Every morning she wakes,
and she only thinks of him.
All the time that she's wasted,
all the things that could have been.

Every morning as she combs her hair,
she thinks it's too late to move on;
Maybe he'll change,
she's been waiting for twenty years...

And everytime he hits me,
I just think of her face
and all the while he's screaming,
I think of a better place.

All the marks he's leaving,
I deserved it in the end
and all the things he's cursing,
I just turn my head and then...

Every day the same thing happens
and all the years go by
Every day nothing changes
the years just seem to fly

And one day she'll realize the truth
one day she'll know
and one day once she's lost all her youth
she'll think of all the signs she's missed...

And everytime he hits me
I just wait for the day
and in my room I'll cry

And everytime he hits me
I picture my revenge
but this I could never do...

All the cuts I've hidden
the ones within my soul
and one day I'll pour my heart out
and then the truth will show...

Every lie he's told you
I just never did correct
but from all the shit he's sold you
this shit I most regret.

But for now I'll turn my head
and let you make your own mistakes.

What's another busted lip?

But with all the threats you know he's yelled to me
I keep hoping you'll catch on...

It's in the nature of a human to destroy itself....












Bummer huh?

I'm dying of trying and no one even sees
I'm crying from this lying and the lying isn't even from me
I'm denying from fear of truth but truth is what there is
I'm leaving from being unwanted...Almost out the door.

I'm remembering a time when things were different.
I'm remembering a time when you were in this for love.
I remember a time when I cried and told you and you were at my door in a heartbeat.

Now I cry because of you.
Now I cry and you pay no mind.
Now I cry after you've deliberatly made me....
and this is fun?

This is fun to turn against some one who loves you and rip their reality from under their feet?
This is fun to make then cry and scream at them for no reason?
This is fun to hang-up just to see if they'll call back...then when they do..hang up again?
This is fun to be the biggest ass I have ever known...it must be because you're still doing it.

I guess I just have to move on because I'm not taking it anymore.
I guess I have to slide over and let her have her way with you because you're not changing anything.
I guess I have to quit calling and wasting your time, you have better things to do with her now.
I guess this message is just a waste of time;
You won't take the time to read it...even if I wrap it up and paint it all of your favorite colors...or write the names of your favorite bands across the top twenty thousand times.

So I think I'm going to just quit.
It's not giving up when it happens like this.
When you've tried but it's just not working...maybe they don't want it to,
but whatever reason it really is they blame it on you.
I have the right to leave.

And he won't care.
So why bother writing this?
He won't read it.
So why waste my time, ink, and paper?
Because I can.

As you have so "beautifully" said before.

Oh my god..
I hate everything....
I just want to die.....
and it's all your fault.....

I'm crying my eyes out.
and it's because of you
you think it's funny
well fuck you.

I haven't done anything
and if i did I said I was sorry.
I told you I love you
and you did this to me.

I'm going to hate you forever
but you won't even care
I'm going to try and forget you
but it will never work...

you think I'll get over it
in two days tops, I will call
well you're gonna get fucked over
I won't forgive you at all.

I'm gonna tell everyone how cruel you are
and I'm going to knock out your girlfriends front teeth
I'm going to tear down your cover
and show the world what's beneath.

and maybe you're right
I drove you away
I'm just a cold-hearted bitch
but I'm staying this way.

I know you'll twist the story
make everyone think I did you wrong
but I won't let it phase me
I'll try and stay strong.

Because I know that I love you
and I know you don't care
I know you don't want me
so I told you straight and fair.

It's not funny to play with people's feelings
and it's not a game when you mess with some one's heart.
So just go and fuck your slutty ass girlfriend
and forget everything from the start.

I'm just writting to have something in here....


I love you for reading this.