I wonder how many people in this room will be dead by the age of 25... I wonder who will be successful and who will marry the wrong person, and lose everything they worked hard for in divorce court...
I wonder who will die a painful death, and who will sink into the graves of Earth...
I wonder why so many things in life are bad...

Some thoughts I had before bed (I seem to think of some pretty good stuff when I'm riiight on the edge of sleeping):

"No one can have me but myself, I won't allow it. I'm just going to bottle myself up and become non-human, because in truth I don't want to live and I don't want to die. You say I'm just a kid, that they're just 'childish fantasies,' I have. Pfft, shows what you know, you scared and selfish little bastard who can't committ. Did I ever question you? Did I ever question your feelings? No, of course I never did. That was your job. And yet, with all that love you gave it only took you a minute to ruin my life; I hope that beat your last record for the last girl; I hope it made you real proud of yourself. My conclusion to the ending of us is now I know the truth about myself. I know that I love nothing but pure insanity. I love no one but insanity. Insanity is my soulmate, not you. No one can have me but myself."

Silver1 says:
hi end!
Silver1 says:
nice to meet you!
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
Hi dude!
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
I just had a really weird dream.
Silver1 says:
what?
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
a dream o_o
Silver1 says:
what was the dream I meant, if you don't mind sharing.
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
A whole bunch of people and myself went on this vacation, but we were all young... I think the oldest dude was 20. I don't remember how many people went with us, but we went to these really nice houses, and it was dark... erm, then the next thing I remember was the oldest dude was in the shadows and he got out and something got to him. That's when we all freaked out, because... It was something
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
really evil o.o it was abnormal, and none of us (naturally) wanted to be eaten, so I said, "We have GOT to out of here." But our car was like, all the way on the other side of the property, and it was still dark out. It had been awhile already but... we started to get ready and we all buddied up, but then everything got in a frenzy and everyone was downstairs, but I heard music upstairs coming
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
from the bathroom, so I went to onvestigate... and I opened the door and there's these stereo speakers under the sink and they're boomin' loud, and in the cupboard beside it there's this gun... only it was shaped like a goat and the way you cocked the gun was you pulled on the horn thingies (it actually made a cool sound though O.o But I would NEVER touch a gun...). But... oh yeah, we had all made
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
plans on what we were going to do, but mine kinda faultered. So anyway, I had kinda freaked out and backed out of the bathroom and closed the door because I was imagining that it was the dead guy's ghost who had turned the stereo on, and I turned to my left to go down the stairs (it was a beautiful house), and the door to his room was wide open, and I was freaked out... I did -not- want to go in
Silver1 says:
don't blame you
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
there, but to my right on the wall I saw three light switches, and I switched them all on and was trying to figure out which one went where, but they only turned off once. I turned them back on the second time, and I looked into his room and saw a light go on and I instantly thought it was his bathroom and again I freaked, but then I noticed it was just a big mirror -- although I still didn't like
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
it, so I flipped the switch but none of the lights turned off, flipped the second one no lights turned off, and flipped the third the lights STILL wouldn't go off, so... I ran for it. My buddy was downstairs waiting for me (it was this kid my own age), and everyone started to sprint outside to the car, but my buddy dragged me somewhere else. And the last thing I remember was running for dear life
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
and holding his hand while I shot bullets in the dark (because I was ...f reaked).
There's my dream.
Silver1 says:
that is freaky, I had a dream where I was a dragon, and saw a bunch of kids running from something
Silver1 says:
and I swooped down and picked one up to carry it to safety
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
and?
Silver1 says:
it kept wiggling
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
aw
Silver1 says:
but I suppose it would have been kinda scary being carried in the paws of a dragon
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
-nod-nod-
Silver1 says:
I don't know, I remember i ran into some electric wire, it kinda hurt, but it was on my back
Silver1 says:
and then I landed and set my 'package' down
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
You don't happen to know how to interpret dreams, do you?
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
weird
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
o_o
Silver1 says:
I've been learning very quick, I've had to do 3 in the last few months and I still haven't gotten one figured out
Silver1 says:
do you want that one interpreted?
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
It'd be nice but if you're swamped it's okay 
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
I have a lot of weird dreams like that.
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
I already know about the lightswitch thing. Whenever I ever see a lightswitch in my dream I try to turn it off, but it never does.
Silver1 says:
thats ok
Silver1 says:
first I gotta ask a question, have you had this dream more then once, or is it set in your mind and you can't get it out?
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
Only this once.
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
But!
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
I woke up in the beginning and looked at my clock (which said 12:00 exactly), then went back to sleep and it continued and I woke up about 20 minutes later.
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
I was sort of pushing myself to stay asleep too, because I wanted to know the ending.
Silver1 says:
lol
Silver1 says:
but does it stick in your mind?
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
What do you meeeaaan exactly? Like, can I remember every detail?
Silver1 says:
no, I mean you keep thinking of the dream itself
Silver1 says:
and you can't stop thinking about it and wondering about it etc.
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
Yup!
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
That;s it o_o
Silver1 says:
lol
Silver1 says:
there are three types of dreams, one type is regular dreams, one type is prophetic and the last is kinda symbolic
Silver1 says:
I can tell you now that its probably not a regular dream
Silver1 says:
because your mind keeps drawing itself back to it
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
ooo o_o
Silver1 says:
so that leaves prophetic and symbolic. Believe it or not there ARE prophetic dreams but your dream doesn't match it up, that leaves symbolic, which means your subconcious is trying to tell you something important, and you'd better listen up.
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
What would a prophetic dream be?
Silver1 says:
its usually one of two things, a fragment of a scene (generally I get these) and you end up going "That doesn't make sense..." then a few weeks down the road you see the scene in the proper context and go "OH..."
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
ooh like seeing the future...? no...
Silver1 says:
it can also be as in Joseph from the bible, these are characteristic by having them more then once
Silver1 says:
yeah, its seeing the future 
Silver1 says:
its also not very useful
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
ooh o_o
Silver1 says:
alrighty, now the fun part, deviding the dream up into tiny bits and discussing every last detail till we figure out what it is
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
I believe that when you dream your soul has gone off to other places (that's why dreams are so weird), and you're sort of in a morphed world. I forgot to mention something!! When I noticed the bit about the mirror, my reflection wasn't in it, but it clearly showed where I was standing.
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
yiiiikes!
Silver1 says:
the switches seem very important to you in the dream. Your subconcious is taking the message it wants you to have and putting it in a believable scenario
Silver1 says:
hmm...same as vampires
Silver1 says:
their reflections don't show 
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
...
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
I wasn't a vampire!
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
 
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
I think the dream would have been VERY realistic, despite the fact that I had a gun and the fact that the GUN ITSELF was a goat.
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
-would never hold a gun-
Silver1 says:
didn't say you were
Silver1 says:
that kind of dream generally is very realistic.
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
I was just stating ^^
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
-nod- o_o
Silver1 says:
hmmm
Silver1 says:
you also have to be willing to believe that your subconcious might be trying to tell you something you don't neccesarily want to hear
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
I'm all for it
Silver1 says:
lol
Silver1 says:
well lets start with the lights that seems to be your focus, that and something hunting you
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
wait.. brb for juuust a tiny moment
Silver1 says:
then we'll move onto the mirror 
Silver1 says:
ok
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
Sorry!
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
Back
Silver1 says:
welcome back 
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
thank yoou ^^
Silver1 says:
lets elimate the easy stuff first, you aren't worried about power outages etc?
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
Naw
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
I encourage them -hides scissors-
Silver1 says:
or feel like you have a lack of control over something in your life, or that every time you try to do something something else you didn't intend to happen happens?
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
I always seem to be afraid of the dark in my dreams, but in real life it makes no difference...
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
Nope ^^
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
I think I've got a pretty good grasp of my life.
Silver1 says:
mm k
Silver1 says:
any personal thoughts on where it might be leading?
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
My dream?
Silver1 says:
yeah
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
Maybe it's saying not to go on a vacation with a bunch of strangers...
Silver1 says:
LOL
Silver1 says:
hmm thats interesting, you didn't know anybody?
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
^^
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
Nope.
Silver1 says:
*meditates*
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
 
Silver1 says:
lol
Silver1 says:
you got yourself a hard one 
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
bwhahha >:
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
:F
Silver1 says:
nothing going on at school, or in your family?
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
hmmm...
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
Well, there's always that little incident with Champ (I told you about that, right?)
Silver1 says:
yeah
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
and my family's all going to Hell so it doesn't matter.
Silver1 says:
champ may have something to do with it
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
Nothing I'm not already used to.
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
I think so.
Silver1 says:
can you describe to me the champ problem in detail one more time so I can compare?
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
Yhea..
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
Okay, well, last Tuesday I discovered I liked him, so Wednesday morning I told him... alone... I kind stuttered it out and he went "oh my g**" in a surprised way, then I ran off to class... then the next day I cornered him after school and said to him "If you don't like me that way then just tell me" so he told me to call him ( ), in which I did, and we talked for an hour... But about 10
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
minutes of the conversation went to the relationship deal, and he was too stressed because this other girl had told him she liked him (over the Net -_-), and then started to give him the cold shoulder, his grandpa just died and his parents were hardly ever home, PLUS he has a 4 year old sister...
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
and I just said to him, "You know, Champ, don't worry about it, I'm fine being friends. I don't want to add on to your stress." So... yeah that's what happened.
Silver1 says:
hmm
Silver1 says:
you know that matches pretty well actually
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
how?
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
-blink-
Silver1 says:
the switches, which suggested to me an attempt to turn things on (heh, no pun intended) and it not working.
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
lol
Silver1 says:
The guy getting killed could represent anything from his grandpa dieing to your wish for a relationship
Silver1 says:
your reflection wasn't in the mirror, wasn't in the picture...hmmm....and somewhere in that dream, if you examine it very carefully, will probably be the solution to it
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
-blink- wow, you're good at this! O.o
Silver1 says:
I noticed that your body generally doesn't go through all the trouble to make up a suitable dream with a similar theme unless its come up with a solution to your problems
Silver1 says:
actually I just know the questions to ask 
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
"I noticed that your body generally doesn't go through all the trouble to make up a suitable dream with a similar theme" What do you mean by this?
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
XD
Silver1 says:
unless its come up with a solution to your problems
Silver1 says:
it means that it wouldn't have found a pattern and shown it to you unless it knew the answer
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
oooh
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
... ve muscht find ze answer!
Silver1 says:
yeah
Silver1 says:
*scrolls up to study dream some more*
Silver1 says:
hmm, your buddy was waiting for you despite all. Thats unusual.
Silver1 says:
do you know where he was taking you?
Silver1 says:
when he dragged you off
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
From what I remember he was trying to get me inside this lighted building -- I'm not sure what was in it but he was afraid
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
I think it was either the guest house or the pool house
Silver1 says:
afraid of what was in there or afraid of what was outside?
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
the door was a foggy kind of glass but there was light shining through.
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
what was outside
Silver1 says:
was what he was afraid of outside or inside
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
Outside
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
In the dark
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
He wanted in the light.
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
I could tell you what he was wearing too.
Silver1 says:
oh?
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
He was wearing a dark blue T-shirt and I guess they were light blue boxers or shorts. Something like that.
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
He had black hair, it was straight and he had dark skin too.
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
He was skinny.
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
fast runner @_@
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
He didn't wear any shoes.
Silver1 says:
hmmm
Silver1 says:
do you like anyone else besides champ?
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
Yes 
Silver1 says:
the dream could be something like this:
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
Well, I don't think I like Champ anymore. I think that was just a fling... I'm a really lonely person -_-
Silver1 says:
the guy who died is a representation of champ. The lights show he's unatainable, backed up by the mirror. The buddy who waited for you is your answer
Silver1 says:
he cares about you obviousely
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
aww... 
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
That makes a bit more sense
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
But usually when I have a crush (from what I can pcik up) if I kiss the guy in my dream it's like I'm saying goodbye.
Silver1 says:
did you kiss him in the dream?
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
No.
Silver1 says:
there you go
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
The only contact I had with other people was when I held the boy's hand to run
Silver1 says:
affection
Silver1 says:
did that help any?
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
lots 
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
-huggles you to near death- thank you!!
Silver1 says:
lol
Silver1 says:
*hugs back* no problem, I'm glad I could help you
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
Anything I can do for you? o_o
Silver1 says:
not unless you like writing about horses
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
-is drained out from writing-
Silver1 says:
thats ok
Silver1 says:
I'm sitting here with a sick fish and bored out of my skull anyway
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
oh maaan
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
mom's cleaning... i'm hungry... o.o and...
Let me introduce you to the end. says:
Still thinkin' bout that dram O_o

When it snows I'll bury my thoughts in the cold.
"Just remember when you think you're free, the crack inside your f*cking heart is me."

I was rejected. After three years of staying away from guys when I finally pull out to just say my true feelings I was fudging rejected... (Of course, I hadn't had a crush in nearly three years.)

And I can't get my cds... God. LIFE SUCKS.

... At least we're still friends though and he was nice about it ^^ Plus... I was willing to be flexible. It's my fault I'm still alone.

"Well, we just talked. And he seemed way too stressed, because it turns out this other girl had told him she liked him (over the NET), and then gave him the cold shoulder and he didn't want that to happen to him and me. And his grandpa just recently died, his parents are like NEVER home (so he has to stay with his grandparents), he's got a 4 year old sister, he's got some pretty tough classes... I just said, "I'm fine with being friends, I'm real cool with it. I don't want to add onto your stress or anything." And he really appreciated it that I was flexible and stuff. So yeah. That took about ten minutes up in a one hour conversation."

Yeah, that about sums up WHy he rejected me... *sighs* Oh well, living life alone means solitude and silence.

-crunch-
Oops, there goes my ego -_-

BASICS
(0) Name: Emily Lynn McDurman a.k.a Li
(1) Your gender: Female
(2) Straight/gay/BI?: Straight as far as I care to know.
(3) Single?: Yes -_-
4) Want to be?: Depends on who I wouldn't be single with.
(5) Your birthday: June 19th, 1989
(6) Age you act: Older than I am
(7) Age you wish you were: 18
(8) Your height: Five foot 3 inches
(9) The color of your eyes: Too many.
(10) Happy with it?: Yup ^^
(11) The color of your hair: Auburn with a tinge of dark red
(12) Happy with it?: Sure I guess.
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: I'm right handed, but it's fun to practice with my left ^^ Yes, I get bored muchlies often O.o
(14) Your living arrangement?: Family
(27) Your family: 1 sister, 1 mom, 1 grandmother, a dog, and a cat.
(29) What's your job: To bug the shit out of people like you... Currently unemployed -_-
(30) Piercing?: Both ears. I've been rebellious lately and thinking of a belly button piercing just to try it out but... O.o
(31) Tattoos?: Not yet ^^ Still debating.
(32) Obsessions?: A PERFECT CIRCLE. And you. I'M YOUR STALKER.
(35) Do you speak another language?: Not to a full extent, no...
(36) Have a favorite quote?: Too many, in fact. Maybe, "Talk to Jesus Christ as if he knows the reasons why," but that's just spur of the moment...
(37) Do you have a WebPage?: Used to! But I burned it!

DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it

(38) Do you live in the moment?: Naw, I think of the future mostly.
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: Yeah. I'm a pretty flexible person.
(40) Do you have any secrets?: Not that... okay, yeah -_-
(41) Do you hate yourself?: Sometimes.
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: Sometimes I hate it 'cause a lot of people have really nice handwriting. But then I notice that everyone has handwriting JUST LIKE THEIRS. So, I suppose I do like mine because it's original and not very neat ;) I can't write a thought on a straight line without a guide bwhahah.
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: BITING! And chewing. ;);)
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: "You're so pretty!" ... I have a personality too, thanks.
(45) If a movie were made about your life, what would it be called?: "Loser with a Twist"
(46) What's your biggest fear?: Having some sort of freaky sea-creature kill me when I'm in the water.
(47) Can you sing: No... hee hee...
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: Not that I know of.
(49) Are you a loner?: At times I can be, when I feel like sulking.Sometimes.
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Probably not ^^
(52) Are you a daredevil?: Yep. I want to try new things, but I don't want to ruin my body/mind.
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: Lots of things.
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: I can be pretty agressive, but I've knotched that down a bit. I don't bite as much ^^
(55) Have you got a question?: Why?
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness?: Strength - Intelligence. Weakness - The way I look. But I guess that could be a strength as well... taken the situation.
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself?: My physical appearance.
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty, and creativity, which one do you choose?: Creativity. Why? So I can create beauty and love.
(59) How do you vent?: Write. Music.
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: Yes, but I don't usually let the little things edge me. I'm not a perfectionist ^^ On the outside ^~
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: I can't even begin to tell how many things I regret.
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: No.
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: Don't follow; lead. Only you can make the right path for yourself, even if it is hard.
(64) What do you like the most about your body?: ...My eyebrows.
(65) And least?: Everything else. But I don't really care.
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: No.
(67) Are you confident?: Yes ^^
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like?: Lyra Silvertongue from Philip Pullman's HDM.
69) Do people know how you feel?: They usually interpret it the wrong way.
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: Yes.

DO YOU...

(71) Smoke?: Ew, no O.o
(72) Do drugs?: No!
(73) Read the newspaper?: When I can.
(74) Pray?: No.
(75) Go to church? Used to. Don't anymore.
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: For a little while.
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: Duh :P
(78) Take walks in the rain?: Yes!
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: Naw.
(80) Drive?: No :(
(81) Like to drive fast?: I will.

HAVE YOU EVER...

(82) Liked your voice?: Not until recently. I don't like it when it gets too high-pitched.
(83) Hurt yourself?: I bet my ego with a stick. Would that be considered hurting myself...?
(84) Been out of the country?: Not yet >^.^<
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: Yes >:F And it worked too.
(86) Burped?: I think I'll slap you! Idiotic question -_-
(87) Been unfaithful?: Never had a reason to.
(88) Been in love?: Sure
(89) Done drugs?: Nope.
(90) Gone skinny-dipping?: No O.o
(92) Had a surgery?: Nope...
(93) Ran away from home?: Not yet.
(94) Played strip poker?: No.
(95) Gotten beaten up?: Yes.
(97) Been picked on?: Yes.
(98) Been on stage?: Yes, plenty of times.
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: I never reached that stage of helplessness XD
(100) Slept outdoors?: Of course!
(101) Thought about suicide?: Yes, but not ever gonna do it.
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: Oh yeah ^^
(103) If yes, what is your record?: 24 hours, 1 minute.
(104) Gone one day without food?: FOOOOD!
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: Nope.
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: No.
(107) Slept all day? NO O_O
(108) Killed someone?: In my mind ^^
(109) Made out with a stranger?: No...
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: EH?! NO.
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: Yeah.
(112) Kissed the same sex?: No.
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: ... Not that I can recall...
(114) Been betrayed?: Yes.
(115) Had a dream that came true?: I had a wish come true once.
(116) Broken the law?: Of course :P
(117) Met a famous person?: Nope.
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: I think I stepped on a mouse once.
(146) Stolen anything?: No.
(147) Been on radio/TV.?: Radio a very long time ago.
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: Yes ^^
(149) Had a nervous breakdown? Emotionally.
(150) Considered religious vocation?: No.
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: No...
(152) Bungee jumped?: I will. Very soon.
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: Yes... o.o

CLOTHES and other fashion

(154) Shoe brand?: Comfortable shoes...?
(155) Brand of clothing?: The only one I can think of is Hot Topic.
(156) Cologne/perfume?: Treson
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: Goth pants - plaid pink and black, with a pink/fishnet shirt. Or just some khakis and shirt...
(159) Wear hats?: No.
(160) Judge other people by their clothing?: Mostly.
(161) Wear make-up?: No.
(162) Favorite place to shop?: Hot Topic/Candy Factory/Cd Shops
(163) Favorite article of clothing?: My goth pants! *huggles them*
(164) Are you trendy?: Heck no.
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: NO :| Though it would make waking up easier.

BELIEFS

(166) Believe in life on other planets?: Not the planets we know of as of now.
(167) Miracles?: Yes, but there's always a price to them.
(168) Astrology?: Sure.
(169) Magic?: Depends on the kind.
(170) God? : No
(171) Satan?: *Grin* Still deciding
(172) Santa?: YEAH!!!
(173) Ghosts?: Yes.
(174) Luck?: Yes >.<
(175) Love at first sight?: No.
(176) Yin and Yang?: Yes.
(177) Witches?: Wicca!
(178) Easter bunny?: I can never catch that damn rabbit in the act -_-
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: Yes. But only if you love them.
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: No... I know there's skittles though ^^
(181) Do you wish on stars?: Yes, because people share a telepathy with them. They are alive you know.

LOVE, and all that

(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: No.
(183) Do you remember your first love?: ...
(184) Still love him/her?: ... -_-
(185) Do you consider love a mistake?: The way people abuse it is a mistake...
(186) What do you find romantic?: Cuddles, nuzzles, snuggles, and lovelles.
(187) Turn-on?: Intelligence, and yet very agreeable to be around. And a really good scent. Independence too.
(188) Turn-off?: Smokers, perverts, and those who take drugs 'cause they "Can't get away." And weaklings.
(189) Do you base your judgement on looks alone: Never.
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: I'd say I didn't like them like that, and we could go out but no hard-core "dating." May sound mean, but it's a whole lot nicer than leading them on.
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating him or her or going "blind"?: Knowing them. But I've never been on a date so... I guess blind is okay. But no reality shows or a dude my mom hooked me up with *shudder* I like surprises but not like that
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: Isn't it?
203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: Never been attracted to anyone...
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: Some... maybe... I dunno.
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: Deep voices and the way they smell ^^ *love*
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: All too sex-dependent -_- Some, at least.
(207) What's the last present someone gave you?: A cd... oh wait. A picture frame you can't put pictures in -_-
(208) Are you in love?: I dunno -_-
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some attractive guy standing on the sidewalk?: I would probably pass them without even noticing.

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...

(211) That haunted you?: You mean stalked? [BaByMoReNaGrL] of course ;)
(212) You wanted to kill?: Myself.
(213) That you laughed at?: Kayla
(214) That laughed at you?: Kayla
(215) That turned you on?: uhhh...
(216) You went shopping with?: Remote!
(217) That broke your heart?: Me...
(218) To disappoint you?: Myself...
(219) To ask you out?: No one has ever asked me out.
(220) To make you cry?: Not telling.
(221) To brighten up your day?: Kayla!
(222) That you thought about?: ^^
(225) You talked to through IM?: Andrew
(223) You saw a movie with?: I think it was Champ... oh wait no! It was my dad, sister, and cousin in the summer.
(224) You talked to on the phone?: Kayla!
(226) You saw?: Kayla!
(227) You lost?: Some part of me...
(229) You thought were completely insane?: Pete
230) You wanted to be?: ... Dunno o.o
(231) You told off: Can't remember
(232) You trusted?: Kayla!
(233) You turned down?: I don't think I've ever turned anyone down. Not much to turn down to begin with...

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU

(234) Smiled?: Now.
(235) Laughed?: Few minutes ago.
(236) Cried?: Lats night.
(237) Bought something?: Lunch, a long time ago.
(238) Danced?: Just a few minutes ago ^^
(239) Were sarcastic?: Today
(240) hugged someone?: don't remember =(
(241) Talked to an ex?: No exes to talk to...
(242) Watched your fave movie?: I don't have a favorite movie, but I watched "Waking Life" last night.
(243) Had a nightmare?: Couple nights ago O.o
(245) Talked on the phone?: Yesterday
(246) Listened to the radio?: Thursday I think.
(247) Watched TV?: Last night to watch Waking Life :P
(248) Went out?: I went to school yesterday!
(249) Helped someone?: Yesterday
(250) Were mean?: A little while ago.
(251) Sang?: I am now ^^
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: Been a long while...
(253) Said "I love you"?: Last night to my dad.
(254) Missed someone?: Now =(
(255) Fought with a family member?: Last night with sister.
(256) Fought with a friend?: Not long ago... :S
(257) Had a serious conversation?: Last night. It was very educational.
(258) Got drunk?: Never. I don't think I have that ability.
(259) Had sex?: Never had sex. Don't plan on it for a long time either.
(260) Been kissed?: Never been kissed...

GOD THAT WAS DEPRESSING!!!

Look: Independent/dangerous ;)/friendly
Element: Water
Dependance: Writing
Title of my biography: Loser with a Twist
Patois: English, and hopefully one day Spanish and Latin.
I sometimes confound myself with: My thoughts and theories.
Existential question: "Existential" isn't a word, so I'll just say that a question I ask myself most often is, "How can I make this original?"
Phobia: I have a fear of being eaten by something with sharp teeth and a need to kill while I'm in the ocean.
Theme song: Drops of Jupiter - Train
Regrets: Not looking at every angle.
Passion: Writing
Animal which I resemble: A snake. Beautiful in a morbid way and yet very dangerous. Like, don't piss me off or you pay the price. Or a tiger. But whatever.
Cult: Not yet :)
Favorite Object: My blanket.
Favorite place: In a house in the middle of nowhere.
Nicest sound: Rain and thunder
Worst sound: Whining and thrashing.
Favorite body part(s): Eyebrows and legs
Mental illness: Plain insanity.
Era in which I would have liked to live: The early 1900's. More or less 1920's.
Spiritual Guide: Myself.
In my purse: I don't have a purse. But if I did I would probably keep a book, perfume, car keys, and pepper spray. Oh, and a pencil with a notepad.
Eventual trip: The world
Favorite musical work: I haven't seen anything on Broadway or any hard-core musicals, but I'll just say "Chicago."
Biblical passage: I don't have one.
Moment of the day: Any time.
Flower I'd like to receive: Red and white crysanthemums.

Huzzah! Halloween! Time to scare the kiddies! >:F

i wish there was someone. i feel bad. i hate me. i want to die. ... never ask a depressed person why.

He looked across the street to see her sitting in the park. He crossed the street to approach her, obvious to the fact that she was alone. When was she not? He smirked playfully as he walked up to her. She was sitting under a large oak tree, looking up through the yellow and green Summer-ending Fall-nearing leaves.
He sat beside her with his back against the rough bark, looking at her curiously, observing her kind and patient face. He saw the prettiness in her, or the sense of prettiness she had. Maybe it just her wise look.
And yet, only one question ran through his mind as he spoke to her.
"Why do you do this everyday?"
"Well," she said looking at him, smiling, as if knowing he would ask that, then back to the blue skies above, "I'm just waiting for the sky to fall."

It's people who make me disbelieve.

Brick! Ben's Fold Five <~~~ Best Song AlIIIVE.

Love is clockworks and cold steel, fingers too numb to feel. Squeeze the handle, blow out the candle, love is blindness.

I believe in God, but does God believe in me?

I had a really scary dream tonight... O.o Might as well share *shrug*
Well, when 9/11 happened I wasn't truly affected, because I didn't know anyone in New York, and I knew we would get the bastards back for whoever did it. I'm on the side of the war, don't message me "Be anti-war!" because the war is happening, and if you want to stop it, you're only helping terrorists. This is what I believe, thank you.
So, in my dream, I was a firefighter or something, and I wanted to go into the building so I did. And it was really dusty and stuff, because it was near the enterance way to the doors, and I was looking for survivors I guess.
Well, it was so covered in ash, that when I got up there, I didn't see the body parts, until I was UP THERE.
So, I look down, and there's legs here, an arm there, half a guy over there with practically all his clothes burned off, and then there's this pregnant woman... well, at least she was pregnant. The cord to her baby was still in her, and it was still attached to her baby. When she jumped the baby came out, she died, and the baby died. The baby was some way off... it was really... disturbing :S
So, then there's police officer, and he's telling me to get out I guess. Well, not telling me, just looking at me with wide eyes, like he's scared. And, I guess I was on a ledge and I didn't want to walk, but I started to scream, "Help me! Help me!" because of the body parts... I was so scared of them. But he wouldn't help me.
And then I woke up: I think the building crashed on me.

Dæmonically sick X.x

If you're not smart go to school and become "smart"... or stay smartass, whichever you prefer.