"Dedication"
I've got a problem,
but I don't think it's something your used to
This one deals with me and myself
and how everyone envisions me
You don't deny me
Yet, you don't acknowledge me
My accomplishents are rare, few, and fleeting
You have no understanding of love
You have no comprehension of the word
All I wanted was to be put above,
Just one little thing in your life you loved
Why, did I waste my life?
Tried, just so you'd survive
But, my dedication was never enough
Why, did you ruin your life?
And, live within this lie...
Just to say my dedication was never enough
We go on and on,
Down the same road,
all too familiar,
To an ending we already know
You won't help yourself,
you always expect me to save you
But, after all this time I can finally say goodbye
You have no understanding of love
You have no comprehension of the word
All I wanted was to be put above,
Just one little thing in your life you loved
Why, did I waste my life?
Tried, just so you'd survive
But, my dedication was never enough
Why, did you ruin your life?
And, live within this lie...
Just to say my dedication was never enough
(Wrote this for one person in particular, and I don't believe she will ever find out about it... sadly)
The echoe breaks into a million different rings
And they fade as they come closer to me
If I could extend my hand and grab them
Pull them in so I could understand
I've had enough with insanity taking over
My only wish is that one day, you would be sober
With your pushing and your shoving
I'm feeling like there is no one there for me
With your pushing and your shoving
I'm feeling like I am not a real person
The bruise you leave, hidden beneathe the seem
The scars with me bleed, as they are slowly torn open
I've had enough with insanity taking over
My only wish is that one day, you would be sober
With your pushing and your shoving
I'm feeling like there is no one there for me
With your pushing and your shoving
I'm feeling like I am not a fucking person
I burn as the sun shines upon my skin
So pale, I reflect the light back into the sky
It's so good to finally be outside...
It's so good to finally feel alive
I wish I could say the same for you
You're killing me with your apathy
Your blankness and numbness are chilling
You'd rather die in this hole than be someone
If I could extend my hand,
would you stand beside me and wave goodbye.
Goodbye, to a promise of opportunity
Your chances of starting over again are running thin
Your chance to breathe is fading...
It won't be long until I'll be leaving you...
This love of friends is ever-extending
But, the ties are going to sever themselves
I fly as the wind blows over
Extend my wings, and take me from this slumber
Never-ending war wages on,
and the count of draft are falling
I wish you would back away from the mirror
I'm sick and tired of you,
lamenting on what you couldn't been
It's not my fault you chose this in the end
How perfect was this life you invisioned?
How lecherous was this relationship you let go?
How excusable was this murder of your soul?
How wonderfull was this world you said 'fuck you' to?
Your chance to breathe is fading...
It won't be long until I'll be leaving you...
This love of friends is ever-extending
But, the ties are going to sever themselves