i'm soooo bored right now !i'm tired of not being luved the way i used to !i know i'm luved but its not the same as it used to be!i used to be sooo happy about everything i did ,now i just feel like i have to do it !i wish i could feel that way again but i doubt that will ever happen again!i know someone who could luv me but he still wouldn't measure up to the other !i will give him a chance at making me happy again it's just i don't want to get hurt again!i'm afraid to fall in luv again ,i think thats why i'm not as happy when i'm with a guy ! i wish i could stop being scared but i know if i stop then i will get hurt all over again nd maybe this time it might be worse!there r many guys that tell me that they like me but i know most of them r just using me for something !maybe it's to make them popular or to make them look good with their friends or they may just use me to have someone with them !i hate being used nd knowing that i am !but i deal with most of it but sometimes its just too much !my friends are always supportive but i know someday they will get tired nd not even care but i will understand y!i feel soo alone but i know i'm not !soo i just put everything aside nd try nd have fun but it is always in the back of my mind!no matter what i do i will always feel alone !....................................

why is love the one thing everybody wishes for but then it always ends up being the worst at the end !i've figured it out the hard way ,loving someone can also come with a lot of consequences!it feels like someone just rips the most important part of ur life out !i hate being depressed nd complaining about things that nobody cares about ! i hate people feeling sorry for me ,it makes me feel weak!i'm not the kind of person who always wants to be the center of attention !i may come off as a person who loves attention but truthfully i hate it !i don't mind it but i'd rather be just a normal person!
 people treat me as if i'm a bad person !they judge me for one of the things i love doing the most !which of course would be cheerleading !yeah people are always stereo typed but i just don't understand !no one likes being stereo typed but is there anyone who is willing to stop it !no i didn't think so !people think its just a way of life ,how other people critise other people !yea i admit i have had my share of judging other people before i got to know them but i have also learned that everyone is not the way that people talk about !rumors are always goin to be spread nd stereo typing is never goin to stop but if everyone takes part in stopping it ,we just might have a chance of making an end to everything like that !i've been called a slut soooo many times since i have became a cheerleader ,its not even insulting anymore !that is really sad ,most of the time ,just random people call me a slut ,whore ,hoe ,nd all the other things !i have learned to ignore people like that but one time someone carried it a little too far to where they tryed to beat every cheerleader up for it !they made us have a lock down at our school!under cover cops were all over the place !for what ,NOTHING at all ,it was just people being stupid !well thats enough being retarded !i will move on nd push all the names aside !i know it will happen again but it won't bother me !i wish people would just give me a chance !instead of stereo typing me as a stuck up prep !cuz its not true if they took the time to get to know me !but i would never want to trouble people!