is the worst part of the day. I'm sick. I'm tired 24/7. I find myself drinking energy drinks all the time. I know what's wrong, but I'm not going into details over a stupid computer. My dearest friends know what's wrong, and that's all that needs to know. It's nothing I'm going to croak and die over, so no worries. I just don't feel myself. I get angery to quick, and that's not the usual me. The best part of my day, was a massage and cuddling for hours, talking, of how I'll be loved forever. Those types of things make the pain go away, and make me wish I could be happier, so that I could enjoy being there, with Ian.

I am going to watch Hellraiser tonight. Matt's gone. So I guess he's not going to. Hopefully he'll be back for Monopoly, he owes me a game.

I go home tomorrow. For how long I don't know. I will keep posting while I'm there though. I'm not sure how long I'll be there, hopefully not too long.

Going now, there seems to be cheese now, which is way cooler than typing.

So I had this all done, and it asked me to log in, and I lost it. Fuck.

I'm tired, I think I have acid reflex. Hellraiser night is canned. Being replaced with Family Guy, Full Throtle, and Monopoly. I leave in 2 days, still no way of getting home. Deciding to stop Livejournal maybe. It's stupid and annoying. I need to remember, I have friends, and they are my age! That's all I need. I have love, that's another thing I need. I'm happy. Sure I miss my friends from home, I miss my family. But I'm happy now. Don't try to tell me I'm not, because I won't care.

I'm posting URLs for my different sites. If you have a Zorpia, Xanga, Darkstarling, Bebo, Elftown, Myspace, or Livejournal, add me. Here they are:

Zorpia: http://www.zorpia.com/Nympetatmine

Xanga: http://www.xanga.com/strawberry_wild69

Darkstarling: http://www.darkstarlings.com/display_profile.php?name=Stonecold_starvation

Bebo: http://strawberry_wild69.bebo.com

Elftown: http://elftown.lysator.liu.se/home.html?n=1149855908

Myspace: http://www.myspace.com/6279024

Livejournal: http://www.livejournal.com/userinfo.bml?user=surfacerising

hmmmm.nothing to write.i thinks i shall make sum poetry, this may suck, but hey, its random jibberish flowing out my mouth!

theres no love in your sadistic heart
all you do is rip me apart
i am nothing but your abomination
hurting me must be a fascination
im withering away i cant feel your pain
my blood is pouring like the rain
im laying here without a breath
youve brought me to my early death