[Corazie]'s diary
Haha.
No art today.
There was a fire at KwikFit in Longbenton... And the roads have been closed since yesterday. So I couldn't go to Killingworth. I do art at a different school you see.
But it was the only lesson I went in for today. And I didn't do it.
So I spent six and a half hours at that shit whole. Urgh. In the library. Which I love and all, but I've read almost everything. And there were annoying brats coming in and out >.<
There was an explosion in KwikSave in Washington, so the Doc didn't get in to school until about eleven-ish. So I got to hang around with the Biology folks ^_^ Only one of whom I actually like xD Oh yeah, that also fucked up the roads ¬.¬
Last night I spent an hour and a half on a fucking bus. For a fifteen minute bus journey. That's how fucked up the roads were.
Lots of people stuck their fingers up at the bus driver as he sped down the bus lane too. That was a bit funny xD I was the star attraction on the bus... I had a radio and knew what was happening traffic wise ^_^
But the bus was freezing. I shiver even to remember it... Maybe I should put the heating on...
Anyway, the roads in the North East are mega fucked at the moment.
And don't think about using the metro system either. They too are fucked. Strong winds earlier in the week closed it along the route where the roads are closed. Bugger? I think.
So, public transport is also a no no. Ha ha.
I hope it's all fixed by the weekend. I'm not spendsing over 45 minutes on a bus.
Written about Sunday 2006-10-29
Written: (6600 days ago)
What the fuck has happened? My house is gone. All of that wonderful work. Gone.
Any explanation? I'm rather fucking pissed off ¬.¬
You never tell me anything.
What the fuck is wrong?
Just leave me guessing
And hurting even more.
Or do you not realise?
You spoke the truth a while ago:
I’m broken.
Take me back.
Get a refund.
An exchange.
You deserve so much better
Than me and all my troubles.
Lawrence Llewellyn Bowen Couldn't Make It
So... You have to!
Well, don't have to, but it'd be nice ^_^
Design a house for me?
Lawrence Llewellyn Bowen Couldn't Make It So... You have to! Well, don't have to, but it'd be nice ^_^ Design a house for me?
Wow...
Lmfao...
37"
27"
37"
Funky proportions, eh?
RANDOM QUESTIONS:
Loud?: Nope...
Shy?: Yeah...
Weird?: Some think so
Selfish?: To an extent
Crazy?: At times
Hot?: Freezing atm
Cute?: MERLIN!! He's so cute :P
Nice?: Uhh...
Mean?: If you're a Chav ¬.¬
Immature?: Never. Hah.
Rude?: To Chavs.
Cool?: Over rated
Brat?: I know some.
Stupid?: Heh...
Caring?: MERLIN!! He fell :(
Mature?: Nah nah nah nah nah :P
A friend?: If you're mine...
More than a friend?: To a special person only.
Talkative?: Sometimes
Boring?: Yeah ¬.¬
Creative?: In a way my art teacher hates. I WANT TO USE COLOUR GOD DAMNIT!!
Smart?: Supposedly...
A psycho?: Mwahahahaha.
Athletic?: Har. Har. Joking?
Confusing?: What?
Sweet?: CHOCOLATE!!
Mood swings?: WTF DO YOU MEAN BY THAT? Of course not...
Attractive?: Someone else answer this for me?
Annoying?: Yarr!!
Funny?: Nah.
Hyper?: COFFEE!! (<-- Good enough answer?)
Laid back?: I <3 My Bed
Perfect?: Far from it.
Wierd?: This one's already been asked me thinks...
I turned down two free tickets to Milburn on the 30th.
Lmfao xD
Written about Sunday 2006-10-15
Written: (6614 days ago)
The third time in less than 24 hours that I've cried... Something is tearing me apart.
Written about Sunday 2006-10-15
Written: (6614 days ago)
Why am I crying?
It's petty and stupid.
SO FUCKING STUPID.
All out of proportion.
So why are the tears falling?
Why am I shuddering?
Gasping for breath?
Why are my hands shaking?
Why do I want to hurt something?
Someone?
Me?
Maybe I've been wrong all along and my emotions have been lying to me... I become less and less convinced every day.
Hey Princess - Fear Of Music
Hey Princess
Hey Sweetness
Don't you know all the ways that I need you?
Hey good looker
Hey smooth talker
Every inch of me says you are not for real
And it feels so cold
And it feels so sweet
And it feels like everything
I know I shouldn't be
And
Everything you say to me seems meaningless
'Cause it's nothing much at all
And everything we've said and done now up to this
Is cold to the fucking bone.
I found this on a members page... I just thought it was so right and had so much meaning.
it's a good idea to write thoughts down.
especially the bad ones.
left to their own devices in your head they would stagnate and mutate into monsters, raping all your other thoughts and giving birth to Fucked Up Ideas who will wonder around your head, pissing on the wallpaper and masturbating into your bedsheets.
this is not a good thing.
so set them loose on the world.
let them fly the nest with a shirt on their backs, 20 quid in thier pocket and the address of a good brothel.
give them a soapbox to stand on so they can incite riots and indecently expose themselves to old women on their way to sainsburys.
let them eat, sleep, fuck, kill, maim, and burn.
let them live.
because they sure as Hell wont die.
[Danno]
This is actually a pretty decent survey. It asks questions that haven't been asked a thousand times over. It asks questions that aren't obviously from a kid's point of view (in the last month, ever been caught sneakin out?)... Funky xD
Part 1: The Birth of You
Were you a planned baby?: No :(
Were you the first?: Yeah :P
Who was present at your birth?: My dad. And nurses/midwive
Were your parents married when you were born?: Yep
What is your birthdate? Sunday 6 May 1990
Part 2: The Family
Are you parents married or divorced? Married. It's been strained at times though
An only child?: Hah. I wish.
If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest? Oldest.
What are your sibling's names?: Sophia and Olivia Elizabeth
Which parent do you get along with best?: I get on well with both of them, but my mum :)
What do you fight about? School. My future. My sisters. My social life.
Do you have step parents?: Nope.
Part 3: The Friends
Do you have more than one best friend? No. Steph's my one and only. [trixie]
What do you like to do when you are together? A fair few things... It depends what mood we're in.
Do you share the same interests?: Yeah ;) But I don't share her fancy of gay lads.
Which friend can you tell anything to?: Steph.
Part 4: Your Personality
How high/low is your self esteem?: Urgh... Low.
Do you get depressed about things easily?: That depends...
Are you an extrovert (outgoing) or an introvert (reserved)?: Introvert.
Are you happy?: sometimes...
Do you live life to the fullest?: I wish I could
Part 5: Appearance
Are you comfortable with the way you look? Not really...
Describe your hair? Brown, idiotically long, really dry, split ends...
How do you dress? Comfortably. Jeans mostly.
Part 6: The Past
Were you a strange child?: Yeah.
What did you used to love that you no longer do? Horse-Bike Riding. 'Running Away'. Picnics.
Do you have the same friends?: Some of them. But some I'll never have again...
Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing? Hmmm... Probably.
Part 7: The Future
What is your ambition?: University. Well paid job.
Are you scared of growing old?: I hate growing older. The past 10 years have destroyed me.
Do you want to get married?: If it's a rich guy about to die...
Part 8: The Outdoors
Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?: That definately depends...
Favorite Season: Spring/Summer.
Do you like walking in the rain?: In the right kind of rain...
Part 9: Food
Are you a vegetarian?: Nada.
What is your favorite food?: Oooh... Uhhh... Chocolate <3
What food makes you want to gag? Oysters. Urgh.
What is your favorite dessert? Chocolate.
What is your favorite restaurant?: Hmmm... That Spainish one with the nice Paella.
Are you a fussy eater? Hah. No way xD
Part 10: Relationships and Love
Are you single or taken?: Taken.
If taken who is the lucky guy/girl?: Jamie
Do you think love is the best feeling in the world?: It feels like it...
Do you believe in love at first sight?: Hmm... Hard to say...
Part 11: Experiences
What was one of your greatest experiences?: Umm... Hard. Either Caving at High Borrans or White Water Rafting in Austria.
What was one of the worst? Only a few know...
Have you ever done drugs? Not really... Just caffeine. Nicotine. Alcohol.
Have you ever thought you were going to die?: I have been in so much pain only once.
Written about Saturday 2006-10-14
Written: (6614 days ago)
Interesting... Understand better now?
Love makes us crazy. For one, it causes serotonin levels in the brain to drop, which may lead people to obsess about their lover. Next, it ramps up production of the stress hormone cortisol, leading to slightly higher blood pressure and possibly loss of sleep. Finally, when people look at their new loves, the neural circuits that are usually in charge of social judgment are suppressed. All in all, love kind of leaves you obsessive, stressed, and blind. And we love it.
Why broken hearts hurt... The psychological hurt of a break-up is just as real as a physical injury. Two areas of the brain that respond to physical pain also become activated when a person is dealing with social pain, such as being dumped. An MRI was used to monitor brain activity in participants while they played a game simulating social rejection. The researchers believe that the pain of being rejected may have evolved as a motivating force that led humans to seek out social interaction, which is crucial for the survival of most mammals.
STEPH'S JOINING!
She'll be [trixie] if/when she's accepted ^_^
Yay!!