Hey everyone this is my first entry! Im tired i just got back from Falls Creek it totally rocked!!! but yeh im sitting here confused as usual how can one guy one simple guy make u want to fall in love with him day after day..even when yall have broken up? its pretty weird i have alot of crazy thoguhts in my head right now! hmm thats new isnt it! ha no! well yeh i guess this is kinda how i feel!

Life is full of hate....
Love is full of feelings

Life is to short to waste on hate
hate is a big word with one meaning
and that is lack of love

Love is fargile and love is kind
Love is most of all honesty with a litte
bit of mystery

Life is full of hate and love
Friendship is full of drama and laughs

Friendship to me is more than you could ever imagine
to me you are the best thing that could happen

Then again its the worst
ive never felt this way before
i dont mean to sit here and yell but what the hell
i told you id love you and that was so true
but you just sat there and didnt say anything
what was i supposed to do.

Who ever knew that id feel a cetine way and not be able to say
those 3 little words that were comming from my heart
well now i can and its been done and said
I wish i could take back all the crazy things ive said

Some mean and hurtful
some probably made u cry
i wish now i had that power
to make all those things fade and die away

They say when you love someone you jus have to let them go
but why let go of something you might never get back?

so many times ive wanted to hold u and never let go
but the only time i tired to u pushed me away and said no

I know i still love u and i kno i still long for the person who was always by my side
but this time you have said goodbye..
this time u mean it this time its ture this time im not going to stop loving you

i will wait forever until the sky is no longer blue
i will love you forever until the end of time
i will be myself and stop acting like someone else
now its time to lay down my pride and tell u i need ur help

I had a week of "me time"
but yet the hole time i was thinking about you?

I see my self in 20 years still trying to get with you
i know who i am now and that will never change i will be a leader now and follow God in all his ways
If you dont like this i guess we werent anything..
i have now gotten myslef on track right where i need to be
you are not with my your sum 500 miles away but still i sit here and say to my self
someday he might be mine someday he might be in my arms
and that hopfully that day will come ..b/c im me now there isnt a mask over my face im me and thats how im gonna be!