You know i'm a christian....and i'm usually always happy but i'm just very lonely,depressed,and messed up in the head right now....I'm homesick for one.....Secondly i'm through with guys but not sure if i wanna be(i'm not bi or lesbian either)...and there is just something missing in my life right now...I don't know what it is..I do know its a hole in my heart that keeps gettin bigger...that makes my eyes water so much but never drop a tear!!...well i think i have to go!! good day or nite to everyone

Omg!!!!!Someone got on my elftown and changed my description.....i changed it back though....only a few people have my password though!!!i'm kinda mad!!You know i miss all of my friends though...I'm ready to come home..but when i go home i will still miss one of my friends cause he lives somewhere else...its very depressing...well not really...its just sad...well i'm hungry thats normal..Blah Blah Blah i'm gonna die..or float away ..i wonder if like i layed down and just imagined that i was going somewhere for like a really long time if i would wake up and just be there...like a dream but it would seem so real....and then i would wake up and be back in my own misery...lol i'm a freak...jk so whats up lol u can't answer me this is a diary!!!!!!!! Does anyone actually read these things if u do please write me a message and tell me!!!! You know i had this really cool Bf, but he seems so confused and if he reads this he will probaly confuse himself more, cause he won't understand what i'm talking about and i'm not really sure if i do so cameron if u read this don't ask!!!!Anyways yeah i really love him but there is just so many people that i just don't know how to say it....But its like me broken hearted even though its my fault we are broken up...i'm not even sure that he is the reason my heart hurts ...it could be someone else who i lost because i'm an idiot.....but u never no....I know i love Cameron though...See i'm a confused person to so i think i should just stay single so i don't hurt myself and whoever else....well sorry for boring and u and probaly confusin u at the same time!!!!!

Hmm today...is an okay day i guess...besides the fact that i broke up with my bf....i get to see my older brother today who i haven't seen in three years so its awesome!!!!!well i think i have to go but i'll write more later

i'm so tired!!!! its 4 o'clock in the morning and i'm on the phone with my bf...i'm fucking hungry and there is no food to eat and i'm gonna die!!!!!!!omg argghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!lalalaladedede my mind isn't really thinking right now...whoa this is weird my head is like kinda blank.....