'Glares at the world' Why is all this shit happening, huh?!? Why am I still in love with an utterly conceited stupid jackass? WHY?!? 'Recedes into teen angst mode' Nothing ever workds out for me, does it? God or Satan, someone with great power must have something against me. And who could blame them?

And to think that the one boy I thought would be there for me betrayed without question. Am I that unimportant? Am I so insignificant? 'sighs' Shit.

Very sad, many shit has happened.... Heh, I'm thinking about Ass Like That right now.... I juist got back from the river, and I saw a guy with a compound fractured leg and blood was everywhere!!!! Poor guy.

Dear Diary,
Just got back from Fernie, I miss Shea ever so much now... Ah well, soon enough I can run into his arms... Which is kinda really fully pathetic for ME of all people, but tonight I'm lonely and I want someone to hold me.... Especially after what mom said to me at supper today. 'Sigh' It doesn't even matter, does it?
Nothing's really that big of a deal it would seem.
My three good friends miss me lots though, so I guess I feel loved. Heh, oddly enough, I want a different love tonight.... Random and crazy as that is. Meh, whatever.
Well, tomorrow I'm hanging out with Alex, Mona, and Lee and some Lake or something like that. Noonish I think, so I got something to look forward to at least.
I've pretty much made a chart of ways to keep myself busy 'till Shea returns. But my eyes are sore and my throat is dry and I'm very much so tired.

I shall sleep now.... Keh, those Tarot cards... Need another reading.... Then I'll go to happy land.

Night!!!!