhh...
--LAST PERSON THAT--
you spent the night with: Franki
spent the night with you: Sophia xD
saw you cry: Steph
made you cry: Steph
you said "i love you" to: Jamie
told you they loved you: Jamie
--WHAT IS--
the best feeling in the world: Love, Satisfaction
the worst feeling in the world: Guilt, Grief
your greatest fear: Hmmm... That one's hard...
the thing you want most in life: Dunno...
Level One
(x) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar (does part of one count???)
( ) Smoked Weed
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex (on the cheek)
(x) Drank Alcohol
SO FAR = 3
Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
( ) Been Dumped
(x) Shoplifted
( ) Been Fired
(x) Been In A Fist Fight
SO FAR = 6
Level 3
(x) Snuck Out Of A Parent's House
(x) Had Feelings For Someone Who Didn't Have Them Back
( ) Been Arrested
( ) Made Out With A Stranger
( ) Gone Out On A Blind Date
SO FAR = 8
Level 4
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped School
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die
SO FAR = 11
Level 5
( ) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your MYSPACE Friends
(x) Been To Paris
(x) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking
SO FAR = 14
Level 6
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
(x) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Myspace
( ) Been Mosh Pitting
SO FAR = 16
Level 7
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Love(d) or really liked Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel
SO FAR = 20
Level 8
(x) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
(x) Gone Puddle Jumping
(x) Played Dress Up
SO FAR = 25
Level 9
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledding
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School
SO FAR = 30
Level 10
(x) Used A Fake / Someone Else's ID
(x) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake
SO FAR = 32
Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(x) Robbed Someone
(x) Been Misunderstood
( ) Pet A Deer
SO FAR = 36
Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident
SO FAR = 39
Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight
SO FAR = 42
Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
( ) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
SO FAR = 45
Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean / Gulf
( ) Felt Like You Were Dying
SO FAR = 48
Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
SO FAR = 53
Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
(x) Kissed In The Rain
SO FAR = 57
Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
( ) Been Kissed Under Mistletoe
(x) Watched The Sun Set With Someone You Care / Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach
SO FAR = 61
Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
(x) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped by A Monkey
SO FAR = 64
Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls
(x) Jumped Off A Bridge
(x) Screamed "Penis"
( ) Swam With Dolphins
SO FAR = 67
Level 22
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole / Freezer/ice Cube
( ) Kissed A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top
SO FAR = 70
Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(x) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Stayed Up All Night
SO FAR = 74
Level 24
(x) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had / Been In A Tree House
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone
SO FAR= 78
Level 25
(x) Believe/believ
( ) Have / Had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
(x) Gone Streaking
( ) Jail / Visit
SO FAR = 80
Level 26
( ) Played Chicken
(x) Been Pushed Into A Pool With All Your Clothes On
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused
SO FAR = 83
Level 27
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It
( ) Made A Porn Video
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed
SO FAR = 86
Level 28
(x) Mooned / Flashed Someone
(x) Had Someone Moon / Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
(x) Slept Naked
(x) French Braided Someones Hair
(x) Gone Skinny Dippin In A Pool
(x) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
SO FAR = 94
Level 29
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
( ) Went Scuba-Diving / Snorkeling
(x) Had A Cavity
(x) Black-Mailed Someone
(x) Been Black Mailed
SO FAR = 98
Level 31
( ) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
(x) Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone
SO FAR = 102
Level 32
(x) been shot at(including paintball/wate
( ) had sex in the rain/ on a rainy night
( ) flattened someone's tires
( ) Rode your car until the gas light came on
( ) got five dollars or less worth of gas
So Far = 103
I've Done 103 Out Of 150 Stupid Things