Sooo like I'm almost 20 now and it's weird to think about that because I went nowhere pretty fucking fast.

I miss living in Spokane. I don't want to go to school down here in Louisiana. I hear horror stories from Patrick (the guy I live with), and his classes and how retarded his teachers are and I just don't want to get involved. Plus, I am going to be honest, 85% of the people down here are black, and black people down here do not like small white girls who speak like a yank.

I've been living with my boyfriend Patrick for about a year now. I'm kinda tired of it. He has left for the week and I've realized I kind of like it better when he isn't around. not to mention I miss all my friends in Spokane, especially Remelisa and Matt :( Not to say I don't love the guy, but maybe we moved into things too fast? He has a 4 year old daughter and she easily grates my nerves. He treats me really well, and has taught me a lot. But he is a lot older than I am, and, well, our relationship will never lead to marriage or kids, because Patrick has been married and already has a kid. He doesn't want to be married again and he doesn't want anymore kids. So I don't really know why I'm still here, since I've known this for going on 10 months now. Maybe it's a dependency complex.

Patrick wants to take me even further South to, Florida, so he can go to school. He wants me to go to school and become an editor. He wants me to be... someone better, because apparently I am chalk full of potential (lawl?), but am too lazy and unmotivated to go anywhere. I don't think it's laziness and lack of motivation, I think it's just nerves, tbh. Maybe if going to class wasn't detrimental to my life span I'd go.

Anyway. I'm saving up my money. I'm going to be taking a trip up to Spokane for hopefully about two weeks at the end of August, to catch the flip side of Pig Out in the Park. Maybe if everything goes smoothly and I get a job transfer to a Justice in Spokane, I can move in with Remelisa around January of 2010 (that's when her lease will be about up and we can get a 2 bedroom), and start going to school with non-racist assholes.

Seriously. Black people are such fucking racists. I hate going anywhere down here... I don't want to wait until next January, but what other choice would I have? I love my job, and I don't want to leave it.

Sigh...

Also, is there a way to turn off half this shit? God, it's like. Cluttered. And ANNOYING.

I am... busy...

Drop me a line?

Okay, I am pretty much finished with Blockbuster. This is my last week, only because I was convinced to do it. My boss has me scheduled for 40 hours (note: 10 more hours than what I am supposed to work), but it is very likely I will be working somewhere around 45 or more. My last paycheck said I had 80 hours clocked, plus 10 hours overtime. Which means, I worked way, way too much.

Also, I am sick of these fucking 8 o'clock in the morning meetings to clean Blockbuster and get my ass chewed out for not putting a movie in the right spot. Or whatever the fuck it is.

And Amy not showing up or calling for 2 weeks, and then begging for Dooley not to fire her... c'mon, can she be serious? What a crackwhore. He gave her more than enough time to show up and work, but she just made grief for everyone else.

But yeah. Two days off, which means I work the rest of the week. Damn, it sucks it sucks it sucks so hard.

We're making out inside crashed cars,
sleeping through all our memories.

Turn off the lights,
And turn off the shyness.
'Cause all of our moves,
Make up for the silence.

And oh, the way
your makeup stains my pillowcase
Like I'll never be the same.

This song dances around my head like a halo when I feel lonely.

All these piercings young 14 year olds are getting piss me off.

When they're like 30 years old, what are they gonna do? Live on welfare and still be living in their parents houses, whining about their hair and cutting their wrists?

And yes, while I realize you can be totally respectable and have piercings, these guys are on the road to no responsibility and lots of whining.

They're 14, they shouldn't be getting piercings. They should take their adolescent age and wait until their like 18 or 20 before they decide to get tattoos or piercings. It's only so they can think about it fully.

A piercing can close up, but can leave a scar. I wouldn't want that, especially if I got tired of it after a while.

They forgot Rainbow Brite, My Little Pony, and Scooby Doo :(.

(Born in 1989)


If you're the age 12 OR UNDER...you should not read this

and if you do, you should not repost this.

Just because you were born in '96 doesn't mean you're a 90's kid.

Hell, if you were born in '92 or more, that just won't cut it either.

It's not like you could remember the original Simpsons. I am sorry but four (or eight) conscious years of the 90's just wont cut it.

You're a 90's kid if:

You can finish this [ice ice _ _ _ _ ]

(yay!)

You remember watching:
-Doug
-Ren & Stimpy
-Pinky and the Brain
-AAAAAAAH Real Monsters!
-Rockos modern Life.
I remember every one of these. But they forgot a really important one... THE ORIGINAL SCOOBY DOO, HELLLOOO! You can't have the 90s without Scooby!

You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"
Totally.


You just cant resist finishing this . . . "Iiiiiiin west Philadelphia born and raised . . ."
My life got flipped, turned upside down
And I'd like to take a minute just sit right there
I'll tell you how I became the prince of a town called Bel-Air!

C'mon, Fresh Prince rocked. Will Smith!

You remember:
-TGIF
-Step by Step
-Family Matters
-Dinosaurs
-Boy Meets World
-Sabrina The Teenage Witch
I loved Dinosaurs... NOT THE PAPA!

You remember when it was actually worth getting up early
on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
:)

You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.
I remember that!

Before Bush.
Those were the days...

You remember reading "Goosebumps".
I used to get so afraid.

You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.
On occasion.

You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence . . . not
Totally. ... not.

when everything was settled by:
-rock paper scissors or
-bubble gum bubble gum in a dish or
-inky pinky ponky daddy had a donkey
- ennie meanie miney moe.
Okay, you totally forgot hanky panky.

when cops and robbers was a daily activity.
And tag. And lava monster.

when we played Hide and go seek until our legs grew numb.
:)

when we used to obey our parents.
ha, really?

You used to listen to the radio all day long just to record your FAVORITE song of ALL time.
OMG I REMEMBER THAT TOTALLY!

"Where in the World is Carmen San Diego?" was both a game and a TV game show.
I miss that show.

Captain Planet. He's a Hero.
So way cooler than Captain Underpants.

You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the green ranger, were meant to be together. ♥
<3

You remember when Super Nintendos and Sega Genisis became popular.
I totally remember that.

You always wanted to send in a tape to America's Funniest Home Videos . . . but never taped anything funny.
Haha, yeah.

You remember watching Home Alone 1, 2 , and 3 . . . and tried to pull the pranks on "intruders"
Number 3 was made kinda late... 1 and 2 were it, though.

You remember watching:
-The Magic School Bus
-Wishbone
-Reading Rainbow on PBS.
Only in school.

You remember when Yo-Yos were cool.
They aren't anymore?

You remember those Where's Waldo books.
I loooved those.

You remember eating Warheads.
And lemonheads!

You remember watching:
-the 1st Batman
-Aladdin
-Ninja Turtles
-3 Ninjas movies.
Dude, don't forget The Karate Kid...

You remember Ring Pops.
YAY!

You remember drinking Surge, and Tang.
Surge... that was so way more awesome than mountain dew.

If you remember when every thing was "da BOMB!"
Haha, yeah.

When they made the new lunchables so that you could make pizza AND tacos.
Those were so cool.

You remember boom boxes vs. cd players.
Yay.

Making those little paper fortune cookie things, and then predicting your life with them.
Oh yeah, I forgot what those were called... but yeah.

You played and/or collected "Pogs" :)
Oh my God I loved Pogs!

You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet, or Nano and brought it everywhere.
I had a GigaPet, a kitty one. Geena lost it :(.

. . . Furbies.
Yeah, that pretty much says it all.

"I love you... you love me" [ring a bell?]
WE'RE A HAPPY FAMILEEEE!

You haven't always had a computer, and it was cool to have the internet.
Yeah, I didn't get a computer in the house until I was like 12.

And Windows 95 was the best.
My first computer was WIN 95, right after XP got released.

You watched the original cartoons of Rugrats, Power Rangers, and Ninja Turtles.
Totally.

Michael Jordan was a king.
He was so coool!

YIKES pencils and erasers were the stuff!
Yay!

All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand.
Totally cute.

You remember when the new Beanie Babies and Talking Elmo were always sold out.
It sucked.

You collected those Beanie Babies.
Oh yeah :).

Carebears.
Not the emo ones!

Gak was the coolest stuff invented.
Gah that was so cool.

Lambchop's song never ended.
This is the song that never ends! It goes on and on my friiieeends!

The old dollar bills.
I miss them.

Silver dollars, which were cool to have.
And the gold ones!

You remember a time before the WB.
Yeah, definitely.

You collected all the Troll dolls.
they kinda scared me.

If you even know what an original walkman is.
It's not a CD player or an iPod shuffle.

You remember wanting to sit on the orange Nickelodeon couch.
I wanted one.

You've gotten creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?"
Yes!!

You know the Macarena by heart.
I have sort of forgotten it over the years.

"Talk to the hand" . . . enough said.
Ha.

You always said, "Then why don't you marry it!"
Still do.

You went to McDonald's to play in the playplace.
Well, we didn't go there to eat.

You remember playing on merry go rounds at the playground.
I looved those... I never see those anymore.

Before the MySpace frenzy . . .

Before the Internet & text messaging . . .

Before Sidekicks & iPods . . .

Before MIKE JONES . . .
(which one?)

Before PlayStation2 or X-BOX . . .

Before Spongebob . . .

Back when you put off the 5 hours of homework you had every night.

When light up sneakers were cool.
I loved those...

When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.
Yeah!

When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.
Caller IDs were the shit.

When we recorded stuff on VCRs.
And on tapes!

When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off of our walkman.
I remember requesting songs all the time.

When checking out drawing books and that one book about the rainbow fish from the library was THE cool thing to do.
And that game with the jewelery.

You had slap bracelets!
YES!

Way back.

Before we realized all this would eventually disappear.
Noo...

Who would have thought you'd miss the 90's so much!!!!!

Post this in your bulletin if you remember these days . . . .

Post it with the year you were born in.

----

Pearly, this was possibly the coolest thing I have ever read. I remember EVERY SINGLE BIT OF IT!!!

Hahaha.


(1) You accidentally enter your password on a microwave




(2) You haven't played solitaire with real cards in years




(3) The real reason for not staying in touch with friends is that they don't have a screen name




(4) You'd rather look all over the house for the remote instead of just pushing the button on the tv




(6) Your boss doesn't even have the ability to do your job




(7) You read this list, & keep nodding and smiling




(8) As you read this list, you think about sending it to all your friends




(9) And.. you were too busy to notice number 5




(10) You actually scrolled back up to check that there was no 5




(11) & now you're laughing at your stupidity

I love this song. It's so vivid and I can see all of it.

Annie's 12 years old
In two more she'll be a whore,
Nobody ever told her
It's the wrong way.

Don't be afraid with the quickness you'll get laid
For your family get paid
It's the wrong way.

I gave her all that I had to give,
I'm gonna make it hard to live.
Salty tears running down her chin
And it ruins up her make up
I never wanted

A cigarette,
Pressed between her lips
While I'm staring at her tits,
It's the wrong way.

Strong if I can,
But I am only a man,
So I take her to the can,
It's the wrong way.

The only family that she's ever had
Is her 7 horny brothers
And her drunk-ass dad.
He needed money
So he put her on the street,
Everything was going fine until the day that she met me.

Annie are you sad?
Wanna shoot your dad
I'll do anything I can
The wrong way.

We talked all night and
Tried to make it right,
Believe me shit was tight,
It was the wrong way.

Don't run away if you wanna stay,
Cause I ain't here to make ya', oh no
It's up to you what you really wanna do
Spend some time in America, dub-style

She'll give you all that she got to give,
But I'm gonna make it hard to live.
Big salty tears rolling down to her chin
And it smears up her makeup
I never wanted

So we ran away
And I'm sorry when I say
That straight to this very day
It was the wrong way.

She took a hike,
Don't matter if I like it or not
Because she only wants
The wrong way.

I gave her all that I had to give,
But she still wouln't take it, oh no.
Her two brown eyes are leaking like a sieve,
And it still ruins her makeup

If you cut yourself, seek help.

Professional help.

Wipe that smile off your fucking face
To be despised
To be loved
To be dreamt of
To be sought
I'm the inside of "I don't care"
Right in the middle
I'm right in the middle

Be my unholy
My one and my lonely

I wear scarves and hoods 'cause it's the only poker face that I've got left
And everything I love about you is a mess
Smash the mirror and break the palm reader's hands
I want to be better than I am.

When you count how old your dreadlocks are, you know you need a haircut.

I have a baby bunny.
I have tickets to see Fall Out Boy in concert.
I'm going to graduate.
I work in a bookshop.
My parents are supportive.
I'm graduating in June.

So why am I so fucking angry that someone stole my iPod? My life revolves around music... someone went through -my things-. They stole my iPod and 30 dollars from -my purse-. My things. MY THINGS.

What kind of person does a thing like that? Honestly?

Aside of the fact that I now have to save up money to buy a new one -- setting me back in both college funds...

I don't know. I'm an angry person.

I have been very upset and gradually getting sicker for the past week.

Valentine's is the worst holiday of the year. I told him the gifts didn't matter and it was just that we love each other, but it was bullshit. I wanted a year with roses and chocolates and kisses and loves.

I wanted to be selfish.

Dammit.

I AM TIRED OF THESE MOTHER FUCKIN' SNAKES ON THIS MOTHER FUCKIN' PLANE.

*shoots out windows, shoots out door. Byebye!*

Man that movie fucking rawked.

I will be so pissed if someone takes my last Elftown name :|. Just in case I wanna change it back.

But no. This name makes me giggle.

“What’s the matter?” he asked, blinking at her from bleary eyes.

Taryn’s eyes widened slightly, a look of stone passing over her features. “No where. The bathroom.”

Me: It... makes no sense.
Him: That's why it works.
Me: What?
Him: Have you ever answered the wrong question, because you were thinking about something else and didn't really know what they asked?
Me: Yes.

It didn't even make sense to me, but he got it. Heh, go David.

It's like God wrote a letter to the world, stating the following:

Your suffering will cease when I feel you have repented enough, or when I’ve enjoyed seeing your suffering. I am God, after all.

Love and benevolence,

God.

Only instead of it being in a plain letter, stamped, sealed, with the correct addresses, it's been lost to a story that everyone told until it was shredded to almost nothing more than a myth.

Hello. I'm taking back sunday.

[*~Appearance~*]
Hair color: auburn
Eye color: blue
Height: 5'0
Contacts or glasses: None
Piercings: Ears and belly.
Do you wear any rings? Three.
Favorite flip flops? None.
 
[*~More About You*~]
1.What are the last four digits of your phone? 2512
2.If you were a crayon what color would you be? Cerulean
3.Have you ever almost died? Yes
4.Do you like the person you got this survey from? Don't know them.
5.What makes you happy? Funny stories.
6.Ever done drugs? No
7.What sport do you hate the most? Basketball
8.What sport do you love the most? Softball
9.How many TVs do you have in your house? 3
10.Do you sleep with stuffed animals? No
11.Have you ever broken a bone? No
12.Who do you tell your dreams to? My journal.

[*~You and Love!~*]
/Do you believe in love? Yes
\Do you believe in love at first sight? No
/What song do you want to be played at your wedding? Of All the Gin Joints in All the World by Fall Out Boy. Instrumental.

[~*Dream guy--GIRLS FILL OUT ONLY!*~]
Long or short hair? Short, but not military cut.
Curly or straight? Either works.
Tall or short? Tall
Good boy or bad boy? Good boy. Bad boys are appealing, but only for so long. Good boys are secure, which is always appealing.
Hat or no hat? Depends on the hat and the weather.
Ears pierced or not? No.
Dimples? No.
Studly or cutie? Studly.
Smart or dumb? Smart
Boxers or briefs? Boxers
Funny or romantic? Both

[This/That]
Lights on or off: Off
McDonalds or Burger King: BK
Do you wish on stars? Yes
Which finger is your favorite? my ring finger.
Do you like your handwriting? no, but it's mine.
What's your favorite lunch meat? ham
Any bad habits? I laugh loud.
Do you have any embarrassing CDs on your shelf? Ohhh yeah.
If you were another person would you be friends with yourself? Probably not.
Are you a daredevil? When my life isn't on the line.
Do looks matter? Depends on if you're looking for a quick screw or someone to be friends with.
Do you think there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? No. The rainbow disappears.
Do fish have feelings? No
How do you release anger? Screaming.
Where is your second home? My mom's fiance's.
Do you trust others easily? Yes
What was your favorite toy as a child? My blanket, Blanky.
Are you in love with someone? Yes.
What's your favorite color(s)? yellow, light blue.
What is your least favorite thing in the world? bad salads.
Ever been on TV or in the newspaper? Not that I know of.
What do you do when you're sad or depressed? Cry it out and let it blow over on its own.
Do you use sarcasm a lot? Yes.
What are your nicknames? Li, Insane Li, Sex-kitten, Emiri
Would you bungee jump? Yes

[~Relationships!~]
Do You Have A Boyfriend: Yes
Have You Ever Been In Love: yes
Who Have You Been In Love with: Anthony
How Many Boyfriends Have You Had: 6 or 9. I don't know.
Did You Get Your First Kiss Yet: Yes
How Old Were You: 14

[~Have You Ever...~ ]
Held Your Breath Until You Passed Out: No
Wanted To Die: yes
Smoked Weed: no
Committed A Crime: Yes
Saved Someone's Life: maybe
Stayed Up All Night: yes
Been To Another Country: no
Loved Someone So Much It Made You Cry: yes
Been Cheated On: yes
Let Someone Else Take The Blame For Something You Did: yes
Faked Being Sick: yes
Driven Illegally: no
Been To The Astrodome: yes
Dyed Your Hair: no

[~Favorites!~]
Color: blue
Number: 7
Animal: tiger and wolf
Website: journalspace
Food: broccoli, cheese
Thing To Do: sex.
Holiday: n/a
Friends: Pearly! Rachel!
Place In The World: In his arms.
TV Show: Sex and the City, adult swim
Place To Eat: Subway, Jack in the Box

[~Randoms!~]
How Many Pillows On Your Bed: 3
What Color Is Your Toothbrush: Purple and white
What Brand Of Toothpaste Do You Use: Colgate
How Old Will You Be When You Graduate High School: 17
What Is On Your Desktop: Zelda, Twilight Princess.
Have You Ever Got Kicked Out Of A Store: No
Do You Have An Online Journal: Yes
Do You Love Someone: yes
Who: Anthony.
What Channel Is Your TV Usually on: Cartoon Network

[Girls Only!]
[?]Whats your cup size: 34B
[?]Are you affraid of lesbians: No
[?]Have you ever made out with another girl: Yes
[?]Are you single: No
[?]What do guys think of you: Either too intelligent to bother with, or too immature to get involved.
[?]Do you wear make-up: Mascara, occasionally.

When someone has a poll that asks if I think they are hot, I always click on the option that says something like, "Other (message me!)" and don't message them because I want them to wonder.