Today was a pretty good day. I got there misquito bites on my arm that are HUGE and ITCHY.
The yearbook got screwed up. More.
They messed up our administration
There are three different versions of my last name in that FREAKING BOOK, AND WHOEVER DID THOSE PAGES WILL PAY!
On the *very* first page where it states the yearbook staff, my name is spelled as such: Emily McDurmah. EXCUSE ME, IT'S MCDURMAN, WITH AN "N"!!!!!
And then under the yearbook staff picture/names,
I know the person who was responsible, they spelled everyone else's name correctly but mine. It's a bunch of preps who don't like me. And it REALLY PISSES ME OFF, BECAUSE NOW EVERYONE IS GOING TO ASSUME MY LAST NAME IS MCDURMAH! And it's TOO LATE to fix it now! I don't want to be teased about my last name -- I already am enough as it is! If anyone does, I'll freaking pound their fucking faces in, I am NOT GOING TO STAND HERE AND LET PEOPLE DO THIS TO ME!
I will MAKE THOSE FUCKING PREPS PAY. I am going to make them write apology letters to EVERYONE IN THAT DAMN SCHOOL, correcting the mistake. They will seriously pay and I will go to any length -- making fun of someone's last name IS NOT APPROPRIATE, and it is TOTALLY DEGRADING AND RUDE.
I am SO PISSED OFF! That just makes me REALLY UPSET, that those BITCHES got away with that! *sobs*
And then this one time, at band camp. . .
Where is my John Wayne?
Where is my prarie song?
Where is my happy ending?
Where have all the cowboys gone?!?!
Oh ya get me ready in your fifty-six Chevy,
Why don't we go sit down in the shade?
Take shelter on my front porch,
The dandy lion sun scorching,
Like a glass of cold lemonade...
1. What do you most like about your body: My skin... sooooft ^^
2. And least: Pretty much everything else.
3. How many fillings do you have : None.
4. Do you think you're good looking : Hell no.
5. Do other people often tell you that you're good looking: *Glances around* Yeah... *blushes*
6. Do you look like any celebrities : Mommy Dearest says I look like Nicole Kidman. But I get told I look like someone else but really, I just look like me.
( Fashion )
1. Do you wear a watch : Nope, but I wish I had one of those nifty water-proof ones. THEN I'd wear one.
2. How many coats and jackets do you own : One. For snow.
4. Most expensive item of clothing : I'd have to say my attending-wedd
5. What kind of shoes do you wear : I wear... tennies. And the ones that fit snug on my feeties ^^
6. Describe your style in one word : Procrastinatin
( Friends )
1. Do your friends 'know' you : I live my life a lot differently when no one's watching.
2. What do they tend to be like : Absolutely hilarious.
3. Are there traits in you that are universally liked : What? PERV! >.> <.<
4. How many people do you tell everything to: I can't tell someone everything. I don't know everything.
( Other )
1. Favorite band ever: The Four Seasons BABY! YEAH!
2. Most listened to bands : I've got too many. I have my days.
3. Do you find any musicians good-looking : Nope. It'd never happen anyway.
4. Can you play an instrument *Used* to play violin. Am learning guitar. Somewhat. But my real instrument in the keyboard (as in COMPUTER keyboard).
5. Type of music listened to : Rock, grunge, techno, new age, alternative, classical, jazz... J-pop... too many to list :P
6. Type never listened to : Pop. Rap. GHETTO CRAP.
7. Favorite book : If I *had* chose one... I wouldn't.
( General Questions )
1. Whom do you believe is the smartest man alive at the moment: ... Devan. If it must be a man.
2. What do you prefer, a sunny or rainy day : Rainy in the early mornings and then sunny in the afternoon and on.
3. Do you consider yourself lucky : No way. My lucky number is 7.
4. Do you feel pity for people who commit suicide : Yes I do.
5. Choose one word to describe how you feel most often: Thoughtful.
( Stuff )
1. Do you own any plaid clothing : No, but I own vertical stripe pants. They're blue ^^
2. Do you own Converse shoes : Who?
3. Do you own Saucony shoes : There's more than one word for 'sandal?'
4. Do you own old school Nikes : Uhh... dun think so.
5. Do you wear tight pants : Yep. Cuz they ALWAYS SHRINK.
6. Is there more than one zipper in your pants : Nope.
7. Do you know what a squatter flap is : Squats?
8. Do you own a messenger bag : I wish!
9. Do you wear your messenger bag across your chest : I would if I had one.
10. Do you own braces : I did sometime in my dreadful past...
11. Are braces worn anywhere besides the mouth : ... I won't be answering this.
12. Do you have short, shaggy hair : Nope. Mid-shoulder length. Growing it back out.
13. Does your hairstyle exceed a height of 3 inches : ...
14. Would you classify your hair as a deadly weapon : Can you say whiplash?
15. Do you think mohawks are "neat" : Depends on whose it on. Like Orlando Bloom, sure. But on Brad Smelly-Pitt... I laugh at ugliness, ha ha ha!
16. Is your hair black or red : Black + red + blonde + brown = auburn
17. Do you have a favorite brand of hair dye : I hate hair dye. I don't dye my hair.
18. Do you own a bandana : Nope.
19. Do you wear plugs in your ears : At concerts I do.
20. Are you amused by safety pins : They're so fun to dress your clothes and voo-doo dolls up with...
21. Have you ever used duct tape as a sewing substitute : Of course.
22. Do you own one or more objects with studs or spikes in them : Do my teeth count?
23. Do you own one or more articles of clothing from Dogpile, Lip Service, or Tiger of London : I own stuff from Emily the Strange.
24. Do you enjoy leopard print : *laughs* My bed is leopard print, baby yeah ;)
( Habits/Beliefs )
25. Are you disgruntled (having a general hate for everything) : At times, yes.
26. Are you an anarchist : Nope.
27. Does the American flag anger you : Pretty colors... @_@ Pretty... so pretty... to buuurrrrn...
28. Are you "working class" : Yes -_-
29. Do you dislike "preps" : YES YES YES YES YES YES STAY BACK EVIL PREPS OR I WILL HIT YOU WITH MY ODDNESS AND YOU SHALL PERISH!
30. Do you dislike Hot Topic : OH HELL NO! HOT TOPIC ROCKS!
31. Do you smoke cigarettes : Ick, no.
32. Do you smoke cloves : Uh... no.
33. Are you a thin waif : I'm thin...
34. Vegetarian?: No way.
35. Do you think meat is murder : No! It's called surviving, Darwin.
36. Do your nighttime activities usually involve drunken underage vomiting : I don't/won't ever drink.
37. Have you ever slept in an alley or park : Yeah. But it was out of a free will and a dare.
38. Do you wash your hair less than once a week : O_O I WASH EVERY DAY THANK YOU.
39. Have you ever gone a week without a shower : Yep. It was summer and I was isolated.
40. Have you ever been avoided due to your odor : I smell like candy, so they say.
41. Do you know who Jack Kerouac is : Nope.
42. Do you like Mr. Kerouac : Do you like Ms. McDurman?
43. Should Mumia Abu-jamal be freed from prison : Yes!
44. Are you a member of the Makeout Club : I've still got virgin lips.
45. Do you say "rad" : No, but I say "Oh behave" a lot, baby.
Bleh... I can't sleep. And you know why I can't sleep? BECAUSE THAT FREAKING STORY IS HAUNTING ME!
In my English class, we're reading this story called, "Flowers for Algernon," and it was so good that I came home and finished it. Which I am really sorry for.
To explain... it's pretty much like this:
It's about a 37 year-old man named Charlie Gordon who is mentally challenged. He has an I.Q. of 68 and can hardly spell, and doesn't have an imagination, and of course, with the amount of imagination you have that's pretty much a big part of your intelligence level.
So... here you have a 37 year-old mentally challenged man, who's working as a janitor, and going to school all on his own, working and living by himself. His teacher, Miss. Kinnian, sends him to this doctor to be used as sort of an expiriment to see if this neurosurgeon (brain doctor) can make him smarter.
Algernon is a mouse. And Algernon had the operation which was a total success, and the learning capabilities was outrageous. So they put Algernon to the test with Charlie. Or viz versa really. Algernon had to work his way through a cage, as did Charlie (only his was on paper) and every time Algernon won.
So then after the brain surgery, Charlie gets smarter. His I.Q. is 68, and this surgery is supposed to gradually get his I.Q. to triple that. Which like somewhere around 224. And of course, the average human intelligence (that's not considered challenged in any way, shape, or form) is 100. And being a genius is going over 125. So... 224 would make Charlie have the smartest, artificially made human intelligence on the planet and in time.
And he gets really, really, really smart.
I quote something from Charlie, "I still don't know what an I.Q. is, but I know that mine is about to go over 200 soon."
He gets really smart! And can beat Algernon lol.
But then one day, he comes into the office place and he tries to hold Algernon, but Algernon bites him. And it seems as if Algernon had been acting strange.
And then Algernon dies.
Charlie wonders... he wonders if that's going to happen to him. So he does tons of research, and he cuts Algernon open to see his brain.
Algernon's brain literally disintegrated. His intelligence failed, his reaction to things became slow.
And all this happens to Charlie. But Charlie tries as hard as he can to make this report on everything he finds, and he writes whenever he can.
I don't know if he died in the story, because it ended like this (oh, he buried Algernon in his back yard): "P.P.S. i love you miss kinnian, pleas dont forget to put flowers on Algernons grave in my bak yard...."
So, in short, Charlie had an I.Q. of 68. Then he was used as an expiriment and his I.Q. rapidly rose to 224. But then it dropped back to 68 again, and he probably died. I hate and yet I love this story... it's so amazingly sad...
Got this from [EvilHamster]... it's actually very true. My birthday is June 19th ^^
JUNE
Thinks far with vision - cool.
Easily influenced by kindness - VERY true.
Polite and soft-spoken - I am polite. I guess. Dunno about soft-spoken.
Having lots of ideas - Ooooooh yeah.
Sensitive - Muchlies.
Active mind - And body.
Hesitating - Depends really.
Tends to delay - I am a procrastinator
Choosy and always wants the best - That is so true it's scary.
Temperamental - Child with Temper. I admit it *sigh*
Funny and humorous - I am the court jester ;)
Loves to joke - Yep, yep, yep. But not be joked with in bad ways.
Good debating skills - UNDESCRIBABLEY true!!!
Talkative - Hee hee...
Daydreamer - Idealist. Of course.
Friendly - ^-^
Knows how to make friends - WHEE!
Abiding - Yep.
Able to show character - That's awfully true.
Easily hurt - True... sadly, sadly true...
Prone to getting colds - !!! They know me so well!!!
Loves to dress up - Hee hee... as much as I hate girly, feminissism stuff, playing dress-up is very fun.
Easily bored - OH SO TRUE!
Fussy - Tha's me.
Seldom shows emotions - In a way, that's very true. EXTREMELY.
Takes time to recover when hurt - I do indeed. But I try to avoid getting hurt at all costs.
Brand conscious - Wha's that?
Executive - ... meaning...?
Stubborn - I ADMIT IT! I AM STUBBORN AT TIMES!
OLD BIO:
Hey, I LOVE RELATIONS!! I AM OBSSESSED!!!! If you give me on (doesn't have to make sense or anything, really) it's pretty much 95% guaranteed that I'll accept :P
I am freaking pissed off at the whole world.
I've got blisters on my feet from walking, my back is aching, there's no food in my house, and Elfwood is not updating itself on my computer and I AM FREAKING ANGRY!!!
I still don't feel very different about Elftown. When I first came here it was a nice place to meet people, and I remember thinking, "Oh thank God, there's no deep set rules and I can be free!" But nooo they had to change that. Just give it a queue line to change your bio and pictures and you've got yourself another more-strict and less-fun Elfwood.
I mean, some of the people on here are serious jackasses. And the reason why you can't upload moving GIF pictures... is just plan gay and lame. People like them, and it's not like Elftown actually pays attention to what "low class" people want, but only the meanie-headed guards who have to cut everything short and make Elftown so un-fun. I mean, people like moving GIF's for the moods. And it does not get in the way of the text, for YOUR information. I will hold a stupid survey to see who finds it hard to read when you have one. I will prove it doesn't! I DEMAND that moving GIF pics become allowed!!!!!!
I am SICK AND TIRED of this! I like Elftown, and I wish they would freaking lighten up because it's just a place, and it's not like everyone is actually going to FOLOW rules! And when you're at least "hiring" guards, you should get polite ones because I can name a few guards who are totally rude and who treat me like a little kid -- which I am not! I may still be a little naive, but who isn't? I am NOT going to allow someone on the Internet to treat me like a little child. Someone who I don't even KNOW! Stop trying to be so polite, and say you'll do something and then be a total hypocrite about it and not even do anything! Sometimes I think Elftown isn't even bothering to note what changes actually need to be made. All that's happened around here are new buttons when Elftown people can actually do something that people need! Yeah, they have been a lot of great improvements, but there could be more! Like maybe putting delete buttons on the pages of messages -- I know that can really help someone like me out, who doesn't want to sit there pressing those little squares until 213 pages of messages are gone.
I am in a really bad mood right now, I used to come to Elftown to relieve more of my anger, but now that it's turning into this jackass place, I don't think I like it so much anymore.
If I get banned, so what? This is my opinion and no one</i> can hold me back from expressing it. I like Elftown, I admit it. But there's just a few people who need to go, and a few things that have to be changed, and Elftown DEFINITELY needs to lighten up a little more. I understand that there are a lot of people coming into Elftown and things have to be stricter, but you know, unlike Elfwood, you're coming into Elftown with no clue to what you're doing, and when you sign in, you're not getting a message saying to just read the rules and follow them, not like it was when I first came, I got a nice little greeting. Maybe they should post the rules on the registration, or after one registers, they ought to have a page of the page. SOMETHING, ANYTHING to lighten the load off Elftown!! This is supposed to be a fun place, but it's turning into a terrible one!Missing: </i>
Elftown's turning into a rule-based, law-set, jackass of a place.
...
Of course you know I may feel differently about it at some point or another during the day.
I was looking at this name book that my friend got me, and I was searching around in the Disney name area. You may be thinking, "So what?" Well, I don't think that anyone has ever named their child Cinderella. What's wrong with Cinderella? I mean, c'mon, it's a beautiful classic name. It's homely and charming! It's got Ella and Cinder in it. And Cinder isn't all that bad :P I think I'll name my first daughter Cinderella. Something like... Cinderella Echo. Or something like a good-girl name. Cinderella Amity... Cinderella Grace. Grace is too common though... waaaay too common. Cinderella Patience. Yes, Patience is a name!!!!! Cinderella Andromena... lol. That actually goes pretty well. Or there's always names of virtue. Cinderella Amiable! Pretty, but I think I'll most likely go with something mythological. Cinderella Philosophy... I would like to name one of my children Philosophy. Maybe not Cinderella though lol. Cinderella Benevolent... lol. I dunno... I really like Cinderella Andromena.
I want to name another child Philosophy or Discovery. Those are such pretty words!!!
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Ignore it cuz it won't work, haha :P
Every you every me
Placebo
Sucker love is heaven sent
You pucker up, our passion's spent
My heart's a tart, your body's rent
My body's broken your's is bent
Carve your name into my arm
Instead of stressed I lie here charmed
'Cos there's nothing else to do
Every me and every you
Sucker love a box I choose
No other box I choose to use
Another love I would abuse
No circumstances could excuse
In the shape of things to come
Too much poison come undone
'Cos there's nothing else to do
Every me and every you
Every me and every you
Every me-he
Sucker love is known to swing
Prone to cling and waste these things
Pucker up for heaven's sake
There's never been so much at stake
I serve my head up on a plate
It's only comfort, calling late
'Cos there's nothing else to do
Every me and every you
Every me and every you
Every me-he
Every me and every you
Every me-he
Like the naked leads the blind
I know I'm selfish, I'm unkind
Sucker love I always find
Someone to bruise and leave behind
All alone in space and time
There's nothing here but what here's mine
Something borrowed something blue
Every me and every you
Every me and every you
Every me-he
Every me and every you
Every me-he
Every me and every you
Every me-he
Every me and every you
Every me-he
Every me and every you
Every me-he
Every me and every you
Every me-he
I had yet another interesting conversation. But I won't be putting it up here. For... reasons you need not know about...
*mouth twists into a wicked grin*
Words are my intstrument; that's how I make my music.
Pretty DEEP, HUH? Pretty GOOD for a Yankee, HUH???
I think I might be bi.
Male Audience: *cheers*
... Just kidding.
Male Audience: AWWW CRAP!
I think I just had the most interesting conversation with an old friend over MSN today. *Contemplated about it.* Yep, it was the most interesting conversation. Probably the grossest too :P I wish I saved it, it would have been funny to put in here. But I didn't. All I can really remember is, "I'm... pretty hard." I don't know what that has to associate with, but I laugh really hard whenever I read it.
*reads it*
My Paper Heart
Please just don't play with me My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseach you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can
Tears fall, down your face
The taste, is something new
Something that I know
Moving on is, easiest when I am around you.
So bottle up old love,
And throw it out to sea,
Watch it away as you cry
Now a year has past
The seasons go
Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseach you
Simple things, that make you run a-way
Catch you if I can
Waiting, day to day it goes through
My lips, are sealed for her
My tongue is,
Tied to, a dream of being with you
To settle for less, is not what I prefer
Summer time, the nights are so long
The leaves fall down, and so do I into
the arms of a friend
Winter nights
My bedside is cold, for I am gone
And spring blossoms you to me
Your Star
She screams when i'm away She's been gone before.
I worry all the time, why worry anymore
Now I go, away
Now I know, today
I picked out your star
Turned night to day
A simple whisper from your voice
And I fade away
You wish for love
You pushed me away
Your love for me was everything I need
The air I breath
she, now she's all alone
Her eyes they drown in tears
Their love was meant to last
But she is blind with fear
Now I go, away
Now I know, today
Leave me be
Now I'm free
Love reflecting everything
You want space
I need you to help me see this through
Swing Swing
Days swiftly come and go.
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions they stir
The sun is gone.
The nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall.
Did you think that I would cry,
on the phone?
Do you know what it feels like,
being alone?
I'll find someone new
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again.
Wish cast into the sky
I'm moving on
Sweet beginnings do arise
She knows I was wrong
The notes are old,
They bend, they fold
and so do I to a new love.
Bury me
(you thought your problems were gone)
Carry me
(Away, away, away...)
Time Stands Still
Him and her
Life is turned.
The day I knew you would leave
I can barely breath
Can you hear me scream
O-o-o thrown in all directions
You epitome of perfection
She's lost her will,
time is standing still
He walks, her, home
Now he walks a-lone
The days they turn into years
The eyes they drown in tears
Can you hear me scream
The way we are the way they were
(It's just a shadow of what's wrong)
The time with you the time is stirred
(I love you for , so long)
The hearts they turn, they turn away
(she says to go please don't you cry)
Love lost was found, night turns to day
Time is standing still
"One More Sad Song"
One boy, one girl, two hearts, their world
Time goes by, secrets rise
One more, sad song, tears shed, she's gone
She'd take it back, if she only could
All the perfect words they seem so wrong,
She's gone
You wish that you could learn to see,
The door is closed and yo wish you could be
Alone with you, alone with me
What can I do, I can not breath
My heart is torn, for all to see
Alone with you, alone with me.
Best friend, worst thing, she's been, cheating
Friend deceives, she leaves
Last date. she cries, whispers, goodbye
She walks once more, out that door
Please stay, don't go away
The hardest thing is letting go of you
Stay, don't go away
The hardest thing is letting go of you
what can I do?
Alone with you, alone with me, what can I do
I can not see, alone with, alone with...
"Why Worry"
I worry, I wonder all the time why worry
It's killing me, forget about it
I whisper, remember what she did
Don't miss her
Set me free, she won't allow it
Angry and gone, and the list goes on and on
Now I'm letting up, I should be the one who's letting go
She's lonely, she's scared, I'm relationship impaired
If it's love, I will differ, I'm being lost being with her
I can't move on, I can't take it
She, she says we won't ma-a-ake it now
I can't move on, I can't take it
She, she says we won't ma-a-ake it now
Be-lieving, the things i did were wrong
I'm leaving
It fades a-way, forget about it
She's binding, can't do a thing alone
Rewinding
Times before, can't live without it
I don't know
But you did but you did ut yo-ou did
Please don't go
Now my feelings for you they're now lost
'cause we're through anymore
I'll write you , I'll call you
Now
"Don't Leave Me"
You're sweet just like the sun
But what happens when the sun doesn't stay?
The night reminds me when you went away
Now my mind was pacing, heart is racing contemplating things that I lack
Even though you left me by myself, do I want you back?
Will you stay or will you walk?
will you let go?
Leave me all alone
I'm giving you one more chance
To make things last
Ring around the roses then she'll stay
Leave me once
Leave me twice
Kiss good-bye that will suffice
When you go away
Don't look back
Leave me once and i'll be fine
Leave me twice i'll make you mine
Just one more chance to make it once again
As the days go by, I am asking why did you leave
You left me alone and then you walked out on me
Thinking of days, thinking of ways, thhinking of things that I should say
I wanna be with you and that's the only way
Don't say good-bye, just dry your eyes
A tear for everything that I did wrong
Don't say goodbye, just dry your eyes
Listen now just try and see me please don't leave me now.
"Too Far Gone"
I should warn you
Things you're feeling, aren't normal now.
Think you need me
It's not easy, let you go some how.
Now we're too far gone,
Hope is such a waste
Every breath you take you give
me the burdens bitter taste
You promise that you'd stay
You say you want to go
Your lips provide a shelter for the
things that i don't know
Please speak slowly
My heart is learning
Teach me heart-ache,
Stop this burning now.
Wishful thinking
Patience shrinking, bliss is far away
North is calling
Now I'm falling, at your feet please stay
"Drive Away"
She¹s gone away, but still they stay together
People call me crazy, crazy
My thoughts progress, I think about forever
My mind tells me maybe, maybe
I wish I could drive away to the sunset
Back to the day that we first met
Only believe the things I wrote
I¹ll put it in a note, yeah
Cross my t¹s and dot my i¹s
Better say hello, don¹t you dare say goodbye
I¹ll write sincerely yours and sign my name
P.S. I love you forever and today
Two weeks go by, seems like it¹s been the weather
The rain falls down she¹s crying, crying
My thoughts progress, she thinks about forever
Their hearts are bound lying, lying
All the heartache all the pain
All the words you said in vain
And I¹ll never be the same
"Happy Endings"
Time does tell
That even if they say so
She'd be the one that would know
That I did do what I've done
And I, I wouldn't call it cheating
I'd just say I was leading her on
Why walk while I run a-way
You- you ask me what went wrong
Me- i'll write you this last song
Please- just tell me one way we can win
One- more thing before I go
Two- the one who loves me so
Three- don't make me count to three again
Happy endings
Just what did you do, If you're a dream then come true
Stop pretending
That what you mean isn't what you say
Hopeful dreaming,
Of times before the pain, wishing it was still the same
Loving, leaving
Round and round and round we go again
Walks a-lone, have often lead to thinking
My love for you is sinking to what seems an all time low
or high, the limits' never ending,
And don't you know I'm sending
There's no venture I won't go
For you
She walks away, she talks away
She walks away
She walks away, she talks away
Away, away...
"The Last Song"
This may be the last thing that i write for long
Can you hear me smiling when i sing this song, for you and only you
As I leave will you be someone to say good-bye
As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye
My foot is out the door, and you can't stop me now
You wanted the best, it wasn't me, will you give it back
Now i'll take the lead, when there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive, is this what you want
Is this what you need, how you end up let me know.
As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope, that you will miss me when
I'm gone
This is the last song
The hearts start breaking as the year is gone
The dream's beginning and the time rolls on
It seems so surreal, now I sing it.
Somehow I knew that I would be this way,
Somehow I knew that I would slowly fade.
Now i'm gone, just try and stop me now.
And will you need me now, you'll find a way somehow
You want it too, I want it too.
Mwheeheeheehee
There's is now a very nice gentleman named [Kenshin Himura] in the Elftown midst :)