I can't see straight.
My vision's blurry
And this time it's not from the booze
There are tears in my eyes you see
They won't stop falling
If you knew the pain...
You take it back
Buy I don't believe you
The damage is already done,
Sweetheart.
It's too late.
Drip.
A long trail to follow
Over the contours of the human face.
From eye to chin
Or there abouts.
Then a long drop to the pillow,
Aided by a sob:
The shaking of a broken body;
A shattered soul.
Does it matter at all?
The pillows saturated,
And now the tears just fall:
No long trail from eye to chin to pillow.
Just straight to pillow.
Leaf out your book Ed, or rather your diary... Depressing poetry.
The words sting
And so do the tears that follow
Acid
Do the words hurt you too
I wonder...
I'm curled in a ball
Trying to rid myself of this pain
But it won't leave me.
Dirty little whore.
We all know who you are.
Over there,
This one,
That one,
They all blend together for you.
Can you even tell the difference now?
Surprised if you can…
Dirty little bitch.
They hate you,
Can’t you tell?
Or are you so naive?
Idiot.
Stupid cow.
Really, how could you?
I’m sure you knew what you were doing.
Really, you did.
Didn’t you?
Shit.
Lmfao.
Ice Skating@Life. This Saturday. 12 Noon.
If I was fucking anorexic, sunshine, I wouldn't be this fucking big.
Yeah, so what? Go back a few years and I was really fat.
Does it matter that I've lost weight?
I'm smaller than you clotehs wize and I'm 5 years older. To me, my precious, that means you loose the weight.
If I was even skinny for fucks sake, I'd be a size 10 or something.
So you just shut the fuck up. I don't need this shit from you of all people.
You know I've never been particularly happy with myself.
I've always been fat. I've always been ugly. Now I can control, at least, my weight. Two years ago I couldn't, no matter what I did.
My bones aren't sticking out: I'm not anorexic.
Even now I eat too fucking much.
Take a look at my friends. Compare me to them.
I'm not exactly skinny when I'm next to them
Viktor&Rolf@H&M looks amazing.
Anyone up for Ice-Skating@Li
fe sometime? Anytime? It's really fun... And I get discount I can get other people discounted access into the centre too, just not ice-skating.
OMG.
I like MCR.
It's Alan Robson's fault...
He interviewed them and it was played last night...
Alan: So, how many times do you go?
MCR Member: 3 or 4 times a day...
Alan: Christ, you're full of shit!
MCR Member: Oh, that's what you mean!
I need someone to come to Tyneside Cinema with me.
I don't want to go on my own.
I need to see Marie Antoinette for French.
Don't worry, the film's in English!
Saturday at 12.20 anyone?
Fenwicks Windows!
Guillivers Travels <3
Haha.
No art today.
There was a fire at KwikFit in Longbenton... And the roads have been closed since yesterday. So I couldn't go to Killingworth. I do art at a different school you see.
But it was the only lesson I went in for today. And I didn't do it.
So I spent six and a half hours at that shit whole. Urgh. In the library. Which I love and all, but I've read almost everything. And there were annoying brats coming in and out >.<
There was an explosion in KwikSave in Washington, so the Doc didn't get in to school until about eleven-ish. So I got to hang around with the Biology folks ^_^ Only one of whom I actually like xD Oh yeah, that also fucked up the roads ¬.¬
Last night I spent an hour and a half on a fucking bus. For a fifteen minute bus journey. That's how fucked up the roads were.
Lots of people stuck their fingers up at the bus driver as he sped down the bus lane too. That was a bit funny xD I was the star attraction on the bus... I had a radio and knew what was happening traffic wise ^_^
But the bus was freezing. I shiver even to remember it... Maybe I should put the heating on...
Anyway, the roads in the North East are mega fucked at the moment.
And don't think about using the metro system either. They too are fucked. Strong winds earlier in the week closed it along the route where the roads are closed. Bugger? I think.
So, public transport is also a no no. Ha ha.
I hope it's all fixed by the weekend. I'm not spendsing over 45 minutes on a bus.