An Ocean Apart
When the lights go out in my room, I sit in the darkness as a tear from my left eye and another from my right fall slowly down my cheeks...I remember what my life was like before u came into it, as I look at my bloodstained sheets and the scars, bold, deep, and daring that lay flat across the threshold of my wrist.... I wonder what my life would have been like if I had never met you...and then I cry, it is to painful to even let the thought of life without you even cross my mind, but as I cry a cold wind blows through my windows, as I look through the windows from the wind that had drawn me there, I see endless possibilities, and then as the last wind blows I feel as if you had kissed my cheek although you are still an ocean away, my love will never die, your kiss a kiss you send by wind pulls a smile to my face, a genuine smile that has come from within... as I smile and think of you... I fall to the pillow and dream of you, as the smile remains on my face the entire time... but this dream does not last just the night, it lasts an eternity, for you are my future ... a future I would die to finally live!
11/07/2005
~By: Samantha Walker
I Love You More Than You’ll Ever Know
True Love can be and is an amazing gift that not many get the privilege to receive. It’s mysterious and wonderful, happy and even sometimes scary. It’s the most extraordinary feeling that you can ever experience. You never know what will happen next… it’s most defiantly not predictable.
When you meet that person… what you would call your other half. That person you define as your true love. Love can be blinding but true love is not debatable, you know there and then. When you’re not under a title that labels you “involved” and each of you are with another, so many different feelings arise and come to life… when you talk and even when you don’t, you can feel jealous and maybe even mad. Of course you’re sad and you could be upset. One might cry themselves to sleep each night.
The only thing you hope and dream is “I hope that one day you’ll be mine.” You have your fears that you may never be. Years may even pass, you may not talk and at times you may. Time would be your worst enemy and defiantly feel like a punishment.
But this thing… the thing that saves you two is your love, the love that remained so strong. Your feelings that stayed strongest yet was your love, the hope, trust and belief that, that one beloved dream day, that in your heart you knew would come. Your love has never died. You would give your life for theirs.
And because you are my true love, no time is too long to wait. Money could never be an object. I could wait an eternity to lie in your arms. I could wait till the last day of my life to taste your sweet lips. I could wait just as long to gaze into your eyes, to hug you, to meet you in person and cry from happiness, just to have you wipe my tears and hold me tight and have me feel safe. To gently stroke my hair and skin, to say to you in person “I love you, I love you more than you’ll ever know.” But until that day I whisper those words to myself.
~By: Samantha Walker……12/29/
My Heart
So many things I’ve wished I’ve done, but so little time I had. So many things I want to do, but never got the chance. So many dreams lie unfulfilled; do I even have an opportunity? So many goals and aspirations, I fear that they will never be. I’ve worked so long to get only this far. Been hurt so much by all those guys, I never thought I could give my heart, full and ready and all as never before.
Then this day I never expected, came knocking on my door. At first I was a shocked, a little hesitant, but I never showed those feelings. Those feelings then I thought showed weakness, but now I learned they separate the good from bad. For some reason that day however, I felt the love within my heart. It grew and grew with each time we talked. I never had that feeling with anyone else. It at time got scary and at times it was fun. But even through the ups and down, that feeling stayed so strong, it never left, it never faded, it never went away.
I’ll never forget the way I felt, and how you did make me feel. You warmed my heart with each passing day. You made my dream from when I was a little girl come true, you swept me off my feet, you made me feel like I was Cinderella leaving with her prince. Every girl I believe would want a guy like you. But luckily for me I hold your heart, just as you hold mine. Every time I talk to you I smile, whether I’m mad or sad, happy or upset. Sick hurt. No matter my emotions, you were always there to help.
So here’s my thought and here’s my words, read them with caution, keep them in heart. You make my heart jump, jump for joy. I look forward to that day we are together, oh how far it lies.
~Samantha Walker
~1/14/2007