Sometimes life is just tying your laces or drinking red wine.
and here are some nice lyrics...
'The things that you say may not be to my taste,
the words of a veteran.
Now say to me ‘You’re included’.
The things that I do may not be to your taste,
the acts of an idiot.
Now come to me, I’ll accept that. '
The Exile by Colour of Fire.
new day, new me.
hung with my deaf friend alex... smoked two joints...
word of the day...
'unsung'
I've Seen It All - Radiohead
I've seen it all, I have seen the trees,
I've seen the willow leaves dancing in the breeze
I've seen a friend killed by a friend,
And lives that were over before they were spent.
I've seen what I was - I know what I'll be
I've seen it all - there is no more to see!
You haven't seen elephants, kings or Peru!
I'm happy to say I had better to do
What about China? Have you seen the Great Wall?
All walls are great, if the roof doesn't fall!
And the man you will marry?
The home you will share?
To be honest, I really don't care...
You've never been to Niagara Falls?
I have seen water, its water, that's all...
The Eiffel Tower, the Empire State?
My pulse was as high on my very first date!
Your grandson's hand as he plays with your hair?
To be honest, I really don't care...
I've seen it all, I've seen the dark
I've seen the brightness in one little spark.
I've seen what I chose and I've seen what I need,
And that is enough, to want more would be greed.
I've seen what I was and I know what I'll be
I've seen it all - there is no more to see!
You've seen it all and all you have seen
You can always review on your own little screen
The light and the dark, the big and the small
Just keep in mind - you need no more at all
You've seen what you were and know what you'll be
You've seen it all - there is no more to see!
If anyone else just KNOWS, please messege me...
It's getting so lonely and I really want others that are 'awake' to talk to.
I love you all.
help me.
To those that care...
Hallelujah by Jeff Buckley... The man is a genius...
I heard there was a secret chord
that David played and it pleased the Lord
but you don't really care for music do you
Well it goes like this the fourth the fifth
the minor fall and the major lift
the baffled king composing hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah
Well your faith was strong but you needed proof
you saw her bathing on the roof
her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you
she tied you to her kitchen chair
she broke your throne and she cut your hair
and from your lips she drew the hallelujah.
Hallelujah,hal
Baby I've been here before
I've seen this room and I've walked this floor
You know, I used to live alone before I knew you
And I've seen your flag on the marble arch
and love is not a victory march
it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah
Hallelujah,hal
Well there was a time when you let me know
what's really going on below
but now you never show that to me do you
but remember when I moved in you
and the Holy dove was moving too
and every breath we drew was hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah
Well maybe there's a God above
but all I've ever learned from love
was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you
And it's not a cry that you hear at night
it's not somebody who's seen the light
it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah
Hallelujah
just got off the phone to fabi... she has no idea how much she hurts me.
ah well...
heres what i have to say to you... fabi... if you ever read this...
Life is something that happens whilst you're planning for greater things
think about it for a while.
love you.
me and some friends were fucked on ecstacy and decided to form a band and write an album... the result?...
Alex and The Irrelevants.
plus a 6 track playlist.
woo.
''I'm finally seeing why I was the one worth leaving.''
Postal service - District sleeps alone tonight.
Got pretty stoned last night...
Am going to Fabric (a rather cool club) tonight...
Kinda looking forward to just letting go and losing myself in the music for a bit....
Not looking forward to the comedown afterwards though...
Its funny how i'm taking a pill to give me synthetic happiness, even while i know that after the damn thing has run out i'm going to want to slit my wrists...
or it could be one of those comedowns that dont really bother you...
something tells me i'm gonna need more tobacco than i have though.
shit.
ate too much
It would go like this...
breath deep.
exhale and smile.
red with a hint of green.
yellow into black.
eyes rain.
breath deep.
breath deep.
breath deep.
insanity only exists through other peoples lack of intelligence..
a quick example that came to me while on shrooms and only really makes sense when everything becomes relative to the moment...
a woman walks out of an expensive store wearing a rather nice coat.
an observer laughs at the situation as though it's the most absurd thing he has ever seen.
the woman looks at the person laughing and immediatly assumes he must be insane.. for he is laughing at nothing...
but... who is the insane one?
the woman of course.
she has no idea why the person is laughing.
Stolen from [the obvious child]'s diary... because I know she wont mind...
[what do you want to be when you grow up?] : Nothing different from what I am now.
[which famous person would you marry, and why?] : None.
[what is your drug of choice?] : Cannabis.
[what is your weapon of choice?] : My Intelligence or a rusty knife.
[with which fictional character do you most identify?] : 'Rob' from the book High Fidelity.
[if you could swap lives with anyone for a day, who would it be?] : anyone ignorant enough will do.
[what are your best personality traits?] : My overall Intelligence.
[what are your worst personality traits?] : My overall Intelligence
[what are your best physical features?] : Eyes, Lips
[what are your worst physical features?] : Hair, Nose
[the last five things you bought] : 25grams of columbian mushrooms, Wrigleys 'cool breeze' SugarFree gum, a pouch of Golden Virginia, Rizzlas, a bottle of CherryCoke
[what is your favourite word?] : 'slightly'
[what are you listening to right now?] : The Futureheads 'Meantime'
[favourite writer] : Nikolai Gogol
[favourite book] : Diary of a madman
[favourite movie] : Breakfast at tiffany's
[pet hates] : Preconceptions
[are you in love?] : Slightly.
Someday I'l tell you everything I know.. but not before you know yourself first...
word of the day... 'ohhhh'... like when you remember why it is you put that particular song on a mix cd you never listen to.
did 25 grams of columbians today...
now I remember why I would never do shrooms again...
funny how it takes doing them to remember that same thing each time...
blah...
havn't had a joint all day... coffee and golden virginia is keeping me alive.
read a few of my favorite chapters of trainspotting to take my minds off of things... not the greatest of ideas i've ever had...
word of the day...
'exude'
had a great conversation with my best friend matthew... reassured me i'm not going insane and that i am infact a genius.
i love my friends.
It is said that when Buddha was first Enlightened he was asked,
"Are you a God?"
"No," he replied.
"Are you a saint?"
"No."
"Then what are you?"
And he answered, "I am awake."
After your trip life opens up
You start doing what you want to do
And you find out that the world
That you once feared
Gets what it has from you.