Well...latly i have goten my depression pills...and i made a promise for when i become happy again....to see if what i have been thinking latly is true...and it is...ex:my gf said that shes going to lay down..she signed off of aim...but shes still on elftown...what im getting at is...it doesnt seem like she really wants to/has time to talk to me anymore..im not good with these things..i dont even know wats going on anymore..but now i know its not just the depressed me that thinks it...-_-

     the aaron

You do something for me that i cant explain...
You take this pain....this shame...
The sadness of the fact i failed....
All these lies i held...
You took my life....
And turned it around...
Picked me up when i was down
And grabbed me when i fell...
Even now...
You do something for me that i cant explain...


new poetry about someone i love...she knows who she is.....ill post it on elftown main page....


i love you more then i could possibly love anyone...youve made my life better....even if we do break up next week or 2 years from now...even when your gone and away...wat youve done, youve changed my life and made it better...you made me stop looking at the bad things on life....hell...your the only one that can make me survive four weeks without medicine...i dont know anymore...like i said in last post...i just wish there was something i could do for her to show that i love her more then anything...i wish i could show her my love for her....i wish i could prove my love for her...but theres nothing i can do right now then say i love you dana..lol and wat we do at her house....lol.....yea she should know who she is by now.....if not somones got some explaining to do...

yay ^_^...im so freaking happy....i had the best day in my life at danas house...it was so fun...everything bout her...is fun..im so happy...i feel like doing something ...yea i just dont know wat yet....but itll be something good, yea...*cough*..but yea.....we did fun stuffs...shes so nice to me...i never been in love before...i guess this is how it feels...it feels..wonderful...


the_aaron

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another day of school went by....today i mentioned how my gf turned me down infront of one of our friends....and she seem to not care......i guess she doesnt feel that way for me right now...alot of people think when ur in a realtionship, kissing is a simple thing everyone does...but i know its not to me.... i really do love dana....and i want to show her

ok...scratch the last journal entry out....my life is starting to suck again..i crying infront of all my friends ... then when i tryed to kiss my gf, she looked the other way cause "shes afriad to kiss me infront of her friends because she would just 'die'".....im seriously pissed off cause she said she would let me...i mean WTF... im depressed...sad...angry....confused..i mean if she loves me, why would she care wat her fucking friends thought of her....watever....

Whats going on people...i fucking swear...i mean im happy... Tommy here is going out with someone online...*cough* LOSER *cough*.....all my friends are breaking up at one huge time...NO ONE IS GETTING ALONG ANYMORE...AND ALL YAL ARE WONT GET ALONG...and this cutting shit has to stop

A new chapter in my life. The adventures of 9th grade... haha sounds stupid....Bought some new clothes today...go me...anyways...school is tomorrow....there gonna judge me the first time i go in there sadly enough....two of my best friends, mikey and fish, and stuck in middle school still..losers>< They know i love them.....But yes....9th grade will be a new distructive chaotic adventure of me and my friends.....mmmyes...mmyes....


The Aaron

God damn it...its fucking 4:30 in the morning..and my seems to be so easy to understand for me for once....I just go done crying because of wat i just got done listening too...
Im at the point where i dont care anymore....i feel sick... i feel alone....i feel like im suffering for no reason....wat have i dont for this barron of a life... to result in nothing more of suicide? I dont know...god must have to much a busy schedule to care bout somone like me..pff....i dont give a shit anymore.....people and there out ragous claims that they love someone is retarded and needs some clean up.....cause barly anyone knows wat it fucking is cause your so usta saying it to every bitch that steps along for a ride....I dont give a shit anymore.. cause i know you dont either...so fuck all of the world..cept the select few that i might like...or even love.....but i dont give a shit...i have been tortured for my last time..I just cant believe your gone...and u left me here to die....why did u do that to me....


            I will have revenge

Today a hurricane hit florida...i was disappointed. I wish it hit where i lived instead....


My house burned down April 11...ten days before my birthday. I wont be able to draw online intill i get my wacom tablet back.


I have nothing more to say.....