[Melocrie]'s diary
Okay listen up peepz!
My brandnew website is ready to be set online! It will happen soon, in a couple of days. The temporary link will be http://paulien
SO, in case people are wondering, I'm doing FANTASTIC! First of all I met this incredibly cute guy (which never happens to me O.o lol). He's very wise, and just like me, only then masculane lol. I really like him a lot, but I just can't tell if he feels the same for me. He's such a gentilmen.
Second, I got myself a 'manager' or an 'agent'! He's the marketing director of my brother's gameshop and he's been settling all kinds of assignments for me to do over the week. In the end I got 10 assignments for graphic designs, and I just finished the last one. In total I'll be payed 50 euro's for it. And he's gonna fix me more jobs to do! I tell you, this is going so great! The results will all appear in the archive of my new website.
A few more things: in two weeks there's Castlefest, a great celtic/pagan festival here. I worked hard since the beginning of summer, but I might not be payed for like 4 weeks, and by then the festival is over. So, maybe no money for Castlefest, which sucks big time. Well, at least I do have the 50 euro's. That's more than I ever had with a festival lol.
I've been working a lot on Saya and the Emerald Dragons lately (not the wiki, but the actual game). And therefor there's also an update at elfje midi's. The new ones are Sparks of Fate and Semi-Boss Battle. Saya's Theme will be on soon I hope.
I'm sorry for the major story, but for final, I would just like to say a few words to people:
to [Hellcatje89]: About you and Roy, I just can't tell if whether this is hard for you or not. I could see through you at the moment, but I can't get through your feelings. If there's still anything you wish to tell me you can, and I'm sure you know it. Maybe it's just me making a big deal out of it, but you're my friend and I want you to be happy. And if there's truly a break inside of you, I know it's not just about Roy. I want you to know I am here for you, because you are here for me too.
to [Gilraen Miriel]: It was so much fun working with you, and I'm gonna miss it. But it's fun too with [Hellcatje89]. But still, I won't forgot that moment from this evening, it's was kinda exiting lol! Did your mom figure out who it was yet?
to [May-lea]: I still admire that drawing you made for me! It was fun lol, I just thought about it today. Hope you can visit again sometime!
Ok this is it. A lot of feelings are going through me right now, both happy and sad. I've never been good in organising them. But it's no big deal, everthing will turn out just great!
Tell me... is this evil or what!?
(my brother lol)
Ladies and Gentlemen,
update at Elfje Midi's! Go check, it's worth it, I promise!!
Gyus, please go to the landscape contest!!
Dear Elora,
in the passing two weeks I've yet had more dreams, only I can't really remember them. Though, last night, I had one which was so familiar!
Me, my dad, some friends, my sisters and my niece were all in this little, round, orange rubber boat. We were drifting along white rocks. Suddenly, we bumbed in to another boat and my niece got all wet. I brought her to shore and started swearing to the people in the other boat, in chinese! O.o
Then there's a black hole...
Next moment, I told my dad and friends I had to get something out of the sea. I climbed up a cave, which was half concealed by a waterfall. There were two drains, each would send another flow of water down the cave. In the middle stood a statue (I think of a dragon). So, I pulled the drains, water flooded out and I dived after them, out into the sea. I climbed up a marble rock, and was holding a sword O.o
Well, that's all I can remember, but I am sure there was more. I just can't help thinking... I pulled the Dragonsword from the sea, from my novel O.o I think I'm gonna use this dream in the story...
Dear Elora,
right, something happened to which hasn't happened for a long time: the strange-dream period.
Yesterday I dreamt of a beautiful forest in autumn. The trees had some kind of red glow. It was almost like a movie. I was walking over a path when I saw a close-up of a burning sigaret. Then, I saw a cat lying down with her three kittens. I told the cat she was a good mother.
Then, I head my brother laughing. So I started calling him and we walked for a while like we always do, but I never saw him.
Suddenly, I was climbing a huge pine-tree. In my view, there was a vaste land. I saw a cop running with two more people, and far away in the distance, was a HUGE fire. So, I started climbing down and running, calling for my brother, but he didn't answer. I tried to take the cats with me, when suddenly the sigaret broke into a fire.
That's when I woke up.
But I don't get it... The place seemed so familiar, like I've been there for real, or in a dream. But I am sure I haven't dreamt of it before.... I don't know...
Ok and last night - I hardly remember anything from it though. Let's see...
I was walking down the path past my old lower school. But it was different. Many strange children were playing there. When I reached a certain point, a face and voice appeared out of nowhere and images flashed trough my mind, of a city and water.
One time, I went back there, and I saw a girl sitting. Again the images flashed through my mind and I asked the girl if it was atlantis. She nodded and started crying. Then the voice became louder and angry and started following me. That's where Vikram (my martial arts master and good friend) came in. He grabbed my hand a pulled me with him. We ran up a hill, but I slipped and fell. Eventually, we reached the top. But from there I don't remember... though I am sure it wasn't the end of it...
You know, I am sure more of these will come in time. And I plan to write them all down and find the meaning of them. They might just be illusions from my too-imaginatio
Dear Elora,
I must be off now! Gonna fire some really good snowballs at [Gilraen Miriel] =P Wish me luck!
Dear Elora,
Well, went to school, and back again. In my free hours, I took [May-lea] to a mallcentre called "Heksenwiel" (Witcheswheel). While I was at school, she went shopping a bit, especially chocolate! Then, we had a whole adventure returning to my house on my bike O.o. We went to the city again afterwards. We took a walk through the park, I showed her the fountain and statues, and we even saw roosters fly! I showed her some more shops and statues, and then, unfortunately, we had to go back again.
I had so much fun, [May-lea]! Good luck and have fun on the rest of your trip!
For a full report go to may-lea's roadtrip to the netherlands.
Dear Elora,
I've met the first elftowner for real: [May-lea]!! She's on a roadtrip through the Netherlands, and spend the night at my place^^ It was really fun. We met on the station, standing 4 meters away from each other, still without recognising! Eventually we did, of course, and then we went into town. We ate at a sandwich place, then made some music in my room before sleeping. I had to go to school the next day -_-
Hmm... I feeling rather.. I don't know. I'm not depressed, I never am. Still, I'm feeling so down. Well, it is going down hill lately, though some things are better. I guess it has to be ying and yang all the time, huh?
martial arts reopened! Need volunteers!
School's started again. I few days ago I felt like it, but not anymore. My schedule sucks big time...
UUUUUUUUUUH I've got a new pc!! HELL YEAH!
You're only strong when you have the strength to hold to your promises.
You walk against the wall when she climbs over it.
Which path to the future do you take? It must be one which has a dead end. Or one which takes a sharp turn back to the beginning, or maybe even further.
You have broken two promises one one night.
You SCREWED my 16th birthday!
~I don't know what to do anymore. There are two lovers. The boy has a drinking/smoki
Once, on a party, the boy got drunk and he and the girl had a terrible fight. He kept blaming her for his mother's illness and more more things. After, they promised that such a fight with hitting and screaming would never happen again. Not just a promise to each other, but also to me and many more people.
On the night of my birthday, he broke both promises.
She doesn't know what to do anymore, he's outta control. No future, no honor, no love, no strength, no realization, nothing.
What can I do...
He's my best friend...
What can I do...
Hmm... Life.. strange isn't it? Sometimes good... sometimes bad... But who decides what's good and bad anyway? And who decides what's reality? People say: "Stop daydreaming! Live in reality!"
...
But what if this life isn't reality at all? What if the spirits live in reality and we just live in the parrallel world? What if we aren't real... Who knows whether we truly exsist? Maybe we don't exsist...
Written about Friday 2004-10-22
Written: (7336 days ago)
I live with my dad now!! So wonderful, everything's gonna be alright from now on! And guess what...
...
For the first time in two years, I feel happy again..!
For [Tuquah]
You're an angel
the heavens chose you
wish this could be other way
we refuse
to say goodbye now
Hope you hear us
when we pray
We will see you
until judgement day
This is not the end
please do not weep
we will meet again
when we are asleep
I can hear the bells
ringing silver sounds
within dreams we will dwell
it is faith that bounds
us to a sweet farewell
Dear Elora,
my parents are divorced. This monday, Semptermber the 1rst, my dad is gonna move out and my mom is gonna move in. But we all (me, my bro [Makeda evil mage] and my youngest-older sister) really don't feel like living with my mom.
Our first thought ,of my dad's new place, were that he would buy a house on the other side of the city. But we were so wrong. Because guess what dear dairy? My dad is gonna live across the street! A few blocks away in a nice appartment WITH a garden! Lucky him, my dad loves nature! We already got a key to his new home, and I already like his better than the one i have now.
But you know Elora, it will never be the same, even when he lives this near. It's gonna be hard living with my mom. She's really selfish you know, though she might say she isn't at all. She says bad things about my dad day in day out. But my dad says nothing about her, simpely because she's our mother. But my mom cannot even say *one* good word about him. I must admit, the house has never been cleaner than before, since my dad started to clean.
*sigh*
Thank goodness I've got my sisters. They're really supportive to my and my bro. My are gonna make a list of all teh bad things my mom does and we're gonna give that list to my dad's lawyr. Hopefully, we can move back to him.
Dear Elora,
yesterday me and my brother [Makeda evil mage] went over to my mom and she took to Warner Brothers Movie World Germany. First you should know that I SUCK in German and that I simply hate hate that language somehow!
I heard stories that Movie World was one of the most boring theme parks ever exsited! I found it rather boring myself, with just a few exeptions. Like the Neverending Story tunnel!
There was an attraction of Batman's headquarter! We stood there in line, and on the other side of the street they held some kinda roleplaying/st
Then we went inside Batman's headquarter and some lady began to tell things in German. Then the commander called her and he said something was wrong. And then a bookcase opened, and there was a door! We went into the nest room, and there was he! BATMAN! And numbers of screens and one big one. The commander guy told Batman about evil street clowns and such, kidnapping children and turning them into PUIGINS! There were screenshots and tapes, that is how I knew. And in the next room we had to sit down in a room which looked like a spaceship. We even had to put on safety belts! There was a big screen in the front! And on that screen we saw a door opening and it looked to real! It was like we were moving in a mobile for real! There even was turbelance! The cairs were moving too with the explosions and such! It was so REAL! And then I saw the Batmobile riding by, chasing a bad guy! It was so awesome!
Well dear Elora, that was on of my dreams come true. And if would go back there, just to be on Batman's side again!
Dear Elora,
today [Hellcatje89] and [Angelica] came over to my place and together with [Makeda evil mage] my bro, we held a water baloon fight.
After that, me, [Hellcatje89] and [Angelica] went to the edge of the water to do... something. I was walking on bear feet (like i do mostly, i love to be a pilgrim). And then we saw a raven nearby. The poor guy couldn't fly! [Hellcatje89] caught him and we sat down somewhere in the shadow. We began to examine the bird closely.
At first we tought that we might have been bitten by some kind og bug. But later we thought he had a fight. The bird was pretty young, though. It was a early adult raven. Beautiful he was, still a few fluffy feathers. We called him Draven.
We decided to bring him to the Bird Centre, but it was closed, so it had to spend the night at someone's place. I took him to my home, but after dinner, I took him over to [Hellcatje89]' and [Angelica]'s neighboorhood. Walking though, i couldn't carry him with the bikecycle. Though Draven had been quiet all the afternoon, he was rather energetic the road I took him.
When we got there, [Hellcatje89] and I went outside on a field near [Angelica]'s house. And also she came after a few minutes. We examined Draven a little more.
He wouldn't eat, but the poor thingy was so thin! So [Hellcatje89] just put some bread into his beak, and so he ate it himself. He also drank a bit, though he should have more, it's was soooooooo hot!
Then it was about time he should spread his wings a bit. [Hellcatje89] took him by his paws and ran around in circles. Draven spread his wings a few times. But when we put him on the ground, he doesn't stand, he lies down but falls forth realy slowly on his beak :S:S:S.
Night was falling. That night, the three (four with Draven) slept over [Hellcatje89] place. We had lots of fun! Draven slept in a box in her barn. At first, we were so worried he wouldn't survive the night, but when we took a look next morning he was rather happy.
Then we brought him to the Bird Centre. [Hellcatje89] had this kitty box and she put Draven in it, and bound it on the back of her bike.
At the centre they said he wouldn't survive, but I am just so sure he will!
Draven we love you, and we will always remember you. The choice is yours whether you forgive us for catching you or not. But I just want you to know we feel no regrets for that. Because I know we did the right thing somehow. You are not going to die. Because that time when you crowed, another bird answered to you. That means that there's still someone waiting for you.
Dear Elora,
I got a message from [Merle]!! She sent me an e-mail over someone's mobile phone!!
Since a few days ago I was really worried. The news sad that the most fires in the woods were in Portugal! And since she was out of town, I was really worried.
But now she sent a message saying that she was doing fine!!
she at the beach, and she has this wonderfull view!!
She asked me of I was okay, but I can't answer. I miss her so, now more than ever.
Love you, mellon-nin!