[XxmekaymalicxX]'s diary

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Written about Friday 2005-07-01
Written: (7089 days ago)

I wont let you break me no matter how hard you try
You can say and do what you want to theres nothing you can do to make me cry
I dont care what you think of me
But I know what i think of you
A self-absorbing bitch who wont let me be

613406  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2005-07-01
Written: (7089 days ago)

You made me think you were something
You made me think you were smart
But in a blink of an eye is when I realized
That you weere only playing a part

You told me many things
You told me how to be strong
But you only lied and showed how weak you are
I should of known my trust for you wouldnt last long

You taught me the ways of people
You taught me the ways of you
But no one will ever be able to hurt me
The way that you do

613400  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2005-07-01
Written: (7089 days ago)

Wishes are made and they can come true.
When you leas expect it, it will happen to you.

Lonely hearts carried with emptiness
the soul is lonely and can not rest.

No one to their own so they
sleep through the nights all alone.

Looking up at the stars in the sky making a wish for just one last try
asking for strength to make it through another day and please send that “special someone” my way.

Wishes are made and they do come true when you least
expect it I have proof it can happen to you.

Now my heart is no longer filled with emptiness only filled with warmth and happiness my soul can now finally rest my wish came true I found that special someone I call him the best

-Teresa D. Brackin

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Written about Friday 2005-07-01
Written: (7089 days ago)

All these changes don’t know how to feel
So many scars wont seem to heal

Some of the things that people said really hurt
Sometimes they make me feel like dirt

At times I feel so alone
No one to turn to your so-called friends are unknown

I remember yelling and fighting
I also remember going to my room hiding

There are some memories on the good side
Ones that I can think of with pride.

Always going out
Without anything to fight about

When my dad actually came over to visit me
There was no other place I’d rather be.

But now he’s gone
And my heart has been broken
He’s had numerous chances to fix what hes done
But he can’t take back what has already been taken.

I accept my feelings towards him
The chances of me trusting him again are slim.

I hate him for all the times he’s made me sad
Sometimes I’m ashamed to call him dad.

Even when I was with him I wanted to go away,
All he did was sleep and eat everyday.

I understand how much you love your career,
But the thought of you loving it more than me is what I fear.

But those days are over and I really don’t care
Wasting my time thinking of you isn’t fair.

I’ll no longer cry myself to sleep at night
As long as you stay out of my sight.

Goodbye is all I have to say
For I’m giving up on you
I know you’ll never come to stay
Lie is all that you’ll ever do

Here without you I’ll learn how to be strong
With my mom is where I belong.

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Written about Friday 2005-07-01
Written: (7089 days ago)

No matter what you say isn’t going to make things all right.
No matter what you tell other people about why we fight. I’m gonna do what I think is right.
Take a chance and hold on tight.
I’m still a kid and sometimes play.
but I’m growing up fast and learning new things everyday. For things to change is why I prey.
If they don’t there’s a chance I might not stay.
I love you.
And I respect you too.
But sometimes I hate what you do.
It hurts to say it but its true.
So many things running through my mind.
They’re hard to catch and hard to find.
I like some of them but not all are kind.
I try to make you believe I don’t lie.
When I make a mistake I try not to deny.
Maybe that’s something you should try.
I want things to get better before it’s to late.
I don’t want our relationship to be built by hate.
Our decisions decide our fate.
Things look a little shaky at this rate.
Ill try to help things get better.
And they will as long as we stick together.
I wish that I could be in a fairy tale and live happily ever after.
But not all stories have a happy ending.
Especially when my heart needs lots of mending.
One day that nerve is gonna keep on bending.
But one day it will snap.
It’s like I’m living in one big trap.
And living a life full of crap.                                          

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Written about Wednesday 2005-06-29
Written: (7091 days ago)

Please dont leave me
I dont know what I would do
Without you I dont know who I would be
You were my wish that finally came true
Open your eyes and see
That your the one who helped me through
I dont want to go back to crying at night
You make me feel things I cant explain
Not to be with you is my biggest fright
Please dont make me go through the pain
You helped me make my wrongs right
In my heart you left a stain
A stain that I cannot remove
Stay with me
And this to you I will prove

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