today life has been very boring. The past couple of days have been hell for me. I hate my ex. He keeps doing shit to me just so i have a reminder and the truth of the matter is i will always have a reminder and that's because of our son. I know that things will get better for me, but as for him life will get worse. I've already spent $500 on a lawyer but i know that it's going to be more. I look back and wonder what i ever saw in him and i really don't remeber. He is someone that has to have material things to make him happy and i guess that's why he has his dream car. He is dating someone that is trying to take my place as a mother but i'll have my day on july 5th when we got to court. He is so jealous that i'm seeing someone that i don't fight with and that isn't selfish. I can't stand that in someone. I want my son to know that i love him and that i'll always be here for him.